I understand that you are upset but I am not a dart board.

I understand that you are upset but I am not a dart board.
I am not a :
punching bag
pin cushion
bulls eye
doormat
sitting duck
you're target practice

I decided not to spill my guts on facebook because most people think guts are really disgusting.

I decided not to spill my guts on facebook because
most people think guts are really disgusting.

The male is constantly scoping out the environment, aware of potential danger and sexual conquests.

The male is constantly scoping out the environment,  aware of potential danger and sexual conquests.

Lumbosacral spondylosis with radiculopathy(Confirmed) Scoliosis(Confirmed)

Lumbosacral spondylosis with radiculopathy(Confirmed) Scoliosis(Confirmed)

My MRI results 4-19-2019 at TMC Lakewood
7900 Lees Summit RoadKansas City, MO 64139-1236

researching this 

You can say anything you want to say and I can ignore you and walk away.

You can say anything you want to say and I can ignore you and walk away.

Never deny another's reality.

Never deny another's reality.

4-19-19

Getting MRI today. Ten years after the stabbing pain in my right side since 4-15-2009. 44 years of back pain.

Getting MRI today. Ten years after the stabbing pain in my right side since 4-15-2009.
44 years of back pain.


MRI Results

REPORT
Procedure: MRI Spine Lumbar w/o Cont 72148
Reason for exam: lumbar pain
Comparison: Lumbar radiographs 4/3/2019.
Technique: Non contrast sagittal 4 mm T1-weighted, T2-TSE, T2 STIR images, axial 4 mm T1-weighted, T2-weighted images of the lumbar spine.
Findings: Image quality is mildly degraded by patient motion. Severe levoconvex scoliosis of the thoracolumbar spine, with apex angulation at the L2 level. Fatty replacement of bilateral paraspinal musculature.
The conus terminates at the T12-L1 level. Nerve roots are displaced towards the concavity of the curvature. Otherwise, there is no clumping or redundancy of the nerve roots of the cauda equina.
There is mild vertebral body height loss particularly of L1 and L2 along the concavity of the curvature. Otherwise, no acute compression deformity. There is moderate to severe disc space narrowing, most notably at T12-L1 through L2-L3, most pronounced along the concavity of the curvature. Remaining intervertebral discs are mild to moderately
narrowed with generalized disc desiccation throughout. There is trace 2 mm anterolisthesis of L2-L3. The L2 vertebral body is left laterally subluxed relative to the L3 vertebra by approximately 10 mm as noted on coronal series 5, image nine. There is trace 3 mm retrolisthesis of L3-L4, with moderate endplate edema. There is multilevel facet arthropathy. There is mild bilateral pedicle and facet edema most notably at L3-L4 and L4-L5 levels.
L1-L2: Mild disc bulge asymmetric to the right. Mild facet arthropathy. No spinal stenosis. Minor right neural foraminal narrowing.
L2-L3: Trace anterolisthesis. Mild disc bulge. Mild facet arthropathy. No significant spinal stenosis. No significant neural foraminal narrowing.
L3-L4: Trace retrolisthesis. Disc bulge with subtle annular fissure. Mild to moderate facet arthropathy and ligamentum flavum thickening. Mild facet joint fluid. Mild spinal stenosis. Mild to moderate left greater than right neural foraminal narrowing.
L4-L5: Circumferential disc bulge with annular fissure. Moderate facet arthropathy. Mild ligamentum flavum thickening. Mild facet joint fluid. Mild to moderate spinal stenosis particularly along the left lateral recess. Mild right and moderate left neural foraminal narrowing.
L5-S1: Mild disc osteophyte complex. Mild facet arthropathy. Mild spinal stenosis. Mild right and mild-to-moderate left neural foraminal narrowing.
Partially imaged colonic sigmoid diverticulosis and small uterine fibroids.
Impression: 1. Severe levoconvex curvature and scoliosis of the lumbar spine. 2. Multilevel spondylosis of the lumbar spine. Findings result in overall mild to moderate spinal canal stenosis most notably at L3-L4 and L4-L5, as detailed above.

It's amazing how much some people change over the years to the point they are unrecognizable.

It's amazing how much some people change over the years to the point they are unrecognizable.

Why is that?

Why is it that someone I haven't seen in 37 years says I haven't changed?

In March 2018 I ran into a former co-worker whom I haven't seen
since February 1981. She said "I know you" right away.

I had to look into
her eyes for a few seconds in order to recognize her.

Then I did. 

She had grown very large, body and face and her hair was different.

"Kim", I said. "Durham".
Walker Oil Gas Station at Bannister and Hillcrest Road in Kansas City, Missouri.

I see facebook posts from old classmates and friends and the same is true.
If I saw them in person I wouldn't recognize them immediately. They don't look anything
like they did when I knew them.

A bun in the oven and four more on all the burners.

A bun in the oven and four more on all the burners.
Hunter male strategy.

Nocturnal rising.

Nocturnal rising.

I realized the main meaning of life: A man desires a feminine woman and a woman desires a masculine man.

I realized the main meaning of life: A man desires a feminine woman and a
woman desires a masculine man.

Epiphany upon awakening today.

Positive and negative seek to meet to procreate and keep life going on.

Personal experiences and observations drew me to this conclusion.

Refined Sugar: The sweet, friendly enemy.

Refined Sugar: The sweet, friendly enemy.

How Much Sugar in a 20-Ounce Coke? 16 Teaspoons!

I quit ordering soda or other sugary drinks with restaurant
meals in my late 20's.

I used to drink 6 to 12 bottles of soda a day when I was 20 to 24
years old.

Pills. pills pills. Kills kills kills. Take a pill to kill.

Pills. pills pills.  Kills kills kills.  Take a pill to kill.

Everyone is tired of listening to me.

Everyone is tired of listening to me.

Don't listen to unhappy unhealthy people: don't take their advice.

Don't listen to unhappy unhealthy people: don't take their advice.
Don't take them seriously.
Being unhealthy will make one unhappy.

Free advice is priceless.

Free advice is priceless.

Value is determined by need and desire not how much money it costs.

Value is determined by need and desire not how much money it costs.

Had a Wendy's hamburger with cheese yesterday. Threw half the bun away.

Had a Wendy's hamburger with cheese yesterday. Threw half the bun away.
Top bun was extra mushy.  Didn't taste good.
Added extra lettuce, pickle, onion and mustard from home.

Food = Mood

Food = Mood

Men want from a woman

Men want from a woman

1. beauty
2. simplicity
3. natural
4. sweetness
5. leave him alone at work

I stopped trying to feminize my man and he became more manly.

I stopped trying to feminize my man and he became more manly.

We get along much better and he can't do enough for me.

I no longer expect boys to be more like girls or girls to be like boys.
I appreciate and respect our differences,  They are necessary for life.

I quit doing manly things and became more womanly like I was when I was a little girl.

Due to my age and physical limitations I have no choice but to use my brain
and realize that all of the garbage I was taught through the media when I was
young about women being a man or men being a woman is pure trash.

Winning does not make you a better person, but being a better person will make you a winner. anonymous

Winning does not make you a better person, but being a better person will make you a winner. anonymous

If you don't take care of your body it will take care of itself.

If you don't take care of your body it will take care of itself.

Sweets: Are they treats? Are they pain?

Sweets: Are they treats? Are they pain?

Food is necessary for survival. It is not a reward used as a tool and weapon to force someone to do something.

Food is necessary for survival. It is not a reward used as
a tool and weapon to force someone to do something.

Pay attention to how you feel first and foremost.

Pay attention to how you feel first and foremost.

One easy thing at a time.

One easy thing at a time.