Like lots of little girls I was told that I was cute pretty beautiful.. a
knockout beauty and
would be a real heart breaker when I grew up/got older.
When I got older (in my teens and throughout my adult life)
I have heard the opnion from many that I am a real looker
Today I look in the mirror and see that my face is close to what it was. I am easily
recognizable compared to what I looked like at age 16
and is now
showing some wrinkles creases lines pock marks from severe cystic acne I used to have
and sagging skin around the mouth jaws/jawline and neck.
Skin is drier.. used to be extremely oily.
This is called aging/ageing/getting older.
It is most devastating to endure harsh treatment
(physical assaults: black eyes, punched, kicked, hit, smacked, raped,
knocked down to the floor: verbal abuse attacks and assaults
from the man /men I love
so I realize that love does not exist, only the desire for USE, as if I am an
inanimate doll without life, without a soul
My life is coming to an end and I don't know when I will die
I see many beautiful females in the world and know that many are treated the same way. This does not justify
Sadness and tears and crying come upon me often due to the multitude of
experiences of abuse because I feel ...
pushed around
knocked around like a rock em sock toy
ripped off
unappreciated
taken for granted
treated like shit
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