Escaping

 various ways methods used 

school work workaholic over exercise starving eating too much or not enough

reading anything signs books manuals literature magazines catalogs brochures instructions cookbooks 

writing 

drinking alcohol

attempting to smoke myself to death cigarettes cigars with tips..it didnt work

acetaminophen ibuprofen for pain they didnt work

3 pots of strong coffee a day

6 to 12 bottles of soda pop a day

a gallon of strong home brewed black tea no sugar or sweetener

fasting

gorging

cleanse parasite liver gallbladder enemas

roast in hot sun

strip clothes off in subzero weather

overdosing on pink pills. threw up

scratching gouging self with fingernails

bashing back of head bathtub cinder block wall

being silent or talking too much for long periods many hours 4 5 6 7 8 10 12 18 24 48

forcing too much in the kitty self

taking care of someone else ignoring myself. does not work. more i do the less they care about or value me. in fact their hatred of me increases 

pinching pennies so bad i can hear abe lincoln scream

random splurging on useless things 

hiding anywhere

leaving the scene of discontent

choosing solitude when company was no good