like the homeless woman i met at QuikTrip
all she had was clothes on her back a pair of shoes a small backpack and a cell phone.
she said she fell asleep on one of the many buses she rides daily and when she woke up someone stole her phone. the only form of communication she had
how terrible
a balance must be made so i am not selfish or self sacrificing
if i sacrifice all if myself to self serving people i am no longer myself and a happy sane balanced person
i used to give all to make someone else happy only to discover i cannot make them happy. they suck all my energy, drain me, want more and demand more. never happy. the more i give the more they expect
and when i give too much i am not respected, not appreciated.
when i give in to something i do not want i am considered a weak stupid fool.. a naive idiot
so i have learned to set boundaries and some selfish people dont like it
too bad. wish i would have known a long time ago i am not a doormat
it is up to me to take care of myself first. clean up my messes and others should do the same.
masters and slaves are out of the question. both are miserable creatures
females become bitches because of bastards and other bitches
bastards become that way due to dealing with other bastards and bitches
a child is not born a bastard or a bitch
they are created by their experiences
pavlov training
nice little girls turn mean due to treatment
boys become bad for the same reason
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hospitals, schools, gyms, businesses like walmart and professional grocery stores
offices and intelligent people.
They accumulate any and everything packing things away hiding them.
It gets to the point they cannot clean up after themselves.
They do not acknowledge that they are the problem, the one touching everything with their dirty hands spreading germs and diseases. Licking their fingers and touching things. Not paying attention to their hands or things they move around.
They eat while doing anything such as while walking moving around and even while working.
They do not admit they are the one leaving dirty messes behind for other people like me to clean up.
They expect me to do their laundry, dishes, clean up the floor after they track shit all over the place and leave crap and things all over the patio, the yard and any area they have been to.
As they get older they can't concentrate much on one thing at a time and try to multitask
they do not pay attention to me or any one person, the conversation at hand.
Their mind wanders constantly. Distracted easily. They pile up things and make a disaster out of any area they work in or do anything in.
Their beds are dirty nasty full of bugs and they do not see the point in changing their sheets linens washing their clothes and bedding or any thing they have.
The dust and dirt piles up in all places of the house and any place they work at.
Countertops are rarely wiped off anywhere including bathrooms and kitchens. They freak out when the floor is cleaned properly by thorough sweeping vacumming and mopping and polishing.
They do not mind filth dirt mud rocks or any item laying around on the floor. They wear shoes almost all the time and have stinking feet and socks and shoes and boots. They wear shoes because they don't want to hurt their tender feet. If they would walk barefoot as soon as they enter the house they could feel the filth and dirt and sticky junk all over the floor.
If they would focus on their immediate environment instead of on the tv, the internet, the cell phone, the videos, the news, the radio, some crap playing thru their earphones, ear buds, headphones they would see and realize the true nasty mess of a bug and animal haven they live in.
They love to have huge pieces of electronic equipment like stereos, televisions, speakers, radios, amplifiers, reel to reel players and are easily mesmerized by the audio and videos pictures of things that are somewhere else. They ignore the person they live with and shut them out by blasting junk thru these devices.
They do not like to clean. They do not know how to do deep cleaning. Don't care about bugs, spiders, cobwebs, mice, rats, snakes coming into the house. They say it is no big deal, it is part of life living with creatures crawling all over the house and in the walls.
They are afraid of seeing a drop of water anywhere and scream and yell if they see it.
The place starts stinking and they can't figure out where the smell is coming from. The person I live with did this many times and once he took furniture polish that smells like lemon and sprayed it on my kitchen counter where I do food prep.
they put wrong liquids into inappropriate wrong containers and usually do not label the can or bottle with what is inside of it. This is a dangerous and stupid thing to do.
Instead of getting to the core, the root cause of the mold, mildew, stink they do temporary patches and buy products like "toilet bowl cleaner" or any chemical that makes it sound easy to quickly cover up the issue.
They blame other people for their problems like losing things and their impulsive and angry temper tantrums they throw every single day. They refuse to take responsibility for their own creation of disastrous messes they make.
They like to keep old boxes and containers items came in instead of tossing them immediately.
One i know even keeps a used condom of all things as if he will use it again. He also finds outdated condoms at the park and brings them home. Why? It is no good.
they love to keep expired items in the refrigerator the bathroom medicine cabinet, the food pantry basically any place. expired paint, auto chemicals, pharmaceutical drugs, ointments, creams, lotions, shampoo. toothpaste mouthwash. cleaning products.
the one i live with puts old silicone ointment cream on his legs this ointment was acquired over 20 years ago from super flea and it was expired at the time he got it.
they are scared to death to throw away anything thinking they will need to use it someday.
they treat me and people like trash and treat all the material things and money like the most precious things of all.
they do not listen to me or anyone or any business, government professionals about tossing old expired things, being sanitary, sneezing into the elbow instead of spraying into the room or any other technique to stay clean and healthy.
they are not health conscious.
they love to eat fast food anything that requires no prep.
they do not wash off fruits and vegetables before eating them.
they grab any piece of food laying anywhere and will eat it if they think it is edible
they do not believe in washing old clothes bought at the thrift store, garage sale or anywhere. they think if the item smells good it does not need to be washed. they have no idea where it came from and do not care. i have warned them it could have bug eggs in it like lice, fleas or any disease bacteria you cannot see or smell.
they pick their nose when they think no one is looking. they stick their hands down their pants and play with themselves also. they do not wash their hands after using the bathroom restroom and picking their nose and playing with their private parts.
since they eat lots of sweets and garbage and drink sugary things they have a lot of stinking body odor which they cannot get rid of even after taking a shower. no deodorant can get rid of the pit odor.
they pet animals and feed them with their fingers letting the animals touch their hands and do not wash their hands. this transfers germs and bugs and worms into the person even though you can't see the worm eggs and parasites.
they are full of parasites in their bodies and will not do anything to clean their insides out.
they have digestive issues like heartburn etcetera and do not know why and do not care to know so they will use a quick fix like tums or rolaids pepto bismol or any type of antacid or soda pop mixture to quickly alleviate the issue
their guts are a total mess
they eat junk food and suck down sweet drinks throughout the day and do not sit down and patiently eat a real meal and concentrate on the food and conversation. they get up often running thru the house or area outside or anywhere.
they love to eat lots of cookies, pies, pastries, doughnuts, candy
they will pass out old expired candy to children kids on halloween saying the food is still good
they hate to use very much soap claiming it is bad
they do not believe in using real hot water to wash the dishes and hate to use the dishwasher falsely believing it uses too much electricity and water
they will scrimp on water and electricity usage and spend tremendous amounts of money on things like home yard products, tools, automobile anything, unnecessary expensive food and drink items and will even drive long distances to get some weird fast food they are craving like ice cream, hamburgers, pizza, taco bell, mexican, churchs or kfc chicken,
they hate accounting and keeping proper accurate records of their spending. they prefer to use cash as much as possible because it is fast and easy and not trackable. they buy things in secret when they are alone and hide their activities from they spouse, partner, wife or husband then they scream and yell at their wife for buying a thing she needs and wants that is good and practical
they spend lots of money on themselves and rarely buy expensive items for their wife or girlfriend. they tell her she does not need it whenever she expresses needing something like new clothes or a decent appliance that is new and more energy efficient.
they would rather keep old inefficient junk using it until it works no more instead of investing in a newer and better model of anything
It is my responsibility to clean up after myself and not after anyone over the age of 7.
I am responsible for my own area only.
I refuse to clean up messes of any kind made by any person who is supposed to be a mature adult.
