Wednesday, July 8, 2026

He wants to look good in public. Doesn't want anyone to know how rotten he is at home to me.

 He acts totally different to other people. 

He doesn't show them his Mr Hyde evil side: the strangers, the neighbors, his family members, my family, friends, associates, people he and I sell things to off the internet like craigslist, ebay, facebook marketplace or anywhere else.


He disrespects, disregards, slams all of me. Always has now that I think about all the memories for 35 years

The whole me he disrespects, disregards, minimizes, shits on, slams.

My

likes and loves, interests, activities, duties

work jobs

intelligence

education, ability to learn and go to school

health

personality

friendliness, talktativeness

appearance, face and body

attractiveness to other people men, women and children

ability to attract animals like dogs and cats, deer, any animal

talents, gifts, blessings

purpose

the things I buy

things I say, real stories and facts I relate to him

paying bills early

food I eat and how much

vitamins, minerals, herbs

He has never had confidence in me about anything I do or can do.

He appreciates very little about me.

He compares me to "everybody else"

He has always quickly thrown me away, acts like he doesn't need me for anything (except sex), pushed me away, threatened to find somebody else (a woman who WORKS), get a divorce

Why he does this? All of his sisters and brothers, neices, nephews, mother, cousins do/did this to their partners treating them like they were never good enough, like a piece of shit trash. I have been around his family members and listened to what they say and watched how they treated their mates, husbands, wives, girlfriends, boyfriends. 








Tuesday, July 7, 2026

What kind of creature are you dealing with? Most important thing to know first.

 Then you can anticipate their actions and lead, follow or avoid them accordingly

Birthday cake when I was a teenager. Dancing people decor on the cake. Grandma bought it

 I was either 14, 15 or 16

I don't have any pictures of it and I lost the little dancing figures years ago.

All of grandma's family pictures are gone.


Monday, July 6, 2026

Will deliberately do what I don't want

Mourning dove. First heard in May 1987. Love that bird's sound

Tshirt and underwear incident I was 14. Unintentional sexual turn on

 Grandma got upset with me. I didn't understand why.

I was sitting at the kitchen at the table wearing a big white t-shirt that belonged to grandpa. I had just got up that morning after sleeping in it. 

The garbage disposal repair man was in the kitchen working under the sink. I had let him in the house after he rang the doorbell.

 I sat in a kitchen chair and was talking to him. I had on panties but no shorts or pants so he must have been able to see my crotch area pretty good at that angle.

She came in the kitchen and said,  "Sarah what are you doing.! Go in your room. " 

She came in the bedroom and said "You don't do that. Put on some pants. You don't sit there talking to a man dressed like that!"

I had no idea what was going on. Now over 50 years later I still remember her anger.  It's something she was well aware of and I was not.  She was 45 years older than me. Had been married 5 times, bore 3 children and had 8 grandkids at the time. 

Its called the way it's so easy for a man to get sexually turned on by what he sees.

There was no provocation on my part. I wasn't even aware that he would look at me in that way.

And as I got older through the years I still have a hard time understanding that I need to fully covered up at all times even when I am home and my husband is the only person here.

And not only fully covered but be careful about wearing tight clothes especially jeans leggings tights paired with a top that shows my hourglass figure.




 

He wants to look good in public. Doesn't want anyone to know how rotten he is at home to me.

 He acts totally different to other people.  He doesn't show them his Mr Hyde evil side: the strangers, the neighbors, his family member...