Never trust a man

 he is a wolf

a sneaky one looking at saying and doing things whenever he thinks you are not around

Country living is what i want

Country living is what i want

Lots of space

land 5 to 10 acres

no neighbors close

can have peace and quiet

blast music when i want to

layout nude

do whatever I want outside or inside the house home barn shed or anything on the property

burn trash

campfires bonfires parties visits socialize with friends family people whenever I want

dig in the dirt 

Grandpa leroy

 teeth brushing mouthwash gargling. up early. hard worker. 

exercise. oak trees.  tomatoes. green peppers 

eating out alot couldnt cook clean house do mechanical work.

loves chess. 

competitive.

picks and digs into his nose alot when sitting at home

picked fight with grandma during dinner

tailored shirts. dressed professionally at work as school teacher

umpire baseball basketball coach football

collected coins bought jewelry him and grma

his dad roy mitchell was a jeweler in california

loved science and math

taught pe physical education , math and science. also taught english before.

tight watchful with money . didnt want night lights on or windows open when cold outside.

asked me if i still had sex with my husband in 2010 or so . i said at least 2 times a week. i was 49. born 1961. gpa is 25 years older than me born 1926. 

gma died 2008. born 1916

told me little girls around the age of 5 learn how powerful they are in controlling men

smoked a cigar once in awhile

looked at playboy magazines

Addictions he has

 He is addicted to 
News, media, politics, sugar, sweets, snacks, junk food, cookies, cakes, pies, donuts, sugary high fructose corn syrup drinks and food, spicy things like hot sauces, barbecue sauces, anything that says jalapeno hot spicy flavored 
sweet drinks tea soda juices esp cranberry and canned whole cranberry sauce
analyzing things trying and thinking he can fix almost anything
thinking he knows answers to stuff before researching then often finding out later he doesn't and did not know

cars trucks esp the ones he owns

tools

buying premade things regarding food, drinks, chemicals, cleaners, soaps, 

store bought things instead of homemade food and drink

fast food restaurants: wendys, hardees, arbys, taco bell, dominos pizza, subway, burger king

price of gold and silver watching

playing chess on computer

watching everybody me neighbors store employees drivers

weather

gas prices

wars

cussing goddammit fuck 

micromanaging

He spends majority of time worrying about things he can't control

 and all of the what ifs what if this or that happens 

I survived. Untouched and alive

 the daily rollercoaster terror. his unpredictability spontaneity impulsiveness . impatience. anger.

going from loving one minute to intense hatred the next.

denies his behavior is wrong. never wants me to repeat what he said or did unless it was good behavior.

i still think that his drinks diet food are major influence cause of this atrocious behavior.

i have seen and experienced it in others and myself. males females babies children teens adults of all ages.

i have dealt with thousands of people.

Woman women girls do not have to work like a man. LOOKS are everything. Does not matter what she does or what she has

 her appearance is everything