I don't care what you have to say
I don't want to hear what you think
I don't care what you think
I don't want to hear it
I don't need to hear it
I don't care what you want
Your opinion does not matter to me
I don't want to look at you
I don't want to hear you
I don't want to see you
I'm sick of it
I'm tired of it
I'm tired of listening to you complain all the time
Shut the fuck up before I bust you in the face
Interesting
I have had many other people say that I am special
Materialistic people do not value people very much
A person is viewed as an object, even less valued than an object to
do with and say whatever they want
They scream when they see a scratch on something or a drop of
water on the floor or anywhere
They boldly say anything they want especially to the one or ones
who love them the most regardless of how hurtful it is because
they do not care if they hurt me or you
If they apologize they don't mean it because they continue to yell,
scream, threaten and say and do mean things without regard for the
consequences of what they do to my or anyone else's feelings
Educated idiot
a term my grandma Sarah used to use
now I really know what she was talking about
Basic bag
water, salt, pepper
food: nuts, fruit, vegetables, fish, chicken, pork, beef, spices
nail clippers, emery board
scissors
comb and brush for hair
shampoo all in one
wash cloth, bath towel
toothbrush, baking soda
clothes: underpants, bra, socks, swim suit
shorts, jeans, loose leggings, tshirt, long sleeve shirt
knee length dress, cardigan
sweater, jacket, coat, hat, gloves, scarf
A little bit is all I need.
a little radio
a little food
a little sunshine
a little smile
turns to a big smile
Thread holds it together. Little things make the big things not the other way around.
I have choices. I can choose to avoid and to completely
stay away from vulgar, impatient, ugly, mean and nasty rude
individuals. They believe they don't have a choice.
they are vexations to the spirit.
they are destructive in their nature.
they show off material things and act like an ass hole. proud of stuff not kindness of self.
pushy
they complain, whine, bitch, moan, blame others not themselves
they don't take responsibility for their own thoughts most of the time
they ususally have some kind of outside distraction going on such as
radio, music, videos, tv, television, whatever it is because they do not like
silence meditation instropection internal observation
they constantly say "I can't understand, I don't understand"
they don't listen even though they hear
they watch greedily with their eyes and remain confused at what they see
they are always watching others and spying on people
they make instant judgements and assumptions and are often wrong
they are possessive, jealous
they call others stupid frequently
they can't truly relax
they are tense
they are upset when they see others happy, smiling and joyful
they lie, cheat and steal and manipulate
they put on false, fake, phoney niceness when they want to
get something out of someone
they accuse others of being thieves, mean, nasty,
they are suspicious of all people and animals
they are sneaky
they do nasty things when no one is looking and will do nasty
things in front of those closest to them on occassion so you will
get a glimpse of their evil nature from time to time
they believe a spirit in a person can be controlled and owned,
dominated, forced, told what to do at all times
they lack control of themselves
they are confused
they are joyless creatures, unable to appreciate even the simplest
pure things that make me feel happy. they can't dance.
they can't flow naturally. they believe force is necessary.
they coerce, manipulate, lie, cheat and steal, believing that
everything is difficult and life, people, animals are just a
pain in the ass. they believe living beings just consume and
take up space and cost money. money is their golden god.
mammon is the god they worship.
they have lost touch with the spirit, the universal energy creator
that has given us all life for awhile.
they keep a running tab and track what everybody owes them
they have extreme trouble giving anything or giving from themselves
they believe in limited, limits, lack of abundance as if
there is never enough to go around for everyone
they have a false sense of control over all things
they're all about the money
they lack compassion and true and genuine caring for the life of anyone
except themselves
they have a me first and me only attitude
(save myself first when there is one rope to grab onto to survive)
they make false appearances for show because they want others to
believe they are "perfect" and do the right things
they rarely admit fault, rarely say or mean I am sorry so they
repeat their hateful behavior without remorse, regret
they will not change their ways because they don't believe they are at fault
and can't admit they think, say or do anything wrong
they hurt other people relentlessly without feeling guilty, bad or wrong
they do not cry for the pain, loss and suffering of others
they ask lots of questions, usually dumb and stupid and not necessary
they want to know what is going on at all times and do not want to
tell/reveal what is going with them at all times
they are secretive, plotting, planning, scheming
they put other people down continually
they have a false sense of superiority
they have a false sense they are better than others and have the right to
decide whether or not another one lives, eats, breathes or does anything
they say animals and people are spoiled when they have different foods
available to eat --except themselves who refuse to eat the same thing
everyday.
they say animals and people are spoiled when they have basic
necessities needed for life and the animal/person is happy and joyous
they can't understand how small things make me happy
they focus on accumulating stuff
they believe that big things are more important than little things
they ask constant questions about simple things that do not even
need to be asked
they watch intently as I move around, attempting to figure out what
I am doing, direct me and tell me what to do
they become upset and frustrated frequently becoming angry and
throwing temper tantrums when I am cleaning, moving things around
cleaning washing wiping organizing dusting using water seeing a drop of water anywhere easily
upsets them
they want to know what is going on at all times
they think about things at the moment they need or want them such as
calling someone at the last second right before dinner or a barbecue
is ready and inviting a person over
they don't want to be committed pinned down located tracked traced
followed spied upon yet they do the very same things to everyone else
they don't like to adhere to any one elses' plans dates engagements
commitments and will say I MIGHT go/do that then
back out at the last minute with some excuse like It's too hot, I don't feel
well, I am tired, I really don't want to go, I have other things to do...
they are nice to a person's face then immediately turn around and say
nasty critical horrible things about them to someone else behind their back
they think they know how to do everything and are the best at whatever it is
and hardly ever give credit or appreciation to anyone else for their status,
work, duties, hobbies, beauty, kindness,
they are ungrateful complaining
they are miserly miserable stingy hate to give anything away or share
they keep track of each thing they do give away and everything they do
for someone
they put on a dollar figure on whether or not to help someone else
they will instantly quickly lash out in anger at another person or animal
with no filter on their mouth and have little or no regard of the impact
of their words
they will later on deny having said or done such a thing to hurt someone
and say "I MAY have said or done that"
they will say words and thoughts do not have mass matter weight and
meaning yet they will not tolerate being talked to in a nasty mean way
they are like a solid door putting up road blocks for me and others
and are resistant stubborn rigid yet they demand total freedom for
themselves, denying it to others
they believe in cages, slaves, slavery, straps, belts
chaining and tying up things animals and
people --example "he needs to be tied to a tree... so that he/she
can't move/etcetera. he/she is wild like an animal"
they believe they have the right to determine what any and
everyone else should be thinking, saying or doing
the words "should "
are frequently used and they think they know what I and every other
person should be doing
they believe their opinions are facts
they will not listen to information, any idea that differs from theirs
and will block it out
they cannot see the need for a thing they can't eat when growing a
garden and refuse to have it growing
they are unable to see that all things are connected and are required
in order for the universe to operate, for things to operate in synch
they do not understand synchronicity
they have a one track mind and have difficulty switching from one
thought to another
they deem lots of people and things as useless and worthless, stupid
dumb, naive, fools/foolish, an easy take, easy to take advantage of
and believe all others are out to take advantage of them
they will humiliate and trash you yet demand that you do not every
humiliate or embarass them
they view sex as an energy draining act for them making them tired
and sleepy instead of an act of sharing give and take or energy
the male desires sex with any pretty cute nice looking female girl woman
yet when they are with the female married living with cohabitating with
they will do all kinds of things to restrict and stop the woman from
doing the things that keep her beautiful and happy
they refuse to participate in an activity they don't like yet
believe that others should be doing all of the activities that they do and
like to do
they want to be sure they have more money, property, control over all things
than their partners so they can supposedly keep the partner controlled
and always having less money than them
they are opportunistic grabbing whatever they can get as soon as possible
because they do not have much patience to wait for rewards or
satisfaction in almost any area of life
they seize opportunties to take advantage of the innocent
Want everything and have nothing and no one.
Greed, lust, gluttony, power, control, impatience.
Materialism.
Sloth.
Anger. Short fuse.
Demanding immediate satisfaction and instant results.
Hatefulness.
Mean, meanness. Rude.
Driving too fast.
Lack of instrospection, self awareness.
Lacking responsibility for thoughts, words and actions;
blaming someone else at any opportunity.
Obsession with politics, money, things, sex, food...
overindulgence in any area.
Never have enough time, space or money beliefs.
Calling other people lazy.
Saying others are just making excuses. "There is no excuse for this"
therefore unable to understand reasons and unable to
comprehend why a thing is the way it is.
Pushing, forcing, shoving things and especially people and animals,
even plants to do what you want them to do.
Someone (or more than one) is searching for me... Sarah Wilson from Belton, Missouri MO
Born in 1961. I look like I did when I was 16. I dance, swim, clean.
other last names: Montgomery, Mertz, Stillwell
If I only followed my guts
If I only had a brain
if i only had a heart
if i only had courage
I DO Have guts, a brain, heart and courage
basic life
focus
one thing
one idea
clean
simplicity
organize
plain
pure
side to side
up down
on off
hot cold
straight crooked
open shut
