Saturday, July 25, 2026

Bluetooth devices he has

 Lg355fl

He turns on certain times of day. Evening especially  lg355dl


Cmwifi-


Does not want to do anything fun with me or see me smile laugh or be happy

 So who does he have fun with???

Untold fantasies and real life experiences...

 nobody ever wanted to share me or tie me up in bondage. they want to own me, possess me and be sure i am not with any other guy man male. they said/say stuff like "you're mine and nobody elses" and "if another person was involved in sexual encounters like a threesome or more "it would cause hard feelings"


a couple of guys tried it for fun then looked at me and said i can't do this to you..i want you free

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the psychologist psychiatrist therapist woman on youtube said it is pretty easy to figure out what someone's fantasy is by their outside persona, personality 

she described in detail what my/your fantasies mean subconsciously

what is interesting is some fantasies i have now are the same ones i had when i was a virgin. i was 15 and a half when a scorpio trickster man took my virginity ...cold heartedly dumping me right after we had sex the second time

vigin fantasy; being loved by several men at once. this is something that i have never done. it hasn't happened (yet, i should say). not sure i could allow myself to be caressed and screwed by more than one man at a time. 

just pure fantasy because in real life i can't stand the idea of stranger guys men touching me. this is why i never got a job dancing as a stripper in a club or adult place.

the innate desire is that i just want to be wanted by many. which, in the past was very very true. countless 100s approached me and i have no idea how many men wanted me but never said or did anything about it. the ones who secretly desired by body..i will never know.






Recording. Did it really happen if it was not recorded?

TRASHY WHORE AND VIRGINAL GIRL THEY WANT BOTH.

 adolescent males boys young and old men/man, guys want both these types of females girls women

saw a great video not long ago where the asian lady described this perfectly

the female they want is always out of reach

if they have the virginal one they desire the prostitute type

if they have the whore they want to virgin kind of woman

never ever satisified with what they have

always wanting someone out of reach the have to fantasize about, strive for and work their balls off for

the easier the girl is to get the less respect they have for her

they will screw my/your brains out and still have no respect for me/you and down deep hate my/your freeking guts all because you are there taken for granted all the time hanging around in their face. the more i do the less they appreciate care for. and he/they will never really love me or you as long as he thinks i am always going to be there at his beck and call or to be the doormat slave tramped into the dirt on the floor

i or you will never get the respect desire and love once he concludes that i am the easy or free type




At 14 15 16 17 18 into my 40s...even 50s..desired Even today at 65

 stopped at a gas station the other day met the employee their 

after a half hour or so of talking he was all over me

hugging, wanting a kiss i would not allow


Mirrors are mandatory.

 Mirrors are mandatory.

 For sight. Knowing what is coming at me.

Adding light into the room. Seeing what the outfits look like from 

all angles

I can see how others see me.

If not for mirrors a person would never know how they look

Narcissist, narcissism? Or just wanting to be sure I look presentable in public or

private around other people who judge everyone and everything by sight, what they see instantly


Bluetooth devices he has

 Lg355fl He turns on certain times of day. Evening especially  lg355dl Cmwifi-