Comparison is the death of true self-contentment

Comparison is the death of true self-contentment

I will be so happy when this 50 plus year old carpet is removed out of my bedroom in this house.

I will be so happy when this 50 plus year old carpet is removed out of my bedroom in this house.
It is old, dirty, filthy, not cleanable, rotten, disgusting, moldy, full of germs, microbes,
particles of everything imaginable embedded into its sickening self.

I have been asking my husband for his "permission" to get rid of this carpeting for over 20 years.
"Permission" I say because whatever I start to physically do he takes immediate control and
stops me from doing it if he doesn't agree with what I want to do.

He is reluctant to do it because of the fear of what he might find in the condition of the floor and
because he knows not only does the floor need to be replaced, the entire bedroom--
ceiling, walls, floors and windows needs to be gutted out and replaced with new materials.

As usual, it's all about the money. It's not about my health, what I want or my well-being.

This room and this house keeps me continually sick. Carpeting, rugs, inadequate ventilation,
no attic, no furnace, no central air conditioning (just 3 window a/c units), water coming in
the partial basement areas when it rains all contribute to mold, mildew and who knows what
else.

I felt fine, good and happy until I watched the news, read the news or heard the news. I would rather feel fine, good and happy.

I felt fine, good and happy until I watched the news, read the news or heard the news. I would rather feel fine, good and happy.
I would rather not watch, read or listen to the news, most of which is bad and causes
people to feel upset, angry, fearful, afraid, unhappy, sad, distraught, hateful, vengeful and any other adjective of bad or evil.

Feelings, emotions, thoughts and ideas are osmosis.

Feelings, emotions, thoughts and ideas are osmosis. 

Bad things can and will happen when you try to be both male and female/woman/man/girl/boy.

Bad things can and will happen when you try to be both male and female/woman/man/girl/boy.

Another realization I rediscovered again on June 8, 2017 and told to husband on June 9,2017.

I said, "You are born a male or a female with the exception of those born with both genitalia.
This would be most confusing. I am definitely female and have done many male and female
things. I worked at many male dominated occupations and could not keep up with men."

He said,  "The only benefit to having both genitalia is you might be able to f**k yourself".

Tight clothes are unhealthy and bad for the skin and body.

Tight clothes are unhealthy and bad for the skin and body. We were born naked and
are supposed to stay naked but humans believe in wearing clothing to cover their bodies.
No clothes is best, loose clothing is the next best.

Ignorance mixed with not caring, (lack of empathy) is a deadly combination.

Ignorance mixed with not caring, (lack of empathy) is a deadly combination.

We get along best when I am asleep or away (gone somewhere away from home).

We get along best when I am asleep or away (gone somewhere away from home).

Everything is babies, mother and father.

Everything is babies, mother and father.

By myself, alone, isolated, ostracized, alienated my entire life.

By myself, alone, isolated, ostracized, alienated my entire life.

"If you like yourself you can never be alone", a plaque/picture I
bought over 30 years ago.

Thoughts and ideas are the source of all wealth, success, material gain, all great discoveries, inventions and achievement. Mark Victor Hansen

Thoughts and ideas are the source of all wealth, success, material gain, all great discoveries, inventions and achievement.   Mark Victor Hansen 

I wonder when the WET TV channel will be invented and broadcast.

I wonder when the WET TV channel will be invented and broadcast.

(WET White Entertainment Television)

how to lose destroy, ruin, a relationship: control, criticize and condemn

how to lose destroy, ruin, a relationship: control, criticize  and  condemn

We are creatures driven by feeling.

We are creatures driven by feeling.