Tuesday, May 12, 2026

Sore throat, coughing runny rose on May 9th, 2026 the day before Mother's Day sunday May 10

 why did it happen? where did it come from?

I am as careful as can be when I do anything so I won't contract illnesses.

when I go out to the gyms they are sanitized all over. people use the antifungal disinfectant at these places constantly

the only place I can think of is at HOME where I contracted this awful sore throat, slight fever, coughing up yellow and dark phlegm.

which came from HIM. he has been sick coughing sneezing hacking for many weeks and he spreads his germs all over everywhere he goes. sneezing blasting into the room air, does not wash his hands often, picks and digs at his nose, leaves dirty napkins tissues paper towels laying about on counters or anywhere and reuses these dirty items. he touches everything indiscrimiately.

it is not normal to get sick in MAY when weather is warming up

So HE contracted some crap from somebody somewhere probably more than a month ago. 

Last night I asked him who he has been around that was coughing sneezing and he did NOT respond to my question. All the people that have come over here are NOT sick so he must have acquired it from some STRANGER I have not seen. OR else it is from his sisters sherry and dorothy. 


Some people like to keep you at their level or down below them. Some like to see you rise above and be happy

 if they keep you at the same level or below they feel they have more control over you

if you escape the "system" of control you will leave like a hot air balloon floating all over and they might never see you again

fly away anywhere in a helicopter, balloon, airplane, jet, any airborne craft and when you leave you are free to wander about and probably will not return to the hellish situations


Are micro organisms, parasites responsible for our bad behavior, mental illness, insanity?

 as well as toxic substances like fumes, dust particles, any airborne things that we are allergic to

liquids, gases, solids

ointments, creams, oils

and the ether, sometimes called God

Are poisonous substances the cause of such imbalance ?



Humans can be the most stupid idiots regardless of

 age, gender education. financial status. location

and some humans can be exquisite geniuses

yet still have idiotic traits


I do not have to justify what I want or need

Monday, May 11, 2026

These guys want..

 20 something year old girls/women that never age

home cooked food, fast food from restaurants

instant immediate gratification in all areas, physical and mental

obedient slaves to all their desires and wishes

to be sexually desirable physically but as they get older they stop doing it.
to be desirable with their persona yet don't really know how to be

think working alot and money can get them anything they want

complete and total freedom to do and live as they want which is mostly like pigs and animals in disorganized dirty messes and clutter all over the house, yard, anywhere



++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

stephen, my nephew

jimmy g, my son's best friend

both my sons

the man i am married to

john layson, chuck charles strand and his half brother stephen hosey

both my ex husbands

tony, william, darin, kirk





Me. Quiet in the morning. Him: Noisy and wants to talk and be disruptive.

Me. Quiet in the morning. Him: Noisy and wants to talk and be disruptive.

He hates my placidity and quietness.

No talking to me for 2 hours. I enjoy the peace, quiet and silence. Light bothers my eyes


Him: Noisy and wants to talk to me while I am still asleep in the brain. 

He likes activity and disruptions especially  early in the day and usually 

takes off before 10 am or starts in on physical activities like yard work.


He turns on the news cell phone tv first thing in the morning and last thing at night.

He likes stories esp news, fantasy sci fi strange fake stuff. He must have constant outside media noise.

He absorbs all the the garbage lies, trash and stupid short videos of dumb things. I do not find it

amusing to watch someone do stupid dangerous stunts and get hurt. He likes that kind of crap.


He can't differentiate between truth and fiction.

He believes his opinions are facts and everyone else should believe the 

same way otherwise they are stupid and all wrong

He cannot accept differences in anything including people animals objects material things

He thinks in black and white terms. 


He must have constant outside noises videos input from other things while driving, working

while eating and conversations. He can't focus on the conversation/talk at any time. 

He plays music, watches tv, internet short to long videos and will play this stuff around me and 

others not realizing some people do not like it and he does not care if anyone else likes it or not.


He is cult influenced. gullible. easily fooled persuaded.

He has no control over his food and drink. He can't stop himself from touching anything and everything.

Grabbing food, drinks anywhere as if it is his stuff. He has sticky fingers.

He lack of self control.


He buys bullshit sold by infomercials, scammers, cult leaders, political radicals

 who just run their mouth and sell things to viewers to make lots of profits/money. 

These people are out for the money and do not serve genuine causes.

He believes everyone is out to get your money, to get something.


He is a sucker.

He does not like window shopping because he can't stop looking and control himself and his urges

for immediate self gratification.

He  thinks you have to buy something whenever you are in a store or any sales place like outdoor flea markets

and if you don't buy something they think you are stealing, are a thief. 


He does not meditate or create writings from the self. He doesn't reflect accurately. 

He will writes notes on what others have written and said from a select few videos and books.


Sore throat, coughing runny rose on May 9th, 2026 the day before Mother's Day sunday May 10

 why did it happen? where did it come from? I am as careful as can be when I do anything so I won't contract illnesses. when I go out to...