Thursday, September 11, 2025

 he seems to think


believes by focusing on the stupidity of others it makes him appear smarter, more intelligent and capable than anyone else



all he has to do is hard manual labor, earn some money, pay some bills and 

treat me like an idiot maid slave doormat and never do anything fun spend time with me


ignore me, shut me out, put headphones on with news constantly in his ears mind and brain


poor communication skills

poor consequence understanding

poor social skills

scrutinizes everyone but himself

lack of self awareness

zero happy happiness fun laughing enjoyment


lacks appreciation, respect, acknowledgement of my or other people's or animals intelligence, ability to survive, discriminate, discern, success, smartness, intelligence, wisdom, expertise, knowledge, skill


make messes all over leave them for me to clean up then tell me i don't do anything


ridicule, criticize, nitpick me to death an expect me to worship adore respect him


impulsive as hell

jumps on first thing he sees

has zero respect for me and says he loves me


creates makes this as difficult as possible 

will not cooperate with making this place easy to clean, 

manuever around and safe as possible


jumps in with other people who abuse me verbally and if they physically or verbally attacked me he says i did something to deserve it


has hard time thinking ahead on lots of things


difficulty making decisions 


thinks his projects activities interests are top priority and other people's preferences and likes and dislikes are stupid, not important 


dismisses the simple act of being kind, using caution with his thoughts words and actions


is prejudiced, judgemental, hateful, mean, vindictive, cold, calculating, 



Wednesday, September 10, 2025

people get quiet

 around someone they want to inpress

around someone they are impressed by


 men who stood up for me when they witnessed the abuse

1978 nov dec everett custer/kuster, lee (elizabeth) montgomery boyfriend

1984 summer dave, roommate of ed 

2005 customer at super flea

2014 may  sheriff in houston texas






Memorizing useless information is common

 taught at schools

in institutions

at jobs

on tv 

at home

trivia 


Tuesday, September 9, 2025

time wasters

 in school learning worthless information

people that use me

jealous people hate my guts

cleaning other peoples kitchens houses bathrooms trash cans toilets messes doing their laundry as if i am a maid slave and they are too good to clean up after themselves


PAY attention to the way a man treats his wife, a woman treats her husband, children and family NOT just the way they treat you. FAKERS are nice to strangers and MEAN to family.

it used to be

 that i was young 

i wanted attention like anyone else

focused on my looks their looks health movement exercise brains Intelligence

and it was for procreation, the dance of sex  ..who would be best for producing offspring 

easy pz to get sex

hard as fuck to find decent long term mate

screwing someone is a piece of cake

living long term is not

there's a whole lot more to life than living for sex

what do you do the rest of the day after the orgasm is  over and the sob doesnt even want to look you in the face much less spend any time together

the thrill of sex alone isn't worth it. artificial insemination, fake phallus or other things would work great . save me a lot of headaches





 he seems to think believes by focusing on the stupidity of others it makes him appear smarter, more intelligent and capable than anyone els...