No money in real estate for the individual. Money is for the central bankers.

Interesting how dream vacations go back to nature which should be free.

Interesting how dream vacations go back to nature which should be free.

Simple things that used to be easy to do no longer are at my age: 55

School homework should be abolished. You have plenty of work to do at home.

Re-evaulate question all I do everything about me my worth and purpose of existing. Having to answer to someone for all things about me. Mastering simplifying cutting down
cutting back trimming away doing without limiting all activities what is eaten what I drink when I go and where and why and with whom. Answering the
questions "How much money is that going to cost? Is so and so paying you
for it?" "What do you get out of that? What's the purpose?"
Eating pride losing pride gaining humility going to church once a week for food pantry
while being taught and learning simple meanings of statements in the bible.
Am very loving and affectionate person learning to do without compassion,
simple things like hugs, a kiss on the cheek, any sort of understanding from
the other person who does not understand, doesn't want to even try to
understand and will never understand. Quit explaining myself, reasoning telling why,rationalizing or making sense of anything. A dog is a dog and
dogs bark because that's what they do. Don't expect a dog to meow. It's
impossible and it never will.
I cut my own hair, do my own nails rarely painting fingernails or toenails
anymore. No salons, no beauticians, no waxing, no stylists. I shave my own
legs and use manual tweezers to pluck hairs off of my face. I don't buy
shaving cream, use cheap hair conditioner or shampoo or bar soap when
I shave.
Learning about all the things I miss that I used to do and one day in my next life will do if there is a next life. Burning incense, making popcorn, nap in total peace and quiet in living room instead of an old worn out recliner thrown away by the neighbor, eat in total peace without anyone bitching and complaining at me
about what I eat, how much or when I eat. Listen to music I feel like
listening to, watch a movie on tv that I want to see. Dance, swim, walk
when and where I want to. Move the furniture around. Get rid of all carpet
so I don't have to lug a heavy stinking dirty vacuum up and down the stairs
and all around the house. Use a manual broom dust mop and dustpan.
Use a feather duster to dust furniture.  Do laundry after 10 pm. Don't
watch the news every night. It's depressing anyway.
Appreciation of what is and what used to be, hoping for things in the future
like freedom of thought and action. Ability to make my own choices.

April 9, 2014

Discussing ability to bid jobs by pre-configuring hours it
takes to do the job because you are not getting paid by the hour
the way you do at a regular job.
I said "If you are experienced and have done the job several times
you should know how long it is going to take to get the job done."
His response:
I don't need your input.
You think you know everything.
I have heard all this before.
I'm not going to do it if I can't make any money at it
I have to charge by the hour because I don't know how long it will take.
.

So he continues to think he can charge by the hour when
doing independent contractor jobs.
Used to being paid flat regular salary at a job for 20 years
that ended in 2006. Regular weekly paycheck with bonuses
usually every year.
Had an independent entrepreneurial boss born in July
who found a need and fulfilled it and paid him regularly
every two weeks for twenty years
yet he does not understand and respect the idea or fact
that business is founded upon an individual's ability and desire,



on 9-15-16 Thursday 

is it ability to memorize that people think determines and
equals intelligence
or the ability to remember how things happened?

Handicapped, disabled, crippled, deformed people are happy and successful for the same reason normal healthy people are happy and successful.

Handicapped, disabled, crippled, deformed people are happy and successful for the same reason normal healthy people are happy and successful.
They have a strong support group and network of loving, understanding and helpful people.
Group acceptance, networking and support are mandatory for the survival of any individual person, animal, plant or other life form/force.

9-16-16 Sarah Wilson-Stillwell

This is America, the land of freedom. I have the privilege to live the way I want. I don't have to put up with these daily battles, useless arguments and perpetual unresolved conflicts in the war zone at home. 

The hardest challenge is to be yourself in a world where everyone is trying to make you be somebody else.

The hardest challenge is to be yourself in a world where everyone is trying to make you be somebody else.

You aren't lazy because you are tired. You are tired because every organ in your body needs rest. You need sleep. Go to sleep. Rest. Wake up and feel refreshed.

You aren't lazy because you are tired. You are tired because every organ in your body needs rest.
You need sleep. Go to sleep. Rest. Wake up and feel refreshed.

--- Sarah Wilson Stillwell

Who wins? Nobody wins at life. We all die.

Who wins? Nobody wins at life. We all die.

-- Sarah Wilson Stillwell

"In prosperity our friends know us; in adversity we know our friends."

-- John Churton Collins 

"What this power is I cannot say; all I know is that it exists
and it becomes available only when a man is in that state of mind
in which he knows exactly what he wants and is fully determined
not to quit until he finds it."

-- Alexander Graham Bell 

I have never been healthy.

I have never been healthy.

Do words have weight? Do words have meaning? Are words physical things composed of matter?

Do words have weight? Do words have meaning? Are words physical things composed of matter?

Adult Scoliosis

Adult Scoliosis

Adult Scoliosis

http://umm.edu/programs/spine/health/guides/adult-scoliosis

Thoracic and lumbar scoliosis

Thoracic and lumbar scoliosis

Thoracic and lumbar scoliosis

http://erikdalton.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/thoracic-and-lumbar-scoliosis.jpg

Bombarded with ads, advertisements and news on the internet. Don't watch much tv.

Bombarded with ads, advertisements and news on the internet. Don't watch much tv.
Prefer to avoid the media hype.

He said I feel so overwhelmed.  Everybody wants me to do something for them.

I said, "How does it feel to be a wanted man?"

BM bowel movement stool parasites diarrhea poop crap shit

Holding it holding it in bm when you have to go to the bathroom, urinate, defecate, pee, poop, crap, shit, toilet, have a bowel movement, have to pee, have to go one of the worst human being ideas ever thought of/about.

Holding it holding it in bm when you have to go to the bathroom, urinate, defecate, pee, poop, crap,
shit, toilet, have a bowel movement, have to pee, have to go one of the worst human being
ideas ever thought of/about.
Only humans in their greed and speed and expecting instant satisfaction
for themselves and disregarding the needs of others would instigate
the idea that a person/ people, human should hold their bowels, bowel movements,
pee, urinate, urination, for hours and hours so that they can continue to work and
strive to please others that require and demand immediate satisfaction.

Healing powers of the Dead Sea

Healing powers of the Dead Sea

Healing powers of the Dead Sea

Choices. Chance. Energy.

Choices. Chance. Energy.
I am here in my current condition / state due to my choices, whether they originated
from me or were influenced by someone else and due to chances, circumstance
and the energy that created and will destroy me.

Alive (still) in this physical body breathing is a miraculous state of grace not
controlled by me --my pride and ego would say it was --but by the sources of
energy that put me here and will take me away from here at its or their will not mine.

Until you heal yourself you will keep experiencing the same things over and over again.

Until you heal yourself you will keep experiencing the same things over and over again.

Seeds.  There is great nutritional value in seeds.

He doesn't understand.

Cleansing, doing regular liver cleanses is extremely important.

The liver is so important to the body it was put into a sarcophagus (tomb/casket)
by the ancient Egyptians.

Only the poor man can become wise.

Grey sea salt from France can heal due to having the same alkalinity of the blood. 5-24-16
René Quinton [1867 – 1925] a French physiologist, whose chief scientific work “L'eau de mer, milieu organique” (Ocean water, organic matrix) was published in 1904. He demonstrated the analogy between the body inner environment, the blood plasma, and ocean water, the medium of all cellular life. He cured tens of thousands of children in France and Egypt with his plasma, derived from oceanic water. He eradicated some of the most virulent diseases of the time in France: infant cholera and gastro-intestinal infections. [2]


One of my associates told me these things.