Wednesday, March 30, 2016

old, fat, overweight, average, ugly, undesirable women are loved

old, fat, overweight, average, ugly, undesirable women are loved
i have seen them holding hands with a man while walking in the park or anywhere in public are truly loved
i have seen public displays of physical affection between a woman
and a man that do not look like barbie and ken, models of "perfection"
"imperfect" women are loved
models are used and abused
a person like me that some or many told me i was beautiful
is not loved, not hugged, not appreciated
my hand is not held in public, i am not hugged in public and
rarely maybe 2 or 3 times a year at home hugged

Desiderata

desiderata

Max Ehrmann


Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the univoferse,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.
Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.





desiderata, another thing i love that he hates
used to have a poster of this beautiful poem i got for
christmas from a friend vern peterson in 1989


I worked hard is the myth to success thought hard is the truth to succeeding

I worked hard is the myth to success
thought hard is the truth to succeeding

sarah stillwell 3-30-2016

current crappy things

current crappy things

spouse/partner
attitude

health
hair
skin
body

diet
food

vehicle

house
location

bedspreads
blankets
carpet
comforters
curtains
decor decorations
dishes
furniture
linens
pots and pans
rugs
sheets
silverware
towels

clothes
shoes

accessories
computer
cell phone
telephones

activities
associates
hobbies
no job
no career
no employment
no friends

yes i am working on changing these things from crappy to good
it all starts in the home
i can't change another person but i can change my mind
the word repent means to do just that
i can remove myself from associations, places and things
that are crappy to me, things i don't like and move on to
people, places and things that i like, that are in sync with me

Sunday, March 27, 2016

dear narcissist thank you for teaching me about

dear narcissist

thank you for teaching me about

anger, mad, madness
pride
hate, hatred
jealousy
envy
no real love
fake, phoniness
material things matter most
money is the most important thing
ruthlessness
possessiveness
selfishness
rude, rudeness, impolite
greed
gluttony
sceptism
fool, fools, foolishness
stinginess
indecisiveness indecision, undecided






How to Handle People Who Are Angry at You

How to Handle People Who Are Angry at You

How to Handle People Who Are Angry at You

Acknowledgement, acceptance, appreciation.

Acknowledgement, acceptance, appreciation.
3 easy things that start with a that will
make life easier
reduce conflict
increase understanding and happiness
reduce stress
reduce arguments, fights
increase chances of experiencing love

Monday, March 21, 2016

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Licorice

Licorice

Licorice


Overview

Licorice (Glycyrrhiza glabra) has been used in food and as medicine for thousands of years. Also known as "sweet root," licorice root contains a compound that is about 50 times sweeter than sugar. Licorice root has been used in both Eastern and Western medicine to treat a variety of illnesses, ranging from the common cold to liver disease. It acts as a demulcent, a soothing, coating agent, and as an expectorant, meaning it helps get rid of phlegm. It is still used today for several conditions, although not all of its uses are supported by scientific evidence.

Licorice that has the active ingredient of glycyrrhiza can have serious side effects. Another type of licorice, called DGL or deglycyrrhizinated licorice, doesn't seem to have the same side effects and is sometimes used to treat peptic ulcers, canker sores, and reflux (GERD). Whole licorice is still sometimes suggested for cough, asthma, and other breathing problems. Topical preparations are used for eczema and other skin problems.

Plant Description

Licorice grows wild in some parts of Europe and Asia. A perennial that grows 3 to 7 feet high, licorice has an extensive branching root system. The roots are straight pieces of wrinkled, fibrous wood, which are long and cylindrical (round) and grow horizontally underground. Licorice roots are brown on the outside and yellow on the inside. Licorice supplements are made from the roots and underground stems of the plant.

Medicinal Uses and Indications

Licorice root is used for a variety of conditions.

Peptic ulcers

DGL is often suggested as a treatment for stomach ulcers, although it's not clear whether it works. A few studies have found that DGL and antacids helped treat ulcers as well as some prescription drugs. However, since antacids were combined with DGL, it's not possible to know how much of the benefit came from DGL alone.

One animal study found that aspirin coated with licorice reduced the number of ulcers in rats by 50%. (High doses of aspirin often cause ulcers in rats.) In one study, licorice root fluid extract was used to treat 100 patients with stomach ulcers -- 86 of whom had not improved with conventional medication -- for 6 weeks. Ulcers disappeared in 22 people; 90% of participants got better. Other studies have found that DGL had no effect on peptic ulcers in humans.

Canker sores (Apthous ulcers)

One small study found that people with canker sores who gargled 4 times per day with DGL dissolved in warm water found pain relief.

Eczema

In one study, licorice gel, applied to the skin, helped relieve symptoms of itching, swelling, and redness. A gel with 2% licorice worked better than a gel with 1% licorice.

Dyspepsia (indigestion, GERD)

Preliminary studies suggest that a specific herbal formula containing licorice, called Iberogast or STW 5, may help relieve symptoms of indigestion or gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD). This herbal formula also contains peppermint and chamomile, two herbs often used for indigestion.

Upper respiratory infections (cold, cough)

Licorice is a traditional treatment for cough, asthma, and sore throat. One study found that gargling with licorice before getting anesthesia cut the incidence of postoperative sore throat by half.

Weight loss

One study found that a preparation of licorice may reduce body fat. Fifteen people of normal weight consumed 3.5 g of licorice each day for 2 months. Body fat was measured before and after treatment. Licorice appeared to reduce body fat mass and to suppress the hormone aldosterone; however, the people in the study retained more water.

Another study found that a topical preparation of glycyrrhetinic acid (a component of licorice) reduced the thickness of fat on the thigh in human subjects. A third study found that people who took 900 mg of licorice flavonoid oil daily for 8 weeks experienced reductions in body fat, body weight, body mass index, and LDL cholesterol levels. More studies are needed to say if licorice really helps reduce fat. In addition, taking licorice long term has a number of health risks.

Other

People who regularly take large amounts of licorice -- more than 20 g/day -- may raise blood levels of the hormone aldosterone, which can cause serious side effects, including headache, high blood pressure, and heart problems. For people who already have high blood pressure or heart or kidney disease, as little as 5 g/day can cause these side effects. More research is needed.

Available Forms

Licorice products are made from peeled and unpeeled, dried root. There are powdered and finely cut root preparations made for teas, tablets, and capsules, as well as liquid extracts. Some licorice extracts do not contain glycyrrhizin. These extracts are known as deglycyrrhizinated licorice (DGL), and do not seem to have the undesired side effects of other forms of licorice. Some studies suggest DGL may be better for stomach or duodenal ulcers. DGL may offer protection against ulcer formation when taken with aspirin.

How to Take It

Pediatric

Older children who have a sore throat can chew a piece of licorice root or drink licorice tea. Ask your doctor to help you determine the right dose for your child. Don't give a child licorice tea for more than a day without talking to your doctor. Never give licorice tea to an infant or toddler.

Adult

Your health care provider should determine the dose of licorice that's right for you. Typical forms and dosages include:

Dried root: 1 to 5 g as an infusion or decoction (boiled), 3 times daily.
Licorice 1:5 tincture: 2 to 5 mL, 3 times daily.
Standardized extract: 250 to 500 mg, 3 times daily, standardized to contain 20% glycyrrhizinic acid.
DGL extract: 0.4 to 1.6 g, 3 times daily, for peptic ulcer.
DGL extract 4:1: chew 300 to 400 mg, 3 times daily 20 minutes before meals, for peptic ulcer.
Mouthwash: Mix 1/2 teaspoon licorice extract with 1/4 cup water, swish, gargle, and expel the mouthwash 4 times daily for canker sores.
Don't use these doses of licorice for longer than a week without talking to your doctor due to the risk of potentially dangerous side effects.

Precautions

The use of herbs is a time-honored approach to strengthening the body and treating disease. Herbs, however, contain components that can trigger side effects and that can interact with other herbs, supplements, or medications. For these reasons, you should take herbs with care, preferably under the supervision of a health care provider in the field of botanical medicine.

Licorice with glycyrrhizin may cause serious side effects. Too much glycyrrhizin causes a condition called pseudoaldosteronism, which can cause a person to become overly sensitive to a hormone in the adrenal cortex. This condition can lead to headaches, fatigue, high blood pressure, and even heart attacks. It may also cause water retention, which can lead to leg swelling and other problems.

Although the dangerous effects mostly happen with high doses of licorice or glycyrrhizin, smaller amounts of licorice may cause side effects. Some people have muscle pain or numbness in the arms and legs. To be safe, ask your health care provider to monitor your use of licorice.

People with the following conditions should not take licorice:

Heart failure
Heart disease
Hormone-sensitive cancers, such as breast, ovarian, uterine, or prostate cancer
Fluid retention
High blood pressure (hypertension)
Diabetes
Kidney disease
Liver disease
Low potassium (hypokalemia)
Erectile dysfunction
Pregnant or breastfeeding women should not take licorice. Some studies suggest that taking licorice during pregnancy can increase the risk of stillbirth.

Don't use any licorice product for longer than 4 to 6 weeks.

Possible Interactions

Licorice may interfere with several medications, including the ones listed below. If you are taking any medication, ask your doctor before taking licorice.

ACE inhibitors and diuretics -- If you are taking angiotensin converting enzyme (ACE) inhibitors or diuretics for high blood pressure, you should not use licorice products. Licorice could cause these medications to not work as well or could make side effects worse, including a build up of potassium in the body. ACE inhibitors include:
Captopril (Capoten)
Benazepril (Lotensin)
Enalapril (Vasotec)
Lisinopril (Prinivil, Zestril)
Gosinopril (Monopril)
Ramipril (Altace)
Perindopril (Aceon)
Quinapril (Accupril)
Moexipril (Univasc)
Trandolapril (Mavik)
Digoxin -- Because licorice may dangerously increase the risk of toxic effects from digoxin, do not take this herb with this medication.
Corticosteroids -- Licorice may increase the effects of corticosteroid medications. Talk to your doctor before using licorice with any corticosteroids.
Insulin or drugs for diabetes -- Licorice may have an effect on blood sugar levels.
Laxatives -- Licorice may cause potassium loss in people taking stimulant laxatives.
MAO inhibitors -- Licorice may make the effects of this class of antidepressant stronger.
Oral contraceptives -- There have been reports of women developing high blood pressure and low potassium levels when they took licorice while on oral contraceptives.
Warfarin (Coumadin) -- Licorice may decrease the levels of this blood thinner in the body, meaning it may not work as well.
Medications processed by the liver -- Licorice may interfere with several medications processed by the liver, including celecoxib (Celebrex), diclofenac (Voltaren), fluvastatin (Lescol), glipizide (Glucotrol), ibuprofen (Advil, Motrin), phenytoin (Dilantin), piroxicam (Feldene), phenobarbital, and secobarbital (Seconal).
Diuretics, hormonal medications, and many other medications interact with licorice.
survivor of a lifetime of narcissistic holocaust
patience of a saint
understanding, compassion, patient, kind
love a snake they still hate you
have compassion for a snake they still bite
a reptile has a reptilian nature that can't be changed
a mammal has a mammalian nature that can't be changed

Sunday, March 13, 2016

Most people don't have adhd or add. Instead they suffer from tmtd, tmi, tmtta

Most people don't have adhd or add. Instead they suffer from tmtd, tmi, tmtta.
Pressure, high expectations, unreasonable
demands from society, media, peers, family,
friends, work (boss co-workers customers/clients)

adhd Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
add
tmtd too much to do
tmi too much information
tmtta too much to think about

Gastritis, duodenitis, scoliosis (curvature of the spine), eczema.

Gastritis, duodenitis, scoliosis (curvature of the spine), eczema.
Friday April 12, 2016 saw Dr 1 PM.

Gastritis, duodenitis
Protonix pill twice a day 30 minutes before eating.
Yogurt have 2-3 servings a day.

Scoliosis
Physical therapy, massage, heat/ heating pad.

Eczema
Triamcinolone Acetonide Ointment 0.1% apply use twice a day behind right knee
and use CeraVe lotion and jojoba oil twice daily.

I'm betting it's mold in here

 I must have mold on the brain and my whole body is loaded with mold fungi bugs and toxic waste from all of it