Nice stay nice around nice ones and remain nice
Mean mingle with the mean and they recognize each other fast
Nice becomes mean after associating experiencing meanness . If they don't learn to be mean around the mean they don't survive. Some commit suicide.
Mean rarely become genuinely nice all the time.
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Qualities of the ladies and
qualities of the gentlemen
are similar as qualities of
their opposites are in the
Bitch vixen shrew females and
cad scoundrel rogue villain
Coughing this morning. Still exhausted. Left house at 208 pm. Back here at 852 pm
Hour at MO Medicaid office Raytown resource center. Paperwork and accurate information and instructions from lady there named Orel. Made appt for this Thursday 3 pm. Have decided to wait till after July 1st. She said is ok if I miss appointment. She knows I feel terrible. Orel got me a chair I am so tired and weak.
Drove myself to emergency room. Had nothing to eat only water and coffee. Fatigue sore throat. Weighed me at almost 115 lbs. Lost 5 lbs in 2 days.
98.4 temperature a fever for me. I am cold. Took my coat into the hospital.
Very nice staff helped me. Took blood swabbed throat. Checked for COVID-19 flu mono strep all negative.
Dr Bro summary is gerd acid coming up micros... Causing sore throat. Prescriptions for maalox and protonix. My grandma Sarah took maalox daily. She had ulcers like I do but had surgery for it
Sent colonoscopy order to my primary care physician Emily. My grandma Sarah had upper and lower GI tests regularly. I have never had either.
So I am so like my grandma. She had disc fusion back surgery when I was 5 or 6. Had slipped discs from falling down stairs.
I have not had back surgery. Can't due to osteoporosis bad. Probably needed surgery many years ago. Maybe the scoliosis curve would not have progressed to 53 degrees it shows on last scan .
Finally ate food when I got home. 10 pm ate beef frozen fries cabbage cucumber radish potato salad.
Nice nurse Sarah a real lady at University Health gave me some snacks after Dr was done analyzing my results. I did eat the fig bar and Lorna dune cookies but not the apple juice or graham crackers.
They told me to wait for 2-4 hours after I eat before I go to bed because it's causing the acid reflux while I sleep.
I have been eating right before bed almost every night for years. Must stop doing that.
It's after 11 pm now so I will have my dessert banana and 2 fresh strawberries then wait two hours before going to sleep.
I will read more of book after dessert. Book is The minds of Billy Milligan by Daniel Keyes. Billy was first person to have criminal charges removed because psychiatrists diagnosed genuine multiple personality disorder.
It is probable that many more people have it or had it and we're not diagnosed. Psychiatric field is relatively new compared to the history of mankind which has an origin still unknown.
People study history and guess when humans began. Science and religion have different answers
And don't lift up your shirt. The personal trainer said recently. He's a religious christian.
Cover yourself up.
The husband says the same things along with don't spread your legs do squats kick your leg up in the air. Don't bend over with any low cut top.
Why?
They think about sex when they see the body parts. That's why.
Even when they see the face. Eyes looking certain ways, smiles, smiling, laughing, staring.,a long glance sideways or straight on.
They take it all the wrong way.
The really immature ones think just because a girl talks to him she wants to go to bed with him.
And can't do it
I wore myself out and hated to have to sleep
I need quite a bit of sleep and can't work long hours or days. I get sick and tired easily.
I did weird things like try to live on coffee and stay awake. It doesn't work. Worked at jobs heavy lifting automobile work painting houses hanging sheetrock carrying it and 4x8 sheets of plywood, carrying heavy firewood, doing ridiculous things for strong men not fit for me. Took long trips out of town with my ex husband working at festival all long days, doing electrical work out of town, mechanical work with him.
I tell my younger self I was a fool for even thinking I can and should do all that stuff.
I could not keep up with the guys men in any hard labor job. Lawn care is another I did.
I spent most of my life in the wrong jobs not designed for me.
My fragile body is why I can't hold down a wide variety of jobs or careers
I believed in the if there's a will there's a way and you can do anything you want if you try hard enough. Total crap thinking.
Scattered. Ill placed. The men just made fun of me and some sexually harassed me. They are trying to work and I was a distraction...a little female in the area all they could think about was sex.
This is why they don't want me around when they are working.
Penis brain takes over. It's nature. Any semi attractive female in the vicinity is a distraction. Especially if they see some leg butt boobs tit or mouth looking young shiny glossy lips pink or red even purple.
