they are wanting to help. no strings attached
they are not pushy, not all about the money, not constantly thinking about something else during a conversation, not looking at the clock acting like I am wasting their time
their eyes give away their sincerity
kind ones I meet once in awhile instantly understand what i say and feel
they do not live with me, know no one I know and whatever I say will
never go back to anyone I know, live with, have lived with or any family member or neighbor
the safest places are being alone and when i run across genuinely nice, kind, understanding people
are where I am in today. agree with truths stated.
it took me this long on my journey in life to be aware of these things
and need to go back to being silent as I was when I was a child
silent with wisdom. move away from danger, negativity, any person or thing i sense is bad immediately without showing them any fear
just smile, nod and be on my merry quiet way
enjoying my lovely solitude
and make friends with a very few strangers that are also on the same wavelength
strangers prove it to me daily whenever I go out
i was more attractive when younger and am gaining that appeal back bit by bit even tho living in fight or flight mode, survival mode
situation of his aggravation intensifies and increases the more aware i become and state my realizations. huge mistake to tell him anything i discover as truth, memories from the past, dreams i have
why did it happen? where did it come from?
I am as careful as can be when I do anything so I won't contract illnesses.
when I go out to the gyms they are sanitized all over. people use the antifungal disinfectant at these places constantly
the only place I can think of is at HOME where I contracted this awful sore throat, slight fever, coughing up yellow and dark phlegm.
which came from HIM. he has been sick coughing sneezing hacking for many weeks and he spreads his germs all over everywhere he goes. sneezing blasting into the room air, does not wash his hands often, picks and digs at his nose, leaves dirty napkins tissues paper towels laying about on counters or anywhere and reuses these dirty items. he touches everything indiscrimiately.
it is not normal to get sick in MAY when weather is warming up
So HE contracted some crap from somebody somewhere probably more than a month ago.
Last night I asked him who he has been around that was coughing sneezing and he did NOT respond to my question. All the people that have come over here are NOT sick so he must have acquired it from some STRANGER I have not seen. OR else it is from his sisters sherry and dorothy.
