I read somewhere men are less choosey when it comes to women

 I read they will take whatever is available much more so than a female will do. 

she is usually much more choosy about selecting a male to mate with.

in a room with 100 men it is rare i see one i would choose.

so i walk away leave the scene empty handed 

doubtful there is even one in ten thousand i would want or choose.

its slim pickins in this world.

if there is a suitable partner he is likely taken and he wont let go of her his mate and she has a stronghold on him.

and single or married males want women 27 years old or younger. the younger the better.

the more naive the better. he can lie all the time and she will believe it.

less experience means she has less ability to compare him to anyone else. he is god in her eyes. so he has to work less. he can fool her more. he can be an insecure scrawny wimp and she thinks he is he man hulk hunk.

he doesnt like older wiser women who can smell his shit fast.

I read alot. Think too much.

Freedom does not exist

 Cells are trapped. Bodies are trapped. 

All moving trying to escape to nowhere somewhere that doesnt exist. A place a land called freedom. A fantasy world of nonexistence.

One thing

 They only want one thing. They (men) are only after one thing from you a female girl woman. Grandma Sarah repeated this to me for many years 10 15 50 years and I was in denial of her words refusing to believe what she said was true. Defiant, I tried to prove her wrong and I failed completely. 

And if they dont want your sex they are there for the money. The goodies. The food. Something they can get out of you, something they can get you to do like jobs and tasks they dont want to do so they can spend their time doing what they want and getting more money for themselves.

They will take it all. Sex and the money material things and work. They will take what you give whatever they can get.

If I say that took me 2 hours or 6 hours to do he they will say its no big deal its nothing.

And the more things I you do for him or them the more worthless I become in his eyes and in his mind. His opinion of me lowers with each thing I do for free. As if I should be charging him money for every task I perform and each gesture which shows I was prepared and thinking ahead. 

A real man wants to do and buy for the woman he loves. He doesnt keep track of every penny he spends every gift he gives and remind her of all of it forcing her to state the many things she does and how much money it would cost if he had to pay for her services.

A person man or woman who doesnt love is resentful of doing anything and views the other person as a pain in their ass obligation and duty. 

February 5 2026 last time at community center j thomas lovell

last time i left this house last wednesday february 11 2026

 went to evangel church food pantry drive thru. he drove.

No friends. No relationships

 am a maid housework. bill payer. caretaker trustworthy dutiful plain ordinary slave 

not the type of woman to take out to nice places.

an embarassment embarassing person people want to run away from