YOU HAVE NOTHING I WANT OR NEED, MR OR MRS GRINCH

JOY IS IN THE CHILD. PURE LOVE

ALL EYES ON THE PRETTY GIRL WOMAN

I Smile even though... and through it all

 https://www.scienceofpeople.com/alpha-female/

 https://www.google.com/search?q=female+hierarchy&client=ms-android-tracfone-us-rvc3&sxsrf=ALiCzsa_Hg8FNtmrIPa-ua29kRIlgO7pUw%3A1672372162072&ei=wl-uY6n2A_HMytMP--WDuA8&oq=female+hierarchy+handmaid%27s+tale&gs_lcp=ChNtb2JpbGUtZ3dzLXdpei1zZXJwEBJKBAhBGABQAFgAYABoAHAAeACAAQCIAQCSAQCYAQCgAQY&gs_ivs=1&sclient=mobile-gws-wiz-serp#tts=0

Healthy looking=sexual attractiveness

I watch them fall. Hoarder Narc Grinch Scrooge types

 they lose it all

chronically miserable 

Childlike joy IS true happiness

If your brains were jelly you wouldnt know it

24 hours in day. Not all is done early in the morning.

Variety in access to females=male desire

Maintenance can be the most time consuming thing. MORE stuff=more time spent caring for it, cleaning, repairing, storing it

5 surefire signs you grew up with an emotionally immature parent

 https://tinybuddha.com/blog/5-surefire-signs-you-grew-up-with-an-emotionally-immature-parent/

Success is how high you bounce after you hit bottom." -- George Patton

 Your Daily Quotation:

"Success is how high you bounce after you hit bottom."

-- George Patton

Some people seem born to be cruel, shit on others with no remorse

Are we meant to stay put in one spot? Live in a box?

How much territory does one need? Domain distance to be comfortable?

Trapped beauty turns ugly

Some are externally focused, looking on the outside for someone somewhere to tell them what they should do. I AM INTERNALLY DRIVEN

You gain strength, experience and confidence by every experience where you really stop to look fear in the face:. You must do the thing you cannot do." -- Eleanor Roosevelt

 Your Daily Quotation:

"You gain strength, experience and confidence by every experience where you really stop to look fear in the face:. You must do the thing you cannot do."

-- Eleanor Roosevelt

Queen Bee and Banty Rooster

 my mom used to talk about some women she knew who were acting like the Queen Bee

her mom, my grandma would talk about some men she knew who acted like little banty roosters

What is a banty rooster? - Thank Chickens

https://thankchickens.com/what-is-a-banty-rooster

The definition of a banty rooster is a smaller, more aggressive rooster. An example of a banty rooster is one used in fights. How can you tell a rooster from a hen or a banty? Check the size of the comb and wattles. Roosters have larger combs and wattles than females. Compare the sizes. Male bantam chickens are larger than females.

Who isn't self absorbed?

Some say I make excuses for and defend others because of my ability to understand

A toad remains a toad. It never turns into a prince

 https://tinybuddha.com/blog/5-surefire-signs-you-grew-up-with-an-emotionally-immature-parent/

Thinking people can change when they want, wrong

Allowing myself to unknowingly be manipulated by users criminals narcissists

Thinking looks dont matter..wrong furthest from truth

Believing another person cares about me (wrong)

Believing a person will love me back because i love, totally wrong

Believing others think and feel like me; nice, empathic, ethical, loving, caring

Failing to see true nature of a person for many years

Being, working, loving, liking wrong fit people

Cleaning up after pigs, those who dont care, dont want to be clean

Giving my love to those who dont love, dont want it, dont care, dont deserve. Story of

Wasting my words and breath on dead ears, story of my life

I am going to do it all..and I get nothing done. Story, motto of my life.

Brain damage incidents. Permanent, lifelong

 Fractured skull : hit right side of head fell off bicycle landed on concrete curb age 6 

16 years old. Kicked in head by adult human male. I was sitting on floor, he wss standing up. Drop kicked front temple knocked me unconscious. 

Cruelest creature of all: Human being

If i can do it so can you: A common lie

The more we give of anything the more we shall get back." -- Grace Speare

 Your Daily Quotation:

"The more we give of anything the more we shall get back."

-- Grace Speare

I do not think there is any other quality so essential to success of any kind as the quality of perseverance. It overcomes almost everything, even nature." -- John D. Rockefeller

 Your Daily Quotation:

"I do not think there is any other quality so essential to success of any kind as the quality of perseverance. It overcomes almost everything, even nature."

-- John D. Rockefeller

I'd rather stay warm living in the right temperature

 Instead of fighting to keep warm or cool living in radical climate

I can't keep moving in order to stay warm below 70 degrees Fahrenheit

Clothes are ridiculous

Keeping up with myself is a miracle in and of itself

 I fail to keep up with 

the joneses

the news

entertainment industry

politics

the world

 

https://psychcentral.com/adhd/why-are-people-with-adhd-always-late#improving-timeliness

And one day my grandson will despise and hate me

 As he is being trained in bootcamp now

Came across mothers day cards from long ago when my son was a child and loved me then

A week ago Saturday I found a folder saved from the 1980s and 1990s

I love you homemade card with red glitter on Elmer's school glue

And a big nice store bought mother's day card

From long ago from my youngest son back in the days when he loved me

The way his son my 8 year old grandson loves me

Some say and do the cruelest things then pretend they didn't. Amnesia happens feigned fake

Not getting better

Severe burning back pain today excruciating worse again

Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me." -- Carol Burnett

 Your Daily Quotation:

"Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me."

-- Carol Burnett

I don't need validation from anyone how i feel what i need or want

 dont seek outside confirmation of myself

Fiction: The way to tell truth about anyone by changing names ,places, details

I watch first before jumping in. Slow, cautious.

 and have been made fun of, humiliated and criticized for being so slow,

slow.........................

I have never changed another person, animal, plant or life form into anything. They remain the same

Jobs are temporary

I need you to ........

 That's about all I hear from people

I need you to : fill in the blank and that's it. Don't say anything at all and don't do anything you want or need to do ONLY SAY AND DO WHAT I WANT YOU TO DO.

The money I don't spend. Things I don't buy, don't need or want.

Allowing others to push me around has been the biggest cause of trouble: Bad things

 causes stress

debt 

frustration

pain

agony

doubt

ill will

Your mental picture of yourself is the key to your healthy development. You are the writer, director, and star of either an Oscar-winning epic or a Grade B movie. Who you see in your imagination will always rule your world." -- Denis Waitley

 Your Daily Quotation:

"Your mental picture of yourself is the key to your healthy development. You are the writer, director, and star of either an Oscar-winning epic or a Grade B movie. Who you see in your imagination will always rule your world."

-- Denis Waitley

A person can't be told what to do. Forcefulness pushes them away. Advice, good or not is not listened to.

 leave people alone to do their own thing

I want to be around normal people who are happy and successful. People who love life.

Get myself back. Regain my natural beauty

Real life anecdotes. True stories. Actual events.

 These are the things I talk about.

I rarely read fairy tale fiction fake stories to my kids, children or grandson

I tell them how it is. Real things. Real life and people that exist now or ones that I knew.

Obsession with the possession equals destruction

Owning a beautiful THING does not make you BEAUTIFUL

CHAPTERS

The character remains the same

Is it possible to look at something and not think about it or feel like you are experiencing it?

Is it really possible to experience a thing and "not think about it "

Any cute little girl with tits and an ass makes his mouth water, his pants hard

Hes impressed with sams club. I am not

I can't compete with his mother. I wasn't trying to

im no match for a dominated boy reluctant to grow up go out on his own have a wife, a family of his own when mother rules: the dominatrix

Any life form can mate or screw . Not many can have healthy relationships and life

you can perform sex with any one or thing meaningless or meaningful lives and relations are separate from that act

I fly alone

Not a day goes by that I don't cry

If you do not tell the truth about yourself, you can't tell it about other people." -- Virginia Woolf

Your Daily Quotation: "If you do not tell the truth about yourself, you can't tell it about other people." -- Virginia Woolf

Same things are popular, in fashion as always

Does a thing not exist if you don't see it?

Experience cannot be erased

High prices on old used stuff is ridiculous. Means you don't really want to sell it

Cleaning, getting rid of trash is like pulling teeth with hoarding mentality

we like to hold onto our stuff hoarding gathering collecting preserving memories feelings as if that is our identity

residual income passive income required due to unsteady irregular energy levels

residual money payments do it, create it once. sell copies

Hate clocks. look at them all of the time. Why? My own "clock" varies constantly.

due to body changing continually unable to perform upon someone else's demand feels rushed pushed tense aggravated to go by a clock and what time it is to indicate and tell me what to do according to the world or any one other individual person thing being animal

The trash garbage can might be the most important "appliance" in my house and head

Sift out the bad stuff and keep the good

Wading through muck to get to the good stuff. Avoiding pitfalls, holes, traps, the bad stuff

Self worth: Determining your

Throw it out. Clean it up.. message to me from the universe.

Materialism dominates instead of spiritualism

Shunned by groups. Avoided by most

Smile though your back is breaking and you can't see very well with cataracts

Princess locked up in the castle