There is no one to talk to but God and strangers

 i have no friends or family

for support

i am on my own

Last night He said i am the best thing that happened to him

 i told him to write it down and i will show it to him next time he gets angry pissed threatens me

that will probably be tomorrow and the next day

and the next

same pattern

ambivalence

Not excited about learning everything anymore esp government stuff

Things not normal about humans

 wearing clothes. cooking food. 

forcing themselves. going against nature 

eating wrong , when not hungry. substituting food for another desire.

forcing sex 

languages. words.

reading writing studying thinking building 

erratic food erratic irregular mood and body functions

5am up 2pm down . nine hours later tired

 the way it was when i had the job had to be there at 530 am

job began at 9 am i was tired 6 to 7 pm had gotten up at 730 am or so

today up at 1030 am tired 530 pm due to being awake until 430 am

Does things without telling me in advance most of the time

AND expects me to tell him what i am going to do all the time 

buying things all over the place

going places i do not know where he goes

sneaking around

hiding things in his file cabinet and cardboard boxes all over in the house and in sheds