Monday, February 23, 2026
I got old. 64 close to 65 in july
chatty. talk too much. used up. unwanted. not desired fast like i used to be. rarely told you are pretty anymore.
sagging skin. flabby cellulite legs butt.
no tits. flat chested.
not child bearing anymore since 2010 so sex appeal keeps going down by the minute.
hair beard moustache on my face worse than before.
get tired easily. broken down. in pain all the time.
look younger than 64 but when i tell people my age most dont want to deal with me beyond a s conversation with a stranger. they are not interested in spending time with me beyond a necessary encounter.
Sunday, February 22, 2026
Accountability. Accounting. He does neither of these regarding himself.
he hates accounting for his expenditures. he claims he spends his money wisely. he does spend it wisely at times. other times very foolishly.
he refuses to take responsibility and accountability for his words and actions, his thoughts. he is not self reflective. he blames others for his reactions, reactive behavior.
it is never his fault.
Immature people: Males or females.
Rely on appearances looks only. Think physical looks of someone's body, money, cars, houses, material things are top priority. Do not take time to consider the inner workings of another being whether it is human, animal, plant or any other life form.
They do not work on themselves.
Competitive. Believes they have to compete and fight with others to prove themselves better and superior, smarter, more able and capable and more important.
Looks at surfaces. Lacks ability or comprehension of the individuality and personaility of any being.
Compares others and self to everyone else constantly. Will say things like "Why can't you be like so and so?" and "Just shut up!" anytime someone expresses a difference any thing different what they like prefer or believe which is only their opinion.
Can't distinguish their opinion from fact.
Fights with family spouse girlfriend boyfriend husband wife trying to force their ways opinions beliefs hobbies habits upon other people and tries to make animals do what they want without considering the nature of beasts.
Are impatient, critical, rude, mean. Zero patience. No tolerance for anyone ever slipping up making a mistake, spilling something, having an accident yet if they slip up they diminish what they did and say 'OH, well"
Expect immediate satisfaction in all things. Are not willing to wait for anything.
Pushy. Arrogant. Status seeking. Flashy things.
Tend to eat whatever is fast and easy and lying around.
Tend to be addicted to sweets, drinks, food, alcohol. Trash crap food and drink.
Drive like maniacs. Cuss out other drivers. Road rage. Sometimes will jump out of the car and confront other drivers on the road or give them mean looks, yell and scream and threaten them. Some will shoot stab harm others due to their anger.
Easily angered then blame others for their own behavior and reactions
Reactive instantly.
Treat other people like slaves, servants and doormats. Expect others to do their bidding instantly without any regard to the other persons time, feelings, situation.
Selfish.
Grabby. Grabs things anywhere including other people's food, items
Opens the bathroom door or bedroom door on people with no notice.
Crosses cuts defies boundaries of others
Into the neighbors business.
Thinks they know what everyone else should be doing, dressing, saying, working at instead of focusing on their own things they ought to be doing.
Outer focused.
NO meditation. No self reflection.
Will not look at themselves and accept blame for what they say or do and will say "I wouldn't have yelled, screamed, attacked you, hit you, strangled you if you didn't act that way."
Judgmental of all except themselves.
Has to have constant external media going like radio, tv, internet movies videos noise, music.
Always talking about how stupid and disgusting people are. Never looking at how disgusting they are . Making comments about how they hate fat people the way they look
Maintaining repulsive evil heinous thoughts about life sexual desires and horrible things they would like to do or have done then denying they thought said or did it.
Cruelty to people and animals. Justifying it.
Should be ashamed of themselves but project their shame humiliation upon others . Inflict their guilt upon others. Projection and denial.