Sunday, November 27, 2016

Thursday, November 17, 2016

regardless of your healthy diet, bank account or how much stuff you own

regardless of your healthy diet, bank account or how much stuff you own
if you have chronic stress from being systematically attacked by predators at every moment,
be it mentally or physically --the mind doesn't know the difference between real or imagined/fake attacks--
by each move you make and every word you say
and you cannot escape the attacks
and find relief, peace, safety and comfort somewhere
by someone you will deteriorate rapidly and die sooner
than one who has a loving network of people who support them

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

social skills: the most important thing i don't seem to have. why i am alone

social skills: the most important thing i don't seem to have. why i am alone

Presbyopia, farsighted, astigmatism, 10-26-16 diagnosed

Presbyopia, farsighted, astigmatism, 10-26-16 diagnosed
America's Best Contacts & Eyeglasses.
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10127 State Line Rd
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Day Hours
Monday-Friday: 9am-7pm
Saturday: 9am-6pm
Sunday: Closed

10-26-16 eye exam
11-4-16 picked up two pairs of glasses, bifocals
11-5-16 returned both pairs,  first pair could only read text in printed material
in center bottom area about 1/2 inch space, had to move my head side to side
and back and forth, second pair had larger lenses could see better on top portion
of glasses when driving and at night.
both pairs tried to see on computer and everything was a blur.
they are making two new different eyeglasses, one readers, one progressive for distance and driving
wait 1 to 2 weeks to get new glasses so i can see properly.

A frustrating situation having to deal with not being able to see anything
the way I used to.
Sight / seeing seems to be the dominant one, the most important sense,
of the five/5 physical senses we have.

special needs handicapped crippled disabled are successful because they have a network of supportive, loving people (family, friends, strangers)

special needs handicapped crippled disabled are successful because they have a network of supportive, loving people (family, friends, strangers)

the physically and mentally healthy are also successful for the same reasons.

i am tired of hearing the stories about how anyone can do anything they set their mind to
regardless of obstacles handicaps deficiencies lack of money etcetera
because the truth is they coudn't succeed at anything
without the aid help support encouragement of other people.

comment from an old martian friend "even people in wheelchairs have
full time jobs".  yes, some of them do but not without the support of other
people and government organizations who help them

in the wild, in nature,  the weak handicapped old disabled, the slow ones
who slip and cannot keep running, can't compete, can't feed themselves
are eaten alive or eaten up after they are killed and dead

woman's requirements: #1 be beautiful

woman's requirements: #1 be beautiful
look beautiful
act beautiful
appear to be beautiful
pretend to be beautiful
if not naturally and really beautiful then fake it
not too many people can tell the difference between real and fake

Monday, November 14, 2016

used cast iron skillet during last week

used cast iron skillet during last week
feeling a little better
cooked
bacon eggs potatoes
spaghetti sauce
grilled cheese

Thursday, November 10, 2016

Inanimate objects (material things that do not have life) are most familiar to him

Inanimate objects (material things that do not have life) are most familiar to him. Things have life
and resonate through his blood. Physical things detected through the five basic senses
of seeing/sight, smelling/smell, hearing/hear, tasting/taste, touching/touch dominate his thoughts
and actions.
He is in touch, tuned in to the sight and sound of someone using a knife to cut food on a plate, the sound of dishes/plates being put/slammed, as he says, into a kitchen cabinet.
He says I use the knife so hard I could cut the plate in half.
He is tuned into material things and money.
He is not tuned into me or any other person I or we know.
He says what he says expecting perfection and others to know what he knows
and be exactly like him if they do not perfectly compliment him
he considers them stupid.
He is what he is due to his genes/genetics/ upbringing, due to his mother.
He does not consider my feelings or anyone else's feelings about anything.
He is only focused upon his own feelings, thoughts, desires, wants and needs.

Psychology, the favorite subject of my life since I was age 10 (or younger).

Psychology, the favorite subject of my life since I was age 10 (or younger).

I do not control you. I do not own you. You are not a robot. You are not an inanimate object that I can mold to my perception of perfection.

I do not control you. I do not own you. You are not a robot. You are not an inanimate object that I can mold to my perception of perfection. 

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

I'm betting it's mold in here

 I must have mold on the brain and my whole body is loaded with mold fungi bugs and toxic waste from all of it