Tuesday, May 31, 2022
Monday, May 30, 2022
Week ago Friday at Sam's club inde
Appreciated admired and desired
Man self employed retired born 4 4 61 exc shape
Similar health nutrition knowledge
Sunday, May 29, 2022
Friday, May 27, 2022
Sex is NOT love
sex act itself has nothing to do with love
some can love and have sex with the one they love
I do not know LOVE from another man that I have had sex with
Told I was a knockout heartbreaker beauty pretty cute sexy since I was little
Like lots of little girls I was told that I was cute pretty beautiful.. a
knockout beauty and
would be a real heart breaker when I grew up/got older.
When I got older (in my teens and throughout my adult life)
I have heard the opnion from many that I am a real looker
Today I look in the mirror and see that my face is close to what it was. I am easily
recognizable compared to what I looked like at age 16
and is now
showing some wrinkles creases lines pock marks from severe cystic acne I used to have
and sagging skin around the mouth jaws/jawline and neck.
Skin is drier.. used to be extremely oily.
This is called aging/ageing/getting older.
It is most devastating to endure harsh treatment
(physical assaults: black eyes, punched, kicked, hit, smacked, raped,
knocked down to the floor: verbal abuse attacks and assaults
from the man /men I love
so I realize that love does not exist, only the desire for USE, as if I am an
inanimate doll without life, without a soul
My life is coming to an end and I don't know when I will die
I see many beautiful females in the world and know that many are treated the same way. This does not justify
Sadness and tears and crying come upon me often due to the multitude of
experiences of abuse because I feel ...
pushed around
knocked around like a rock em sock toy
ripped off
unappreciated
taken for granted
treated like shit
Thursday, May 26, 2022
Clothes make all the difference in appearance and treatment
I saw an attractive woman at the grocery store the other day.
Dressed in
slim trim shapely in right places
long red hair
i saw the men turn their heads the butcher working turned around and looked at her then looked away real quick
she was not looking at anyone she may have been unaware people were looking at her especially the men
Wednesday, May 25, 2022
Sunday, May 22, 2022
Saturday, May 21, 2022
Career jobs fields of work prefer/like and avoid
Prefer
music
individual expression
health nutrition
sensible fitness
Avoid
md medicine that is fake unnatural
unnecessary
complicated
Tuesday, May 17, 2022
Sunday, May 15, 2022
Saturday, May 14, 2022
To be myself & be joyful I have to be somwewhere else.
To be myself & be joyful I have to be somwewhere else.
away from home
he watches every single thing i do
Friday, May 13, 2022
Food labs create things that taste good: Goal to make money for the corp business biz
that may or might not be nutritional
may or may not be good to eat or drink
might be detrimental to health
Tuesday, May 10, 2022
Monday, May 9, 2022
Insecure people who feel threatened will not praise you: they will ignore, sneer and attack instead
a person who feels threateaned by you will not tell you about your value/talent/
intelligence recognize your geniusa person afraid of losing you so they can keep you around to use you up and who is
insecure with themselves will not praise you
strangers recognize your talents and genius pretty fast
strangers recognize your talents and genius pretty fast
"a prophet is not known in their own town/city/place/residence/
family/friends/..sometimes co workers/bosses/
a person who feels threateaned by you will not tell you about your value/talent/
intelligence recognize your genius
a person afraid of losing you so they can keep you around to use you up and who is
insecure with themselves will not praise you
Sunday, May 8, 2022
Fame and fortune comes from outside of family
fortune in money comes from strangers
not your own family or friends
Friday, May 6, 2022
Wednesday, May 4, 2022
Men with money
in their wallet
their pocket
in the bank account
control is desired
keep it away from others
especially women / girls/ females / maybe even
children, kids, too
Monday, May 2, 2022
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Doctor said I have no cataracts, no glaucoma and no macular degeneration which is good. He said my pupils were well dilated so he did not ha... -
am i really a failure? am i doing what i am able to do? OR am i unable to fit into other people's boxes, unable to keep up with dem...
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Any person I am talking to immediately diverts their attention to someone else or some animal or some other things in the area. They drop t...