Now I am off to read a book. My favorite things. Reading and writing.

Don't bend over he said

 And don't lift up your shirt. The personal trainer said recently. He's a religious christian.

Cover yourself up.

The husband says the same things along with don't spread your legs do squats kick your leg up in the air. Don't bend over with any low cut top. 

Why?

They think about sex when they see the body parts. That's why.

Even when they see the face. Eyes looking certain ways, smiles, smiling, laughing, staring.,a long glance sideways or straight on.

They take it all the wrong way.

The really immature ones think just because a girl talks to him she wants to go to bed with him.

I wanted to do and learn everything

 And can't do it 

I wore myself out and hated to have to sleep 

I need quite a bit of sleep and can't work long hours or days. I get sick and tired easily.

I did weird things like try to live on coffee and stay awake. It doesn't work. Worked at jobs heavy lifting automobile work painting houses hanging sheetrock carrying it and 4x8 sheets of plywood, carrying heavy firewood, doing ridiculous things for strong men not fit for me. Took long trips out of town with my ex husband working at festival all long days, doing electrical work out of town, mechanical work with him.  

I tell my younger self I was a fool for even thinking I can and should do all that stuff.

I could not keep up with the guys men in any hard labor job. Lawn care is another I did. 

I spent most of my life in the wrong jobs not designed for me.

My fragile body is why I can't hold down a wide variety of jobs or careers 

I believed in the if there's a will there's a way and you can do anything you want if you try hard enough. Total crap thinking.

Scattered. Ill placed. The men just made fun of me and some sexually harassed me. They are trying to work and I was a distraction...a little female in the area all they could think about was sex.

This is why they don't want me around when they are working.

Penis brain takes over. It's nature. Any semi attractive female in the vicinity is a distraction. Especially if they see some leg butt boobs tit or mouth looking young shiny glossy lips pink or red even purple.

Still coughing and hacking up pale yellow stuff

 Bacterial infection is what pharmacist at 9000 Walmart Metcalf overland park ks said the other day June 12, 2026 Friday 

The st Luke's clinic woman in Hy-Vee raytown mo said I had a virus and it turned into bronchitis. I went there after being sick for 3 weeks. It began May 9th

Pharmacist at Walmart in Kansas said I can get services there once I am on Medicare but can't now on medicaid because I live in Missouri 

July 1st Medicare is effective 

Some people want your skills as soon as

 They find out what you can do 

He admires women who take care of themselves not him

 Not the woman or women who take care of him

Take care of yourself first. 

He admires women who take care of themselves 

Food journey through my life

 Lots of processed food since I was born.

Lots of natural nutritious food. If it hadn't been for the healthy food I probably would have been dead already.

Vitamins minerals herbs supplements.

Last night a video on YouTube concerning varicose veins told the truth about the cause. Processed food manmade seed oils lots of sweeteners eaten by millions of people causes horrible health problems.

Stop eating bread, crackers, pizza dough, cake, cookies, anything with white flour, baked goods, fried anything from restaurants or in a package, snack foods, chips. Don't eat any of the fake stuff.

Zero soybean oil. No store bought salad dressing, sauces, gravy, 

Eat plain meat, fish, seafood, eggs, fresh vegetables and fruits.

Eating wrong food caused me to have bad skin, rashes, excema, acne cystic, gastritis, duodenitis, heartburn, constipation, diarrhea, eye problems, bronchitis asthma, vomiting, headaches migraines, severe mood changes, insomnia, daytime sleepiness and more.

Sodas sugar chemicals rancid grease dough salty snacks , culprits of swelling inflammation edema. My body fighting back trying to heal itself and recover from the poisons.

Bad food may have been the cause of my scoliosis and osteoporosis and arthritis.

My mom ate lots of processed food and drank sugar tea and Pepsi and Kool aid and soda. Her diet when she was pregnant with me may have formed my problems.