began having to have constant radio/tv
playing when i was a girl
due to chronic stress in household from
grandma and grandpa both well meaning upstanding caring people and both a narcissist
music movies television magzines books
any thing anyone talking was soothing
would try to keep the radio going on all night long in my bedroom but could not because it disturbed and woke up grandmother
when i was alone i would turn up the console stereo volume as loud as it would go often playing vinyl records and broadcasting the radio
and i had a portable record player i would put in the front yard plug it in play music and dance in the yard all the neighbors around could see me and hear it blasting but i did it for myself me my sanity not to try to show off or impress anyone...it was simply my way of being, just being myself
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