Keep Me Off Disability: 2026

Tuesday, July 14, 2026

Modern day Savages in the news. Ohio state July, 2026

The sex urge is dominant even in the worst possible situations.

The male wants to keep the female quiet, in submission and make her easily available for his sexual desires at any moment. Captive. Isolated.

Children are to remain quiet, uneducated, shielded from the outside world so they can't escape, cannot seek help. They know no different than the home they are in because he keeps them isolated from the neighbors, the world in general. They will not seek help because they do not know anything is wrong with their father's behavior.

He/him/husband/partner/mate shields her from the knowledge, the world and wants her to keep her body covered up to everyone except him.

He is free to say and do whatever he wants. She is not.

He does not want her to know she is attractive to anyone else.

He ogles other females girls women or whatever happens to turn him on at the moment. She is NOT to look at others and never make a scene or display of her body. She is to be kept under lock and key while he galavants roams around constantly looking for new victims.

He wants her to keep her mouth shut and submit to him at every moment.

Just like this one movie I saw when he told her It will be all right if you don't say anything. Keep your mouth shut or I will cut your tongue out. She said one word and he did cut out her tongue. She had been kidnapped held captive raped repeatedly by 3 crazy insane brothers who lived out in the country on a farm like area with old sheds old house and no one could hear if anyone screamed for help. The girl was tied up in an animal pen made for hogs or chickens or something. Tied up with ropes so she could barely move and kept on the ground. Fed very little. She got pregnant by one of them; father unknown.

This news story just came out JULY 2026 with the state of OHIO being the location is similar to what these savage crazy animalistic males did to that woman in the movie.

MALES MEN WANT TOTAL CONTROL DOMINANCE over territory and females womens and children. Most will work in some fashion or career, usually outside of the home. They want to dominate the property they live in and outright own in free and clear and do whatever they want on their property in their residence or any other building they are in our in any outside place such as in the woods or the wilderness.

They want curtains/blinds closed. No one can see inside thru the windows. They will block out windows with anything like plywood, boards, drapery, curtains, blackout curtains, cardboard...whatever happens to suit them.

Behind closed doors it is the same thing over and over... They want to be fed, have the woman take care of all cooking, cleaning and sex demands.

How people, a person, me end up isolated

Live with a person like my grandmother Sarah, a narcissist.

She had one way to do all things: Her way. No disagreements allowed.

Controlled who I associated with. Would not allow me to use my own judgement to determine character of others or anything else. Banned certain tv shows, food and drink, activities. Spending the night at most people's houses.

End result. A child then teenager then adult (ME) who lived her own little world controlled by her.

I began writing in a diary at age 9. My release of her domination on paper by recording things that happened and writing my feelings and emotions on paper in ways that were kind of "coded" so if she ever found my diary/journals she wouldn't feel offended, take it personally and destroy my work.

Sweet memories of watching Damon

Monday, July 13, 2026

Realize I am old at 65. Took selfie pictures today. Look terrible.

It is no consolation to know other women go thru the same things I do. It does not fix the problem.

removing myself from the situation is the only way to solve the issue

fixing a broken person is impossible

IMMATURE childish arrogant impulsuve

can't see consequences of his words and actions

violent hateful pushy aggressive loud mean haughty

UPBRINGING and gestation in his mother's womb formed him.

This created his diet, habits, thoughts, feelings, opinions.

He says he has his own mind and thinks for himself. True for some things but

most things about him were formulated by family and experiences. Just like

most people.

I really think the massive sugar he consumes,sodas, fruit juices, gatorade..old powder that

has been down in the pantry for years, bbq and hot sauces, salt, artificial colors, flavors and food,

alochol...rum in particular along with whiskey wine bourbon and beer,

the chemicals he has been and is exposed to have affected him terribly.

Something causes his hands to shake and I don't know what it is.

VISUAL is primary function. Constanly looking around. Miscalculating what I am

going to do, focusing on things and people and animals he sees and frequently misjudging them.

Will throw a fit over a scratch, real or not, on something like the car, a countertop or floor

but not bothered by grainy crap dirt and dust of floors and all thru the house and yard, garage and sheds.

Not bothered by bugs, spiders, ants, roly polys, flying insects. One day when he wakes up with bugs

crawling all over him or mice in his bed on the garage floor he might be bothered.

scatters shit all over the place inside the house and in and around the yard.

says he cant find anything if it is put away out of his sight

covers kitchen table with papers, cups, mail, ads, seed packages, anything he feels like putting on the table.

Misplaces things then accuses me of moving them, taking them or throwing his stuff away

usea the wrong items and tools, kitchen items to do things

wrong knife, uses same one for everything, a long bread knife

microwave lid, any big bowl, turkey baster pan ...uses any available container to get stuff out of garden instead of

containers i bought specifically for that purpose

keeps old shit crap junk items no longer usable or inefficient for its purpose

such as: the same old bathtub drain plug, metal, that leaks and does not fit right and has no strainer to keep hair or anything from going down the drain.

even smalls pieces of cloth, rags, jewelry, lots of things can end up going down the bathtub drain

does not know how to foresee consequences of projects or design things to prevent accidents

puts large fan in doorway from garage to entryway. i cut my leg open on it. he doesn't care. it

didn't happen to him.

leaves garden hose draped across the yard so people can trip over it and tells me

this and anything else he puts in the walkways or hallways is NO BIG DEAL JUST go around it

or move it out of the way. Same goes for the refrigerator disorganized often crammed with stuff

puts filthy shoes boots on top of surfaces we eat off of like the patio table

i bought or any surface top outside.

plants trees, bushes, vegetables in garden and can't foresee how big they will get thus

causing lots of extra work and maintenance. totally unnecessary work that wastes time

will not listen to any information advice from me or anyone else. things i learn from others or by doing internet searches

he will not listen to... just says shut the fuck up you think you know it all

thinks he automatically knows how to do anything without researching, asking advice

says whatever he wants to me without filtering it, without thinking first yet instantly

blows up if I say anything he deems is in disagreement with him

Makes quick decisions on things doesn't think them through ends up working more than twice as hard

as a person should on many things around here then blames me for all the stuff he has to do and

says I cause problems and start fights, harass and nag him every day

Death is a permanent release of it all. No more breathing. It's over for good.

Men are dogs, Liz, 17, my best girlf friend told me. I was 16

She laughed and made some barking sounds and let her tongue hang out.

She and I are cat women. Especailly black cats.

Liz passed in 2014. Her spirit lives on. Talkative, lively, active, full of fun and laughter. Intelligent. wise for her age. Sociable. Lots of friends. If it hadn't have been for her, I probably would have been the awkward, shy, backward introverted book worm that I was then. The geek nerd who had very few friends.

I was not popular in school at all. A real dredge drudge.

Elizabeth Ruth Bozarth Wheeler Stephenson

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STEPHENSON Elizabeth Ruth Stephenson, 54, Belton Missouri, formally of Lake Ozark Missouri, died June 11, 2014. She was predeceased by father, Leslie H. Bozarth and brother, Leslie S. Bozarth. She leaves her son, Brent Wheeler, Lake Ozark Missouri; husband, Paul Stephenson, Peterlee, Great Britain; mother, Peggy Bozarth, Belton; siblings, Stan Bozarth and Teresa Grimaluskus, Belton, Jeremiah and Joshua Bozarth, Kansas City and Connie Bozarth, Corvallis, Oregon as well as several nieces and nephews. Cremation, private memorial in Oregon. Arrangements: Cullen Funeral Home, Raymore, MO (816)322-5278

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A year goes by and you are still truly missed, Bless you Liz - Paul
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I'm so sorry Paul. I didn't know. :-( Rest in Peace Liz.
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I will miss you dearly, rest now theres no more pain
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good friend of mine starting in high school
Belton, Missouri
we were teenagers. She was 16. I was 15 years old
when we became very good close friends

She was
Born dob June 2, 1960
I told her she was the mirror of my mind

How to stupefy a society. Make them stupid and sick mentally and physically

Feed them drinks and food that taste good and are fake. this dumbifies the brain and body.

Fill their time with watching screens full of videos that are not real life

Tell them stories like fairy tales

Brainwash them into believing they have to do things they do not desire to do

Make them feel inadeqaute and insignificant if they don't compete and compare themselves to others especially those in the media like television, music, sports industries

Make them beleive their is always something wrong with their looks, dreams, desires, mind and soul

Tell them that anything worth having is worth fighting for and working hard for. Everything must be a war.

Unrighteous try to make righteous people feel guilty and sinful for doing the right things

RIGHTEOUS is acting in accord with divine or moral law : free from guilt or sin.

RIGHTEOUS Definition & Meaning - Merriam-Webster

Jul 5, 2026 · The meaning of RIGHTEOUS is acting in accord with divine or moral law : free from guilt or sin. How to use righteous in a sentence. Synonym Discussion of Righteous

Having to be right or actually saying and doing the right things: Which is more important?

Lots of creations happen in the bedroom

or kitchen or garage or basement or any room at home

ideas pop up anywhere some at strangest times like while driving a car, dreaming, spacing off, waking up,

eating, meditating, talking in conversation with a synchronized being, in the company of a familiar

A Fool and his mouth are soon parted. As people evacuate the area.

Sunday, July 12, 2026

Porn o copia : Irony of fantasy hard work admirers and obsession with watching others DO things especially sex. The pot of GOLD en Honey HORN of Plenty

Wonder what he will do when he finds one of his family members such as sister, cousin, niece or one of his friends, old or new, or neighbors, someone he knows personally who is on or has been in porn movies?????

What about his own mother? Doubtful but possible. Anything is possible.

What if he saw his wife, girlfriend, ex in the sex tapes? What would his reaction be? *Disgust???** OH, but it's not so disgusting watching STRANGERS do it....

Do any of these guys/men ever wonder who these women ARE in these fake videos and films?

What do these men and women DO for a living besides suck fuck and screw on tape?

Are they doing any of the HARD work he admires so much? Like yard work, mechanical, electrical, woodworking, any kind of manual labor with instense use of the muscles besides their vagina or penis?

this is a guy who is paranoid about people peeping looking into the windows of our own house at night whenever there is a light on. he lays down the law about the kinds of clothes I can wear out of this house forbidding even anything that looks like a corset top. any item that is see thru in any fashion, anything that shows my butt cheeks (short shorts) or tops or sides of my breasts/boobs much liess going WITHOUT underwear at any time even if I am wearing a thick cloth dark dress or shirt no one could see through. I am not to wear shiny stuff, sequin ornamented items, those oh soo sexy hose i have that look like stripes ........

He does not realize that men make passes at me even when I am NOT dressed in sexy revealing clothes. I have been wearing a plain old dark t shirt and baggy jeans and a baggy jackets and men have come at me. I have worn a classy white tailored shirt and black slacks..professional dress clothes and had guys try to get me. While shopping, at work, in the neighborhood, virtually anywhere.

He respects those in the media far more than anyone in his real life

An intelligent person especially a woman, primarily ME, is the biggest threat to him

I am his biggest threat

He views me as the ENEMY not the PARTNER. There is no fairness or equality in his mind. I am beneath him in all ways he believes he is SUPERIOR to me.

From Adam to Zach the males want ONE thing: to have sex with as many women as possible

the heterosexual or bisexual ones, anyway.

the truly homosexual have no interest in having sex with the female body

Ted Bundy's demeanor reminds me of someone I knew/know

Bundy. The sneaky little devil wimp with half closed his eyes when he talked. The one who tilted his head sideways in interviews. Wouldn't look the interviewer straight on and meet his eyes/his or her gaze. The sideways looking SNAKE charmer.

The two 2 faced lying criminal bastard sob.

he tried to appear intelligent, knowledgable, smart. studied in law school, politics. worked on a suicide line acting like he was helping those desperate lonely people who had given up hope on life.

he really thought he was one SMART sonofabitch. in reality he was one of the dumbest asses who ever existed. a discredit to humanity. a loathsome COWARD.

he definitely wanted to LOOK good and make people think he was a good, honest upright citizen of the world. the clean cut little boy acting attitude full of demonic possession.

he sneaked around getting girls and women, killing them and raping their bodies, dead or alive.

he wanted the victim motionless, stationary as he took his rage out on the poor girl

he was a voyeur, hiding in the bushes, lurking around spying on unknowing girls while

jacking off in the bushes

he claims porn is what caused him to be this way.

there may be some truth in it however he showed zero self control and a lot of

deliberate premeditated planning in his assaults, attacks, bludgeoning these ladies to death

he loaded his nasty little vw volkswagen with his kill kit. he made his car so she couldn't get out the door

he tossed her into the back seat with all his killing material tape hammers tire tools and what not

he knew where he would take these innocent prey so he could continue to assault and rape them while alive and after they died

cold blooded calculated pure evil sex maniac control freek. fake, phony, false. weak. bully. wimp ass who couldn't fight a man.

he had his whole family, co workers, any associates he knew at work school or was related to including his innocent shy girlfriend who had no clue as to what mr hyde was doing on his "days off".. he had them all fooled with his fake college boy look and act. his well groomed hair, his careful speech patterns.

his fake injuries to his body like when he put a cast on his arm to make it look like he was injured weak and harmless ..then he would ask a young dame for her help carrying his books or come up with fake reasons to get her into his car

he attacked those girls women and ladies who he thought were weaker than him.

he never had the balls to fist fight a MAN. he was ballless, without good testicles.

He can't keep his hands off of anything or anyone: Michael Lynn Stillwell. MIKE

Many faces of me, of human beings

I see the countless faces and "hats" of other people and myself.

The faces I/we show in public, to the outside world and the multiude of faces and emotions we show in private.

The more she does the less she gets

Lots of memories return with this silent solitude

Don't remind me I'm not in my 20s or any previous biological age in years.

Saturday, July 11, 2026

Things he has in common with his buddies

doesn't like children

treats women like dirt and slaves. used for sex and menial work

acts like he is single

impulsive spur of the moment

stops in on people and has people drop in at the last minute

no planning

eats nasty trash junk sugar and sweet drinks

lacks self awareness

not normal social behavior rude impolite

calls people names like stupid idiot

egotistical

jumps to do things with other people and if they have a girlfriend or wife she is last

lacks organizations skills

scatters junk and trash and boxes of stuff all over the place

works in filthy grimy jobs manual labor

does not know how to treat a lady

views watches porn and magazines videos tapes dvds stuff on the internet

wants neighbors and strangers to admire and respect him and does not care if their wife or girlfriend has any respect for him. he puts her last

he tells her to shut the fuck up and hits her in the face mouth body and sometimes knocks her down onto the ground floor and pushes and shoves her when he gets angry

gets angry over the littlest stupidest things

has no self control

drives too fast

cusses out other drivers

always looking around for a new piece of ass

secretive hides nasty behavior behind closed doors

doesn't change bedroom sheets blankets very often and does not wash towels linens or clothes often ...will wear same filthy clothes over and over

shoes and socks stink

picks nose spits anywhere sneezes all over the place puts dirty hands on everything

incorrigible, cannot learn basic simple things

arrogant, prideful, hateful, self satisfying,

hides money

gets things for himself and hides the stuff

uses cash frequently so it can't be tracked

locks up things in a cabinet or other places and will not reveal what is inside of it

does not appreciate or recognize what any woman does or has done for him

misogynist woman hater user abuser

Friday, July 10, 2026

THE WORLD IS FULL OF STUPID PEOPLE WHO DO NOT LISTEN

like him and some others i met and know

talks over me, discounts and minimizes what I say

calls me stupid when he in fact, is the one who is stupid

they are fast talking never listening know it alls who get defensive immediately in any given situation

and have zero patience for social behaviors of people or animals

He said I have the important things

back in June right after we had sex

Men who did not learn dating skills in their youth

John Layson. The man I am married to. The previous man I was married to.

There was something about them that made them unattractive to the opposite sex.

They were not popular in school.

Homosexual friends and variety of kinds of friends and associates.

I have been friends with men who are gay. I just realized my aunt Ruth and my mother in law Patty did the same thing. John Layson also accepted people the way they are.

This seems to be a rare phenomenon.

We have friends from a variety of backgrounds. Different jobs, locations, lifestyles.

We respect people for who they are in their ethical sense not based upon their sexual preference.

Common story theme: She lures him in with sex then takes his money and or his life.

Just like some spiders and prayer mantis, bees

Thursday, July 9, 2026

I assembled new twin xl bedframe 18" tall I just got from walmart delivery today. About half an hour to do

he was sitting in the living room in his recliner when i brought in the box

then he went to the garage and has been there laying down or whatever for 2 hours

Drafting chair, white and new he assembled earlier today. took about half hour

Why is one corner of his sheets and blanket on the mattress covers pulled up?

Dirty paper towel on top of mattress and a brown napkin next to the wall beside the bed. Light colored blue jeans like cargos I have never seen him wear folded up on his desk. Trash can cockeyed looking..it is usually straight. Blankets look like someone has been sitting on them and he has been sleeping on a bed in the garage for several weeks NOT his bed.

And I saw some white hairs that look like they came from an animal not a human. About 3 inch long hairs.

Neither of our hairs on our head are like these hairs.

What has been going on?

Discovered a few minutes ago. July 9 2026

Wednesday, July 8, 2026

He wants to look good in public. Doesn't want anyone to know how rotten he is at home to me.

He acts totally different to other people.

He doesn't show them his Mr Hyde evil side: the strangers, the neighbors, his family members, my family, friends, associates, people he and I sell things to off the internet like craigslist, ebay, facebook marketplace or anywhere else.

He disrespects, disregards, slams all of me. Always has now that I think about all the memories for 35 years

The whole me he disrespects, disregards, minimizes, shits on, slams.

likes and loves, interests, activities, duties

work jobs

intelligence

education, ability to learn and go to school

health

personality

parks i like to go to

swimming, dancing

friendliness, talktativeness

appearance, face and body

attractiveness to other people men, women and children

ability to attract animals like dogs and cats, deer, any animal

talents, gifts, blessings

purpose

the things I buy

things I say, real stories and facts I relate to him

paying bills early

food I eat and how much

vitamins, minerals, herbs

He has never had confidence in me about anything I do or can do.

He appreciates very little about me.

He compares me to "everybody else"

He has always quickly thrown me away, acts like he doesn't need me for anything (except sex), pushed me away, threatened to find somebody else (a woman who WORKS), get a divorce

Why he does this? All of his sisters and brothers, neices, nephews, mother, cousins do/did this to their partners treating them like they were never good enough, like a piece of shit trash. I have been around his family members and listened to what they say and watched how they treated their mates, husbands, wives, girlfriends, boyfriends.

Tuesday, July 7, 2026

What kind of creature are you dealing with? Most important thing to know first.

Then you can anticipate their actions and lead, follow or avoid them accordingly

Birthday cake when I was a teenager. Dancing people decor on the cake. Grandma bought it

I was either 14, 15 or 16

I don't have any pictures of it and I lost the little dancing figures years ago.

All of grandma's family pictures are gone.

Monday, July 6, 2026

Will deliberately do what I don't want

Mourning dove. First heard in May 1987. Love that bird's sound

Tshirt and underwear incident I was 14. Unintentional sexual turn on

Grandma got upset with me. I didn't understand why.

I was sitting at the kitchen at the table wearing a big white t-shirt that belonged to grandpa. I had just got up that morning after sleeping in it.

The garbage disposal repair man was in the kitchen working under the sink. I had let him in the house after he rang the doorbell.

I sat in a kitchen chair and was talking to him. I had on panties but no shorts or pants so he must have been able to see my crotch area pretty good at that angle.

She came in the kitchen and said, "Sarah what are you doing.! Go in your room. "

She came in the bedroom and said "You don't do that. Put on some pants. You don't sit there talking to a man dressed like that!"

I had no idea what was going on. Now over 50 years later I still remember her anger. It's something she was well aware of and I was not. She was 45 years older than me. Had been married 5 times, bore 3 children and had 8 grandkids at the time.

Its called the way it's so easy for a man to get sexually turned on by what he sees.

There was no provocation on my part. I wasn't even aware that he would look at me in that way.

And as I got older through the years I still have a hard time understanding that I need to fully covered up at all times even when I am home and my husband is the only person here.

And not only fully covered but be careful about wearing tight clothes especially jeans leggings tights paired with a top that shows my hourglass figure.

Friday, July 3, 2026

My picture on the fireplace mantel. I was age 6. Grandma said I had a beautiful smile.

She kept that picture on top of the fireplace in the new house Grandpa and Grandma bought in April 1971. It was in Belton, Missouri on Stacey Drive.

Grandma died December 2, 2008. The picture was still there after all those years.

2008-1971=37 years

Thursday, July 2, 2026

Stupidity and stupid people can't be dealt with. They cannot learn. They cause major problems worldwide

You never know what they might do.

They cannot have a logical argument or sensible conversation.

No one can reason with them.

They base their decsions on faulty emotional "reasoning"

They have angry outbursts when they dont get what they want, cant do what they do and do not understand something...just like a very small child aged 1, 2 or 3 years old

They are unable to carry on an intelligent conversation.

They are miserable creatures, easily upset and angered by the slightest things

They lack self control over their impulses

prejudiced, prejudice, double standards,

what's in it for me attitude

cause of chaos and destruction anywhere they are

their reason for existence and putpose is to cause problems, onfusion, misery, create conflict where none existed

peace is their enemy

dense, thick and dull minded/headed

obtuse, stubborn, unreasonable

Money. My income he always wants to know. Make sure that I spend most on utility bills, gas, car parts.

Ordered a cool box cutter I saw a Walmart employee using a few weeks ago. Will use for shipping items. Lots of things to sell/get rid of.

Wednesday, July 1, 2026

Billy Milligan book I am reading :The Minds of Billy Milligan by Daniel Keyes

24 personalities

First person to get out of crimes committed due to diagnosed multiple personolity disorder.

Recent things he focuses on. Says forget the past

He never wants to hear his words actions tone of voice reflected back to him

He will claim he is being nice and in the right regardless of what he actually says or does.

Won't admit his horrible behavior.

Thinks of himself as a great person who rarely makes a mistake.

I need more recording devices here.

Continuous recording cameras strategically placed in various spots on this property.

he was nice to me last nite soon as i got home 1010 pm. evil right before i left as usual

Asked him why? He said because you are not being a bitch .

I don't believe him. Something happened while I was gone to cause his sudden niceness

He said those you look nice. All white looks cool. Those shorts look new. Then he came in my room later trying to get sex.

I laid down on bed in center bedroom. Just showered so I was clean. Put his head in my crotch for a minute then abruptly left the room. Came back with a wet rag. Put it on my belly started scrubbing it. Said rag had soap in it claimed by belly button stunk and I wasn't cleaning myself good enough.

Lie. I cleaned myself well.

Then he said his own belly button stunk earlier when he smelled it.

Funny behavior.

Reminded me of time I was on top of him he had something under his ass. A piece of perfumed paper from a sample ad between his butt cheeks. Weird.

I said I never get behind you to smell your butt. Why would you do that?

I realize he will focus on something that recently happened most of the time. He will continue thinking about sex act for a long time afterwards like a couple of hours.

He will buy something he sees someone else buy when shopping like food drinks gadgets tools anything.

Behavior last night makes me think he was smelling someone else's body and possibly started to have sex or did it so he wanted to do it again this time with me because we have not done it in a week or so and he said he thinks it's time.

I feel like I deal with Billy Milligan type more I think about the way he acts

Multiple personalities he is not aware of in himself. Amnesia of his words and actions and accusing me of thinking and acting like him

Misplacing things and blaming me

Insisting he told me things he never did. Why. Because he told someone else and can't remember who he told it to.

Insisting I went places with him I never did. Same reason.

Cleaner the house/home to more I can tell is someone has been here.

One excellent reason to keep a very clean home.

Someone is putting things in the wrong places.

Last night the mustard container was in the refrigerator door. It NEVER goes there.

Steak knives put into the wrong container on the kitchen counter... AGAIN

Only 2 people live here. Him and me.

I was gone lastnight from about 454 pm til 10 10 pm.

Monday, June 29, 2026

Different rooms. Different places

DEVIL he is

NATURAL I am

Patience test dominant in my partner marriage relationships

7 Sevens Libra Taurus Moon and Venus ruled. 7 SINS AND VIRTUES LIST

Me . Seven. S. Sign. Born 7 7. Dad is 7-17-27

Influences. Upbringing. Friends. Relatives Taurus/Libra.

My Moon is in Taurus. No Libra in my chart. My mother Ruth Louise is Taurus May 14, 1939.

My mother in law Patty Patricia Ann is Libra October 4 ,44 1944.

Her daughter Malisa Lisa is Taurus May born. Ten years younger than me.

7 SINS AND VIRTUES LIST

What makes one decide to stay alone?

Each individual is different. Some make the decision to stay alone with no partner, no spouse, have no children at a young age.

Some make that decision after many years, many relationships or just one bad experience with a partner.

Friday, June 26, 2026

Felony abuse. AGGRAVATED ASSAULT DOMESTIC VIOLENCE

things he has done never charged with. I did not press charges or call the police

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Thursday, June 25, 2026

Aries

rash. no filter on mouth. rude. impolite. condescending. bossy. know it all. hypocritical. mean. raw.

crass. uncouth. bold, daring. risk taking. foolish.

won't take advice from anyone especially me.

gets thing he wants for himself and "for me"

easily angered aggravated

cant handle setbacks, slow drivers, anyone who does things the way they dont do it or anyone who thinks differently

self serving

will do things for people they think they can use and get benefits from

rarely compliments me or anyone

judgmental, critical of all but the self

Lose him/her the same way you got him/her.

something I read in an article

could mean since i was married when i met him

he will meet or already has another married woman

Money spending habits

ME: on health, nutrition, good food, vitamins, minerals, gym membership, clothes, shoes, soaps, laundry supplies, dish liquid, peroxide, bleach, baking soda, borax, fabric softener, cleaners, sponges, rubber gloves for washing dishes, deals on eating out once in awhile, cell phones, computers, printers, ink for multifunction printer, paper, envelopes, office supplies, pens, pencils, erasers, dry erase boards, rubber bands, paper clips, swim suits, dresses, shampoo, conditioner, hair color, nail polish, polish remover, deodorant, perfume,

HIM: car and truck parts, tools, flashlights, house and yard expenditures, appliances, washing machine, dryer, microwave, stove, kitchen table, recliner chairs for him, beds and mattresses for him, boots, shoes, toothpaste, mouthwash, junk snack food, anything cranberry, anything that says jalapeno or hot, sauces...barbecue, hot sauce, dressings, jeans, shirts,

He's a very light sleeper . I sleep deep

The slightest sound, smell or light wakes him up

Fingernails and toenails fungus.. large white spots on them I have had for a long time

removed all polish, he cut my nails a few days ago for the first time.

researched these large white spots and it is some kind of fungus

treatable with prescription oral meds or substance to put on the nails

it states the best method is to use oral prescription medication.

i used to get yeast infections vaginally frequently. the doctors prescribed creams to insert internally.

anyway now i am contemplating not using any polish, nail covers, press on nails.

dont use anything to cover up the real nails. i cant see what is there when they are covered up.

yeast and fungus overgrowth is common problem and is passed on from person to person, on the floor, anywhere i imagine

terbinafine / lamisil first choise for dermatophyte infections

itraconazole / sporanox esp effective for yeast and molds

my doctor told me many years ago those brown spots on my legs are called dermatophytes

i see more of them and some on my chest

this house is a moldy fungal spore filled horror

My ex Ed is covered with huge dark brown spots on his skin. Saw him a year or so ago without his shirt on. I had chronic yeast infections when I was with him

Current husband claims he has a problem with yeast fungal overgrowth.

I need to look closely at his skin and nails soon

Total change of identify, location, look is what I need

change name, the way my hair is, my social security number

any current or past info that could trace me

due to hh dom violence

I'm not sure if I have ever been with a gentleman

Wednesday, June 24, 2026

IMPOSSIBLE to deal with

Sunday, June 21, 2026

Ordered rolling file cabinet due to arrive June 24th

Walmart. 64.99. Will use it to put my microwave on top . Has 5 drawers and cabinet door on left. I can store pots pans books files office supplies.

Finally will be able to roll the microwave around easily in my bedroom.

Tired of old furniture especially wood that has no wheels and is hard to move so I can clean or just rearrange things at my will.

Next is a standing desk 40 inches wide that moves

Cvs June 19, 2026

Pneumonia vaccine left arm top and COVID-19 in my right arm.

My left arm is painfully sore still. It is June 21st. 201 am

They say it's a problem when

You want to harm yourself or someone else.

I am the harm myself suicide type.

He is the harm someone else type. Especially me since I happen to live here and am an easy access target to vent his anger and rage upon the world or any particular person or things he's pissed off about.

I suppose he would be better suited with a woman just like him who will punch hit knock the shit out of him over any little thing.

He gets mad wants to hit punch strangle me or people or animals

I get mad want to burn something or toss it in the trash or destroy myself due to the meanness of other people. I want to cry. Have cried countless times.

He rarely cries. He cried one time when I drew blood on my left forearm digging my fingernails in so hard I have very visible scars. He said he cried when he looked at the little bear I found at Goodwill thrift a couple of years ago and put it in his bathroom next to the bear he gave me back in 1990 or so.

Rarely does he have tears in his eyes. He has blind rage in his eyes most of the time.

Ugly Joe's his 30th birthday

2012 August. I drove him and daughter in law in his white Escalade to celebrate his birthday, age 30. I was the designated driver.

I remember the young girls bartending that night. He made a comment to the blonde very pretty bartender about how white her teeth were. She was reticent, a quiet personality. The other woman tending was rough mean acting.

The guy Dave Cervantes gave me his phone number.

I danced by myself in the crowd of drunken people.

14 years ago this August.

I don't know when my son started drinking alcohol. Not sure how old he was .

Didn't realize when he was 30 that he was drinking so much probably daily.

I was 23 in 1984 when I began drinking beer. Some classmate in the school I was attending for computer programming showed me how to drink beer. Prior to that I was shy and reticent, insecure, scared afraid of people.

I quit drinking in 2003. October. No particular reason. No one else's decision but mine. No pressure no promises no deadline no real goal. I just quit. 19 years of it.

Life has still been a bitch without alcohol. Nothing got better at home or with jobs or relationships.

The good thing that happened when I drank was I learned to open up instead of holding everything inside. I began to stand up for myself.

The good thing that happened when I quit was saving my body from alcohol destruction.

I wonder when he started drinking and when he's going to quit, if ever.

He's almost 44 and still hitting the bottle, bottles

I don't ...

Like your tone of voice, the words you say, what you say, the way you say things

Your impulsiveness, unpredictable storms of anger

Your habits. Eating constantly nasty stuff without thought of what you are putting into your body. Drinking sugary drinks all day then rum at night sometimes beer wine whiskey vodka

Your touching everything with your fingers absorbing chemicals then touching things people animals spreading it all over

You firing up lawn mowers weed eaters blowers power tools and using toxic yard chemicals bug poisons petroleum products lacquer thinner paint fiberglass gasoline inside the house without proper ventilation or outside when I am cooking laying out in the sun sitting on the porch or patio

Your using the same dirty black filthy rag for everything spreading god knows what all over the house

Your taking over whatever I do and blocking me from cleaning and whatever else I need to do

Saturday, June 20, 2026

They have in common

Husband and two ex husbands.

Although their public personality and physical body are different their basic core is the same

Egotistical
Have to be right and in charge
Sex obsessed
Dirty
Disorganized
Unable to communicate clearly
Think I should read their mind
Want to lock me up
Disrespectful to me
Have buddy male friends that are like them
Money is their God
Hold me back from higher education
Last two think and tell me I am stupid gullible a push over easy
Believe if a female looks at them and or talks to them she is available for sex
Constantly scanning every area for attractive women
Lie cheat and steal
Desire to screw every attractive woman they see in person in a magazine a movie a sex tape yet condemn me or any woman they know for having sex
Think women are inferior slaves
Treat women like dummies
Call almost every one stupid except themselves
Think they know it all have all the answers
Bully me and others
Only do activities they are familiar with
Don't dance
Rigid fixed personality
Take no responsibility for their bad mouth and mistakes
Blame me and others for their problems they create and fester
Refuse to get a higher education because they know it all
Believe they work harder than everyone else
Sneak around in secret doing dirty deeds things
Hate to clean up after themselves
Have little or zero empathy for others yet expect sympathy
Make sure they feed their face first with food they want while ridiculing or denying food I want

I tolerated way too much for too long

Friday, June 19, 2026

In and out quickly. Eats fast. Leaves fast when done he does

He eats fast. Walks away sits in recliner and immediately goes on to something else. Leaves the room in beginning or middle of conversation.

Doesn't like to linger, browse, take plenty of time to look

Gets things wanted in stores same old things

Speaks Says his piece one thought exits room never says I am walking off

Sex is finished exits area fast

Doesn't cuddle

Once he gets what he wants he is gone quickly

Brief phone conversations with me

Brief talking to me. Gets away fast

Will listen to his sister Dorothy my son Ricky for long periods of time on my landline telephone and when he is in person with them. Does because he doesn't want to pay for cell phone minutes on his phone.

Uses my landline for outgoing calls to neighbors his family, stores, businesses, government, Mike Lindells crap political things he signed up for,

Uses his phone for craigslist ads and short personal calls

Will call Kenny Gill on my landline talk for an hour

Tells me to shut the fuck up quit wasting his time and says I don't want to hear it all you do is complain. All you do is talk you don't do anything around here.

Thursday, June 18, 2026

Cleaning up after myself takes a lot of time

He begins being nice to me when it's time for him to have sex

After sex he leaves the room within a few minutes goes to his bedroom or sleeping area in the garage

Then returns to bastard state the next day and stays that way until he is horny again

Desiring sex with me instead of solo I mean because I know he gets horny in between our episodes and masturbates like lots of people probably do.

"Nothing like the real thing, it's not same" , he says when I say you and I can just jack off. You don't need me for that or anything.

He only talks to me about one thing at a time

With clear intent about what he thinks is important then he leaves

He detests conversation about variety of subjects unless those are subjects he is interested in and he brought up

Marriage and Business are for Adults

Medicaid office Raytown 2 hours today

Government and God: Mother and Father

Wednesday, June 17, 2026

Associations rub off

Nice stay nice around nice ones and remain nice

Mean mingle with the mean and they recognize each other fast

Nice becomes mean after associating experiencing meanness . If they don't learn to be mean around the mean they don't survive. Some commit suicide.

Mean rarely become genuinely nice all the time.

Tuesday, June 16, 2026

Mean scoundrel knows how to be nice

In public

Ladies and gentlemen vs the opposite

Qualities of the ladies and

qualities of the gentlemen

are similar as qualities of

their opposites are in the

Bitch vixen shrew females and

cad scoundrel rogue villain

Missouri medicaid office and ER at University Health today

Coughing this morning. Still exhausted. Left house at 208 pm. Back here at 852 pm

Hour at MO Medicaid office Raytown resource center. Paperwork and accurate information and instructions from lady there named Orel. Made appt for this Thursday 3 pm. Have decided to wait till after July 1st. She said is ok if I miss appointment. She knows I feel terrible. Orel got me a chair I am so tired and weak.

Drove myself to emergency room. Had nothing to eat only water and coffee. Fatigue sore throat. Weighed me at almost 115 lbs. Lost 5 lbs in 2 days.

98.4 temperature a fever for me. I am cold. Took my coat into the hospital.

Very nice staff helped me. Took blood swabbed throat. Checked for COVID-19 flu mono strep all negative.

Dr Bro summary is gerd acid coming up micros... Causing sore throat. Prescriptions for maalox and protonix. My grandma Sarah took maalox daily. She had ulcers like I do but had surgery for it

Sent colonoscopy order to my primary care physician Emily. My grandma Sarah had upper and lower GI tests regularly. I have never had either.

So I am so like my grandma. She had disc fusion back surgery when I was 5 or 6. Had slipped discs from falling down stairs.

I have not had back surgery. Can't due to osteoporosis bad. Probably needed surgery many years ago. Maybe the scoliosis curve would not have progressed to 53 degrees it shows on last scan .

Finally ate food when I got home. 10 pm ate beef frozen fries cabbage cucumber radish potato salad.

Nice nurse Sarah a real lady at University Health gave me some snacks after Dr was done analyzing my results. I did eat the fig bar and Lorna dune cookies but not the apple juice or graham crackers.

They told me to wait for 2-4 hours after I eat before I go to bed because it's causing the acid reflux while I sleep.

I have been eating right before bed almost every night for years. Must stop doing that.

It's after 11 pm now so I will have my dessert banana and 2 fresh strawberries then wait two hours before going to sleep.

I will read more of book after dessert. Book is The minds of Billy Milligan by Daniel Keyes. Billy was first person to have criminal charges removed because psychiatrists diagnosed genuine multiple personality disorder.

It is probable that many more people have it or had it and we're not diagnosed. Psychiatric field is relatively new compared to the history of mankind which has an origin still unknown.

People study history and guess when humans began. Science and religion have different answers

Now I am off to read a book. My favorite things. Reading and writing.

Don't bend over he said

And don't lift up your shirt. The personal trainer said recently. He's a religious christian.

Cover yourself up.

The husband says the same things along with don't spread your legs do squats kick your leg up in the air. Don't bend over with any low cut top.

Why?

They think about sex when they see the body parts. That's why.

Even when they see the face. Eyes looking certain ways, smiles, smiling, laughing, staring.,a long glance sideways or straight on.

They take it all the wrong way.

The really immature ones think just because a girl talks to him she wants to go to bed with him.

I wanted to do and learn everything

And can't do it

I wore myself out and hated to have to sleep

I need quite a bit of sleep and can't work long hours or days. I get sick and tired easily.

I did weird things like try to live on coffee and stay awake. It doesn't work. Worked at jobs heavy lifting automobile work painting houses hanging sheetrock carrying it and 4x8 sheets of plywood, carrying heavy firewood, doing ridiculous things for strong men not fit for me. Took long trips out of town with my ex husband working at festival all long days, doing electrical work out of town, mechanical work with him.

I tell my younger self I was a fool for even thinking I can and should do all that stuff.

I could not keep up with the guys men in any hard labor job. Lawn care is another I did.

I spent most of my life in the wrong jobs not designed for me.

My fragile body is why I can't hold down a wide variety of jobs or careers

I believed in the if there's a will there's a way and you can do anything you want if you try hard enough. Total crap thinking.

Scattered. Ill placed. The men just made fun of me and some sexually harassed me. They are trying to work and I was a distraction...a little female in the area all they could think about was sex.

This is why they don't want me around when they are working.

Penis brain takes over. It's nature. Any semi attractive female in the vicinity is a distraction. Especially if they see some leg butt boobs tit or mouth looking young shiny glossy lips pink or red even purple.

Still coughing and hacking up pale yellow stuff

Bacterial infection is what pharmacist at 9000 Walmart Metcalf overland park ks said the other day June 12, 2026 Friday

The st Luke's clinic woman in Hy-Vee raytown mo said I had a virus and it turned into bronchitis. I went there after being sick for 3 weeks. It began May 9th

Pharmacist at Walmart in Kansas said I can get services there once I am on Medicare but can't now on medicaid because I live in Missouri

July 1st Medicare is effective

Some people want your skills as soon as

They find out what you can do

Friday, June 12, 2026

He admires women who take care of themselves not him

Not the woman or women who take care of him

Take care of yourself first.

He admires women who take care of themselves

Food journey through my life

Lots of processed food since I was born.

Lots of natural nutritious food. If it hadn't been for the healthy food I probably would have been dead already.

Vitamins minerals herbs supplements.

Last night a video on YouTube concerning varicose veins told the truth about the cause. Processed food manmade seed oils lots of sweeteners eaten by millions of people causes horrible health problems.

Stop eating bread, crackers, pizza dough, cake, cookies, anything with white flour, baked goods, fried anything from restaurants or in a package, snack foods, chips. Don't eat any of the fake stuff.

Zero soybean oil. No store bought salad dressing, sauces, gravy,

Eat plain meat, fish, seafood, eggs, fresh vegetables and fruits.

Eating wrong food caused me to have bad skin, rashes, excema, acne cystic, gastritis, duodenitis, heartburn, constipation, diarrhea, eye problems, bronchitis asthma, vomiting, headaches migraines, severe mood changes, insomnia, daytime sleepiness and more.

Sodas sugar chemicals rancid grease dough salty snacks , culprits of swelling inflammation edema. My body fighting back trying to heal itself and recover from the poisons.

Bad food may have been the cause of my scoliosis and osteoporosis and arthritis.

My mom ate lots of processed food and drank sugar tea and Pepsi and Kool aid and soda. Her diet when she was pregnant with me may have formed my problems.

Wednesday, June 10, 2026

Cell phones, tv, radio, internet, videos, books, magazines all destroy personal relationships

When the person allows themselves to be distracted while in presence of people close by

It shows they are not interested in the person at hand. They'd rather chat on the phone or computer, play games or stick their face in a screen monitor or give all their attention to the radio television or some crap playing on the tablet, laptop, notebook or computer.

They ignore and shut out the person with them

They can't pay attention to more than one person at a time

Monday, June 8, 2026

Identifying a crazy person

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I'd rather go to gym, parks, recreation, write, work instead of watch someone else do something I like

People often end up obsessed with media.

We are not born that way.

We learned through observation and experience to get wrapped up in some kind of something in the media that distracts us from real personal life.

Sports. News. Books. Magazines. Movies. Music.

Tv shows.

Face first. It's everything .Must look young good

Balanced face. Smooth skin. Tight blemish free skin. No wrinkles sags scars or missing pieces.

People love a good story.

When I think I got rid of the troublemaker(s) another one pops up

Sunday, June 7, 2026

He makes sure he gets what he wants. His priorities are

Songs go through my head constantly

A certain song starts usually when I wake up then a small chorus part of it goes around in my brain all day long.

The cure is usually playing that song a few times off YouTube then it releases and the next day or hour another song pops into my head

Today it's "the old man is down the road" John Fogerty

Closed minded and open minded. Him and me.

I feel like I have to write all my thoughts down. Always have.

Since I began a diary when I was a little girl. 9 or 10

Friday, June 5, 2026

NEVER get with someone just because they appear to look good and the sex is great!!!!!

Advice to my younger self and to anyone anywhere regardless of age.

Slow down. Take your time. Get to really know the person. Listen to what they say about other people and how they treat strangers. How do they get along with their family? How does he treat his mother? His sisters, brothers, cousins, uncles, aunts. Does he talk about and treat women differently than he treats men?

What do they say about these people behind their backs?

What kinds of associates, friends, buddies, companions does he have? What do they share in common?

This reveals their true feelings about life in general and what kind of a person they are.

The males I ended up with brag, are egotistical, not very clean about their body. They have disgusting habits like nose picking, picking at nose, toenails, petting animals, touching virtually anything and transferring the germs all over the place. Greasy handprints all over doors, doorknobs, cabinets, refrigerator, appliances, handles, furniture. Picking up the nastiest stuff on the road or anywhere and bringing it home and not cleaning things properly. Buying or getting used clothing and not washing it first. Not scrubbing their bodies properly. Some didn't even brush their teeth.
Sucking up pornography on paper and videos on tapes or dvds or on screen thru paid tv services.

Reusing old towels, paper towels, napkins. Sleeping in dirty linens bedding sheets blankets comforters sleeping bags. Throwing trash out in the yard. Leaving tools, equipment, anything laying around in the yard, the house, the driveway, anywhere.

Leaving and making dirty messes of dishes in the kitchen sink. Griming up the countertops, the bathroom sink, toilet and shower or bath tub and not caring that it looks black and stinks of rotten mold bacteria.

Ignoring whatever I say about hygiene, cleanliness. Causing bug problems and telling me it is no big deal to have flies, mosquitoes, stink bugs, roaches, june bugs, moths, spiders virtually any type of insect crawling or flying around the premises and inside the house. Feeding animals anywhere like tossing food on the patio, the middle of the yard and leaving bones where I walk so I could step on them. Tossing old cans of food in the middle of the backyard.

Not cleaning out trash/garbage cans. When the smell gets bad he cannot figure out where it is coming from so this one I am with actually sprayed furniture polish on the kitchen counters and expected me to prepare food on it.

They hate the smell of cleaners and disinfectants like bleach clorox lysol vinegar.

They/he sneak off to do dirty deeds like viewing hardcore porn when he thinks I am asleep or not around.

Body builder at the gym told me I was every man's dream. Other people say I am fit and in great shape

Last month in May this guy named Alex at the gym said I was every man's dream. He was very helpful and gentemanly to me, never making a pass or asking me for sex. It is one of the unwritten "rules" of the fitness centers and gymnasiums to not make passes at people.

Alex said my core was in great shape. solid.. he showed me how to use the bosu ball and several exercises

In April 2026 I took a walk north on crestview drive in my neighborhood. The neighbor, Mark hollered at me to come over up to the front porch and talk. His roommate named John said I was in great condition, beautiful and asked me what my secret was/secrets are. He asked "Does your husband tell you how great you look?"
I said "No. He hardly ever tells me I look good."

At another gym in April I went in and sat on the rowing machine. The man next to me on a machine said jokingly "Don't make me look bad" I said "What do you mean?" He said, "You look fit to me and I am afraid you will outdo me and make me look bad."

Mornings 8-11 am he leaves. I am getting up. I like to leave in late afternoon/evening.

Morning people/persons. Him. Grandpa Leroy.
Both intensely angry frustrated people. Drive too fast. Cuss out other drivers.
Think daytime is only time to do everything.
Never really relax.
When sitting in recliner or on sofa or in bed they are watching disturbing, challenging, tension causing thing like sports, news, politics, fighting, weather forecasts.
Pick fights all the time.

Can't too thorough deep cleaning of anything.
Focused on teeth brushing too hard and using lots of mouthwash keeping it in mouth not rinsing it out.
Clutters up any and all surfaces and countertops.
Expects everything they want RIGHT NOW.
Have no patience for anything.

Makes big messes out of practically everything.

Stuffs face all day long. First thing in morning cookies junk food then cereal with milk.
Snacks of candy bars, potato chips or other bags of crap, donuts, pastries,
GPA drinks pepsi cola, sweet drinks lemonade sugary, soda pops, fruit punch drinks, juices, an expensive beer, a hard liquor drink. Smokes a cigar once in awhile swisher sweets or a cuban fat one that stinks really bad. Eats snicker bars alot.

HIM drinks same sugar loaded stuff lots of different sodas dr pepper orange lemon lime and sweet arizona and lipton green tea all day long cranberry juice fruit punch hawaiian apple juice store bought lemonade. Drinks very little plain water then complains about phlegm build up in throat coughing hacking up. EATS sugary and salty snack trash all throughout the day. always buys pre flavored snack pack nuts that are covered with artificial flavors tons of salt and bull shit.

Both like to go out to eat especially fast food joints because they don't have to cook anything and they love the taste of overly salted and fake flavored stuff cooked in nasty unhealthy grease. EATs stuff without considering health benefits and what the food and drink does to them.

Belief is that hard physical labor and exercise and sex is a cure all for everything.

Opens mouth and says any rotten thing that comes to mind never considering consequences of what they say and never taking responsibility for what they say or do. Upsets me or others and says "It's not my fault". (It is never his fault..always someone else's). Calls people stupid dumb ass idiots all the time.

When going places that are supposed to be fun (the zoo, horseback riding, carvinal, festival, restaurant, walk in the park) it is a high intensity tension filled hurry up disaster with him/them being pushy forceful dominating and saying shit like "What do you want? Hurry up and make up your mind"

Hits me on the ass. Checks out butts and bodies and boobs of all females anywhere in person or not and makes snap judgments and comments on the condition of their bodies. "She needs to jog. She is a fat cow. That looks disgusting."

Thursday, June 4, 2026

Why men like the younger ones. Some older ones

First it is the looks. Tighter firmer body. Young face. Firm boobs butt skin face Cute. Pretty. Clean not much makeup. She tilts her head sideways. Gives that shy glance revealing her neck.

Quieter. Young girls women usually listen more

They are easy to convince teach persuade and con.

Some are too easy to get into bed.

Easy to use. Convenient. Had cheap or for free. Some girls will give in have sex just because he complimented her said something nice. And he never did anything for her or worked or gave her any money or material things.

The one he desires most is the one he hasn't had. Then there's the fantasy girl a virgin and the other dream woman is the whore who has no boundaries will do anything. He wants both. But after he has had her he gets bored. He keeps searching for that virgin and the perfect slut prostitute that will give him the ultimate best orgasms he's never had.

Younger inexperienced are more willing to please. Shape themselves into what he wants. Do his bidding run errands cook clean work. Go along with whatever he wants and likes. They are quick in their response. Apologize a lot even for things not their fault. Accommodating. Sit on his lap.

Take on his hobbies and interests and jobs.

Flexible body and mind.

They work on their looks and smells. Smell good clean and fresh. Hair is maintained well. Clothes fit good look nice. Outfits color coordinated. Shoes cute. Or barefoot.

They run jump play and bounce. They dance.

They smile a lot giggling and laughing.

A lot of younger women haven't set their ways yet and don't have many boundaries. He can take advantage of her much easier and fool her and impress her without doing much at all. An older woman who has been around is wise to his and other men's tricks. She's heard all the lines and seen what happens to other girls. She is experienced.

He wants one with hardly any experience or past so she can't compare him to anyone.

She therefore will think he is God and can do no wrong because she doesn't know any better.

If he is a brute bully abuser she puts up with it thinking it's normal.

He wants the experienced whore in private and doesn't want to be seen in public with her so she is just hidden away tucked into a room or place where no one else sees what he does to her. He does not take her places. He desires to do all perverted things to her but doesn't want anyone else knowing what goes on behind closed doors. He's embarrassed about what an animal he is.

His pretty little virgin girl is different. He is proud to show her off.

Some people don't want me to talk to some people because I tell the truth about what is going on

Wednesday, June 3, 2026

Lady. I call femals women ladies even tho they might be the opposite

I was calling someone a lady once my son said "she is no lady, mom"

Turn offs to me by men

these don't impress me much

rough gruff rude loud boisterous dirty dishevelled pushy forceful

bragging mouthy

overly built muscles, ugly mean looking face

forward try to get me and dont even know my name

flashing money cars things thinking they impress females

does dirty work and doesn't clean up

puts filthy hands on everything

stupid disorganized

stinky body and clothes

rotten teeth

eats nasty fast food unhealthy choices

eats without thinking and eats too fast like an animal

sticks fingers in everything

Tuesday, June 2, 2026

Young healthy fresh cute have and get it all

Water and clean up. Soap.

my grandma sarah would say there is no excuse to be dirty pig

you have access to soap and water anywhere

use it

clean up

RICH OR POOR. CLEAN OR DIRTY IS YOUR DECISION/CHOICE

He thinks you have to have money for everything when all you need is CHOICES

CONVERSATIONS OVERHEARD

Between Rick and Mike:

"Sometimes I get so horny after I haven't had sex in awhile I could fuck a farm animal", Rick said. "I know. Especially if it is sex with someone you know", said by Mike/Michael.

rick speaks openly about anything esp sex. revealing personal details of intimate relations with many women or any other sex activities in his life or his opinions.viewpoints.

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Ken/Kenny and Mike: watching some movie with sexy women in it

"she should understand that i get turned on by other women and if i had sex with her.." Mike said.

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Clayton and Mike:

"it gets worse as you get older" said by Mike
"you're the only man i know who is married and has a girlfreind", Mike said.

clayton speaks very openly about anything esp sex and has girlfriend(s) and is married.

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public conversations overheard when they think no one is listening reveal secrets and the things people think about. strangers like me can sometimes hear what they are saying.

Monday, June 1, 2026

He tells me I look terrible expects sex may 30th

Oh it's my skinniness my skinny arms my saggy skin on my arms

It's called sarcopenia old age at 64 . Muscle loss. Inescapable.

I go to the gym work out my arms legs back whole body. But since may 9 when I got sick I have not been able to exercise like was using weights and equipment and have not swam.

120 lbs to 124. 5 feet 3 3/4 inches. Shrunk from 5'6 1/2".

I reminded him again I weighed 118 lbs when I moved in here. Oh he says but you were younger then you've changed.

He doesn't like my change or any changes of any kind.

So I told him he doesn't like the way I look. I don't look like a porn star or like I did. I never had big tits like he wants and I never will

So why would he want to have sex with me. Oh it's because we are married and that's what I am supposed to do. We've done it hundreds of times for almost 35 years. That's one of the reasons I chose him. Sex. But it was his personality that won me over. I could have great sex with lots of guys. Well his true personality came out around the time his mother mom left this house in the summer of 1992. Gradually it has turned into full blown Marjorie the bitch on wheels. And his sister Karen even worse. And his hideous dead brother John and crazy brothers Jerry Bill and Larry.

I said it's not that good anyway. He said would it be better with someone else. I said I don't know. I don't want anybody. I take care of myself and that is fine. I certainly don't want another childish immature male. All they do is cause me problems and make me miserable.

October is a good month to die

October.

The 9th was a wedding date in 1981 to Ed my second husband. We were 20 years old.

The 4th is the mother in law's birthday 1944. Mother of my second husband I married on 10-9-81 in Miami Oklahoma. She is 18 years older than me and him.

Divorce was final from him on February 4, 1992. His birthday is Feb 4, 1961

The 15th was the due date of my pregnancies in 1998 and another in 1999. Both were aborted. First pregnancy was twins. Second was a single. He insisted on abortion both times and accused me of getting pregnant on purpose. He didn't want to have financial or physical responsibility of raising the children.

He reluctantly paid for abortions and insisted I get my tubes tied which I did in 2000. He has been screwing me since the summer of 1991. I moved into his house December 15, 1991.

My friend Harold Shaffer was born on October 9, 1917

https://www.findagrave.com/memorial/110544334/harold_m-shaffer

It gets cold when October comes then is followed by months of very cold nasty weather. I hate it when October comes. I hate the cold, the snow, the ice and driving in it. I am stuck at home.

When we have snow due to living on a steep hill and neighborhood people get stuck on my street often, have wrecks and slide all over these streets here.

I get sick easily because the temperature drops. I freeze to death below 60 degrees.

October is a great time to be dead. No birthdays. Just death days

31st is Halloween hallows eve in remembrance of the dead.

It is before the holidays Thanksgiving and Christmas and new years eve and day which I never celebrate here with him or anyone. No one wants me around.

No family. No get togethers. No social gatherings. No life. Might as well be dead.

It's the gloomiest dreary time of year. Stuck at home with a man who hates my guts ruins every day especially holidays.

He hits punches me in the face jaw left side chin right before mother's day this year on May 7th. Never even mentioned mother's day.

He will get me a birthday card and put money in it but usually won't go anywhere. I go to restaurants by myself to eat my birthday coupon deals. If he goes he bitches about the cost and the food. Never plans anything. Never fun activities. Doesn't want to waste his money on experiences.

Same for Valentine's day. A card. Flowers this year he said he bought at price chopper a couple of miles from our house. I believe it was a last minute thought perhaps fueled by some guilt since he had bought himself a 15 thousand dollar car.

No dinner or any activity for Valentine's or the wedding anniversary February 21. 1998 was the year

February 24th he was on the phone or computer in his bedroom making a sex call to some woman which he flat out denies and doesn't know I have it recorded.

Sunday, May 31, 2026

Solitude is my majority of time and getting longer more intense

I don't get bored. I am curious and thinking

Just like his family

The last of ten children.

All are/were :

Paranoid

Addicted to something

Trouble makers. Love to start a fight then blame the other person

Confused

Can't communicate properly especially with spouse wife husband girlfriend boyfriend mate partner co worker

Make themselves look victimized

Paranoid

Jealous

News addicts

Several were on psychiatric medications. Some in care facilities for psychotic behavior

Sociopath

Status image focused to public outside world

Vicious

Mean hateful

Accusatory

Don't want commitment or a true loving marriage relationship

Vindictive spiteful evil

Sneaky

Hoarders

Attached to money and material things

Condemn criticize attack anyone close to them

Judgmental highly critical of everyone

Threatening. Always threaten to get rid of partner

Suspicious

Afraid of police

Fearful

Egotistical

Narcissistic

Focused on their body and face appearance .

Notice any person skin affliction like scars acne or discoloration makeup

Hair is a top priority so are teeth

Lack reflection

Hate peace and joyful happy free people because they are jealous envious

Hobbies vary. Some are stupid fantasy driven time wasters

Impatient

Short fuse temper

Most are fast crazy drivers

Can't take direction

Can't accept differences of anything or anyone in their minds

Rigid fixed

Accumulate flying monkeys they visit periodically. Flying monkeys think they are nice guy girl and are no competition to them.

Detest any confident person accusing them of being a know it all

Some diagnosed with schizophrenia . Karen Larry Jerry. All are but evaded diagnosis

He asks questions to provoke a fight. Tells me to shut the fk up when I answer

Which is worse? Being ghosted or insulted ?

As I become more aware stronger

The fights battle gets worse with him

The controller narc fearful dictator sociopath sadist

He appreciates nothing unless he works for it

Why do some people want to destroy free people?

Emotional turmoil destroys material and physical states

A robber thief of joy. A destroyer

No amount of money fame status or things will fix it

Thinking uses more energy than hard physical work labor.

More than any physical automatic habit habitual routine

Harder . Exhausts and exhilarates

Involves foreseeing benefits or disadvantages in the future by making changes and additions or subtractions

Forces one to get off their butt and out of the rut

Mother of creativity

Meets with resistance

New and different synapses formed. Energy.

Resistant to change he is

Wednesday, May 27, 2026

The Queen is the most valuable piece on the chess board

Sunday, May 24, 2026

NEAT CLEAN ORDERLY Places

NEAT CLEAN ORDERLY

Military methods

Hospitals

Government

Schools

Funeral homes

Nursing homes, care facilities

Businesses like Walmart.

Professional offices

Restaurants

Uniform, dressed in uniforms

Clean

Sanitary Hygienic

Methodical

Ergonomic

Sensible

Proactive

Polite

Focused

Lots of room between things

Large aisles

Roomy, plenty and lots of room to move, shop, find things

Sensible

Organized

Categorized

Items in place in designated areas

ZERO clutter

Ventilation is excellent.

Plenty of fresh air movement

Efficient

Temperature controlled

Well managed

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DIRECT OPPOSITE of slothful, being a slob or a sloth, lazy, laziness, dirty, filthy, nasty, messy, smelly, stinky, cluttered, disorganized, disarray, scattered, mismatched, rude, uncouth, dissheveled, pig like, disorderly, slack slacking, misspelled, mis pronounced, bad grammar, inefficient, crooked

The last time he tells me to shut the fuck up. Yesterday

Saturday, May 23, 2026

I have never seen her do any work. She just looks cute

the girl. she is my son's girlfriend. kayla.

kayla is single and said she doesnt want to get married

she has 2 boy children by two different men like i do did.

he is married to my daughter in law.

kayla just looks cute and sits there. she plays pool sometimes. sits at the dining room table eating or doing crafts.

cooking? cleaning? working? a job? appearing educated with a career? no to all of these

what are her talents. sex. squirting on video. what is his strong attraction to her? why is he?

makes me wonder why i have wasted my time and life working, cooking. shopping. catering. cleaning. babysitting. studying. reading. wanting to go back to school college to get a better degree

when all i really have to do is be cute little and fun. and sexy innocent acting.

and i could have relationships or sex a ships with many men and never have to live with them or marry them

then i would be treated like a queen

the one they cannot own or rule

they cant possess dominate control abuse torture humiliate ridicule

these guys would enjoy my companionship and give me time attention things and money and i am free of all of their bull shit jerk ways

if they screw up i disappear forever. it is that simple.

no fights. no divorce. no dividing assets.

just take off and go on to the next guy who acts loving and responsible.

the minute he slips i disappear.

they would have no legal hold on me.

no rights. no entitlement.

as it is marriage means he thinks he is entitled to whatever he wants me to do.

Tons of free movies to watch

found on Tubi the other day. pluto tv and lots of other apps have loads of free movies and shows.

want to watch but i know i will not watch them all

never will because new movies are always coming out

if i lived to be 500 i could not see all broadcast shows. and most crap i dont want to see or experience anyway

i have a life to live. whats left of it. could be 5 or 10 years. dont know how much longer i will live.

i am going to guess at 75 i will be dead.

seems to be a common age to die around here.

might happen alot sooner if i cant see to get around. my eyes are doing funny things.

Stir ice cream with a spoon. Add milk make a shake.

started doing stirring to make it creamy like soft serve when i was a little girl

6 Eggs in a pot

when i was a little girl i had a little aluminum pot that held six eggs perfectly. i was so astounded and happy i told all my friends. they weren't excited as i was.

i would boil the eggs until they were done. hard boiled eggs.

little did i know about 55 years later i would be doing the same thing in a different pot. soft boiled is my favorite. hard to do so they usually end up with nice yellow cooked centers never green.

and do a lot of frying over easy or basted in bacon grease and lots of scrambling. too . pan preferred but use microwave often for oe or scrambled eggs

anything but raw eggs.

poached are very nice but hard to do in poacher pan over boiling water. dont have that type of pot anymore

My life is the best movie I ever lived

People should live alone. Once adulthood happens get your own place

Most violence and other criminal activities happen right at home.

People get on each others nerves. They have constant control battles.

No one wins. There is very little peace and hardly any love.

They are too familiar. They see each other too much.

Eventually they hate each others guts. Some leave for good.

Some commit murder.

Everything about someone becomes too much. Our habits , patterns. preferences, hobbies. friends. family. neighbors. jobs are all up for causing fighting and squabbling. Injuries in all ways. Physical, emotional. spiritual damage just from being around each other too much

Same goes for work, jobs. careers

Familiarity breeds contempt. And death Death in many ways due to feeling trapped in a box with hungry rats and snakes. Vicious lions ready to attack at any moment.

That is why I left my grandparents home when I was 16. To escape hell and damnation. Daily fighting yelling screaming name calling prejudice bitterness hate contempt cruelty sarcasm threats.

And I discovered that everywhere I lived it was the same old shit. Everywhere around anyone I know it is the same old crap.

Each job consists of the same control battles. the same gossip and slandering. The watchful eyes everywhere ready to cremate anyone for anything.

There is no peace on this planet in the presence of another human being ot their awareness of your existence. As long as they know you are alive they are on a mission to destroy you.

Some are out to cut your throat as look at you. And if they thought no one was looking, if they thought they wouldn't get caught they would slit my throat in a heartbeat and not blink an eye. No remorse for murder.

Good riddance of bad rubbish they would think. Then smirk and laugh at what they had done.

Friday, May 22, 2026

64. Hated by my husband and family and anyone we both know.

i suppose they hate me because i talk about him and tell the truth about what he says and does. they dont believe it because he is so nice and level headed when he talks to them.

people are sick of hearing me talk. they likely think i am a crazy piece of good for nothing shit. they think he is this wonderful intelligent smart hard working guy and i am a spoiled stupid ungrateful bitch and i deserve to have the shit beat out of me

no one gives a damn about me or what happens here. there is no savior, no hero. no rescue. no solution

i look bad to others because i am here. most have said why didn't or don't you leave? they think it is that easy. it takes a lot of money to pay rent or mortgage and bills and buy food gasoline insurance clothes and anything else. and their other stupid suggestion question dont you have family you can live with? is out of the question. been there. done that. living with any other person is hell regardless of who it is. so is finding another man to marry. been there done that 3 times. too. and have lived with many others.

Been sick since May 9, 2026. Still coughing. It's May 22nd

sore throat sneezing nose blowing hacking up yellow and green and brown phlegm

went to target this evening. gone about 2 1/2 hours. bought plastic utensil set for 20 dollars. tried on 2 cute pink dresses different sizes. neither fit right at all. bust area way too big for me. could have held a d size cup and i am barely a b.

saw myself front and back in 2 mirrors in dressing room. i could see just how horrible i look. not fat but have severely twisted back with huge hump on left side. the skin is darker over the hump bump. my butt is not firm and shapely. not toned. flabby ass and thighs on legs. tiny tits.

ugly face and short hair. looks terrible.

depressing looking at myself. depressing when clothes shopping. i look bad in most outfits clothes dresses shirts.

there arent many styles i can wear. not like it used to be

i need to avoid tight tops, clingy clothes on my upper body. i always had small boobs and should wear puffy tops with gathering that are loose around bust area. cleavage is almost nil. the only flattering curves are on my butt if i can find a pair of pants that fit right around my small waist.

as long as my cellulite flab on my thighs is there i ought to avoid short shorts or little dresses.

Thursday, May 14, 2026

Alone

I am alone in the woods. I belong solitary like the Neil Diamond song.

Alone together. that is what this marriage on paper is.

Kind people have quick understanding and patience.

they are wanting to help. no strings attached

they are not pushy, not all about the money, not constantly thinking about something else during a conversation, not looking at the clock acting like I am wasting their time

their eyes give away their sincerity

Strangers

kind ones I meet once in awhile instantly understand what i say and feel

they do not live with me, know no one I know and whatever I say will

never go back to anyone I know, live with, have lived with or any family member or neighbor

the safest places are being alone and when i run across genuinely nice, kind, understanding people

Buddhism Buddah quotes I discovered

are where I am in today. agree with truths stated.

it took me this long on my journey in life to be aware of these things

and need to go back to being silent as I was when I was a child

silent with wisdom. move away from danger, negativity, any person or thing i sense is bad immediately without showing them any fear

just smile, nod and be on my merry quiet way

enjoying my lovely solitude

and make friends with a very few strangers that are also on the same wavelength

circumstances bring out emotion already inside. words arent said unless you think them. i dont care if he or anyone else hates my guts or loves me.

my mind used to zone out i called it trancing when removing myself from bad situations corrupt people.

when i sleep i dream intensely of places i haven't been

i am courageous enough to not care .. she called me aloof

i have never begged anyone for sex or love. never pushed it on someone or asked them to say i love you. those words should come naturally and sex should be natural not forced.

I was attractive to many and still am

strangers prove it to me daily whenever I go out

i was more attractive when younger and am gaining that appeal back bit by bit even tho living in fight or flight mode, survival mode

situation of his aggravation intensifies and increases the more aware i become and state my realizations. huge mistake to tell him anything i discover as truth, memories from the past, dreams i have

I do not trust him

i trust him about as far as five universes away

Strangers are my friends. The rest are enemies.

Tuesday, May 12, 2026

Sore throat, coughing runny rose on May 9th, 2026 the day before Mother's Day sunday May 10

why did it happen? where did it come from?

I am as careful as can be when I do anything so I won't contract illnesses.

when I go out to the gyms they are sanitized all over. people use the antifungal disinfectant at these places constantly

the only place I can think of is at HOME where I contracted this awful sore throat, slight fever, coughing up yellow and dark phlegm.

which came from HIM. he has been sick coughing sneezing hacking for many weeks and he spreads his germs all over everywhere he goes. sneezing blasting into the room air, does not wash his hands often, picks and digs at his nose, leaves dirty napkins tissues paper towels laying about on counters or anywhere and reuses these dirty items. he touches everything indiscrimiately.

it is not normal to get sick in MAY when weather is warming up

So HE contracted some crap from somebody somewhere probably more than a month ago.

Last night I asked him who he has been around that was coughing sneezing and he did NOT respond to my question. All the people that have come over here are NOT sick so he must have acquired it from some STRANGER I have not seen. OR else it is from his sisters sherry and dorothy.

Some people like to keep you at their level or down below them. Some like to see you rise above and be happy

if they keep you at the same level or below they feel they have more control over you

if you escape the "system" of control you will leave like a hot air balloon floating all over and they might never see you again

fly away anywhere in a helicopter, balloon, airplane, jet, any airborne craft and when you leave you are free to wander about and probably will not return to the hellish situations

Are micro organisms, parasites responsible for our bad behavior, mental illness, insanity?

as well as toxic substances like fumes, dust particles, any airborne things that we are allergic to

liquids, gases, solids

ointments, creams, oils

and the ether, sometimes called God

Are poisonous substances the cause of such imbalance ?

Humans can be the most stupid idiots regardless of

age, gender education. financial status. location

and some humans can be exquisite geniuses

yet still have idiotic traits

I do not have to justify what I want or need

Monday, May 11, 2026

These guys want..

20 something year old girls/women that never age

home cooked food, fast food from restaurants

instant immediate gratification in all areas, physical and mental

obedient slaves to all their desires and wishes

to be sexually desirable physically but as they get older they stop doing things
to be desirable with their persona yet don't really know how to be

think working alot and money/flashing their cash and material things can get them anything they want

complete and total freedom to do and live as they want which is mostly like pigs and animals in disorganized dirty messes and clutter all over the house, yard, anywhere

as they age most are looking pretty bad yet expect to have and get a young looking cheerleader type woman on their shoulder and in their bed

they forget their youth when they naturally attractive

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stephen, my nephew

jimmy g, my son's best friend

both my sons

the man i am married to

john layson, chuck charles strand and his half brother stephen hosey

both my ex husbands

tony, william, darin, kirk

Me. Quiet in the morning. Him: Noisy and wants to talk and be disruptive.

He hates my placidity and quietness.

No talking to me for 2 hours. I enjoy the peace, quiet and silence. Light bothers my eyes

Him: Noisy and wants to talk to me while I am still asleep in the brain.

He likes activity and disruptions especially early in the day and usually

takes off before 10 am or starts in on physical activities like yard work.

He turns on the news cell phone tv first thing in the morning and last thing at night.

He likes stories esp news, fantasy sci fi strange fake stuff. He must have constant outside media noise.

He absorbs all the the garbage lies, trash and stupid short videos of dumb things. I do not find it

amusing to watch someone do stupid dangerous stunts and get hurt. He likes that kind of crap.

He can't differentiate between truth and fiction.

He believes his opinions are facts and everyone else should believe the

same way otherwise they are stupid and all wrong

He cannot accept differences in anything including people animals objects material things

He thinks in black and white terms.

He must have constant outside noises videos input from other things while driving, working

while eating and conversations. He can't focus on the conversation/talk at any time.

He plays music, watches tv, internet short to long videos and will play this stuff around me and

others not realizing some people do not like it and he does not care if anyone else likes it or not.

He is cult influenced. gullible. easily fooled persuaded.

He has no control over his food and drink. He can't stop himself from touching anything and everything.

Grabbing food, drinks anywhere as if it is his stuff. He has sticky fingers.

He lack of self control.

He buys bullshit sold by infomercials, scammers, cult leaders, political radicals

who just run their mouth and sell things to viewers to make lots of profits/money.

These people are out for the money and do not serve genuine causes.

He believes everyone is out to get your money, to get something.

He is a sucker.

He does not like window shopping because he can't stop looking and control himself and his urges

for immediate self gratification.

He thinks you have to buy something whenever you are in a store or any sales place like outdoor flea markets

and if you don't buy something they think you are stealing, are a thief.

He does not meditate or create writings from the self. He doesn't reflect accurately.

He will writes notes on what others have written and said from a select few videos and books.

Peacemakers and Warmongers

Sunday, May 10, 2026

Network of Abusers

all of the people we know, all neighbors and any family member of mine he knows all
contribute to and allow his verbal and physical abuse to me

i have told most of these people about his words and actions.

no one will do anything or listen to me because he has them convinced he is such a nice guy...the one who is always there for them to help them and fix their stuff

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