Alone

I am alone in the woods. I belong solitary like the Neil Diamond song.

Alone together. that is what this marriage on paper is.

Kind people have quick understanding and patience.

 they are wanting to help. no strings attached

they are not pushy, not all about the money, not constantly thinking about something else during a conversation, not looking at the clock acting like I am wasting their time

their eyes give away their sincerity

Strangers

 kind ones I meet once in awhile instantly understand what i say and feel

they do not live with me, know no one I know and whatever I say will

never go back to anyone I know, live with, have lived with or any family member or neighbor

the safest places are being alone and when i run across genuinely nice, kind, understanding people

Buddhism Buddah quotes I discovered

 are where I am in today. agree with truths stated.

it took me this long on my journey in life to be aware of these things

and need to go back to being silent as I was when I was a child

silent with wisdom. move away from danger, negativity, any person or thing i sense is bad immediately without showing them any fear

just smile, nod and be on my merry quiet way

enjoying my lovely solitude

and make friends with a very few strangers that are also on the same wavelength

circumstances bring out emotion already inside. words arent said unless you think them. i dont care if he or anyone else hates my guts or loves me. 

my mind used to zone out i called it trancing when removing myself from bad situations corrupt people. 

when i sleep i dream intensely of places i haven't been

i am courageous enough to not care .. she called me aloof

i have never begged anyone for sex or love. never pushed it on someone or asked them to say i love you. those words should come naturally and sex should be natural not forced.

I was attractive to many and still am

 strangers prove it to me daily whenever I go out

i was more attractive when younger and am gaining that appeal back bit by bit even tho living in fight or flight mode, survival mode

situation of his aggravation intensifies and increases the more aware i become and state my realizations. huge mistake to tell him anything i discover as truth, memories from the past, dreams i have

I do not trust him

 i trust him about as far as five universes away 

Strangers are my friends. The rest are enemies.