Hooker wore slt cnt btch slve he treats women like this

 pops in a nasty "movie" video when the urge hits. also watches girls doing aerobics, dancing, stripping on stage, porn .
tells me i am disgusting to watch when i dance and i am to keep my body covered up and never move in any "provocative" way ..even doing squats, never show any skin even on my legs

I walk away and leave him in is mess, just the way he left it and likes it.

 trash piled up everywhere. inside each room in the house and in the yard. around the house. he piles up stuff and crams things into spaces making it difficult if not impossible to find things and to clean. cardboard boxes are one of his favorite containers. any type of containers that are solid and unmatched. unmarked. can't see what is in them. stashing sh**t all over the house in each room, in the shed in the backyard, in the storage area he built next to the house, in the neighbors shed across the street. 

dirt, filth, bugs, cobwebs, mold, mildew, must, creatures living in areas because they have covered up spaces they can hide in. 

no amount of me talking has done any good.

I have to....

 Do my taxes back 3 years from 2021...

John said laying in the hospital bed in long term care nursing home..

I said

John layson you don't HAVE to do a damn thing but

Die. That's the only thing you 

Don't have a choice about 

John does not meditate

 John must have constant outside stimulus in order to feel 

alive and in pseudo control

He told me other people meditate and he does not 

He believes he is superior and intelligent...and he is intelligent in his own ways

by memorizing trivia and news and information he receives from

outside sources

He does not allow himself to be silent quiet still 

He does not listen to inner self guidance direction

He is not creative. Instead he chooses to admire the output and creations of others 

He believes the answer is OUT there somewhere 

He prefers to use the touchpad on computer NOT the mouse

He does not see anything special in people he knows personally

He admires strangers and the news and media : movies, actors, musicians

He is a control freak

Materialistic, money focused, mammon is his god

Only understands physical needs and wants and desires

Food/eating, hunger, bodily functions, movement

Says "I want, I need, What I need from you is..,

 I want you to... I want this and that" constantly

He said "Don't take me literally" the other day when I visited him at the

nursing care home facility in Independence, Missouri