first off i realize our situation is strikingly similar to those in some movies
i have not progressed much in being with a different type of person personality.
the inital attraction was strictly physical between us. upon first meeting his demeanor appeared to be nice, kind, humble, clean, detailed, intelligent and not trying to get at me and made no pass
now after being around here 33 years..it was 37 years ago when we met...i have realized some of the most irritating things that i no longer want to put up with
Nitpicking me to death over everything. especially my looks, what i am wearing
Unclean dirty ways and habits
Rudeness disguised as being honest
Name calling of me and everyone else
Never getting dressed up or going anywhere nice
Obsessions with weather, news, politics, disasters
Doubt and negativity regarding all things
Micromanaging all as he is in control of me and the world
Neighbors: focusing on them and acting nice, appearing like a great guy to them and treating me like a fucking doormat
Getting up early then expecting me to jump and run immediately
Forcing me to watch and listen to shit he likes
Music, movies he likes ( I hate these: new age, boston, kansas, politics, news, commercials..)
Leaving the radio blasting and vent turned on in his vehicle when starting it
Impulsiveness
Rarely plans for outings of any kind
Hates social gatherings and
If people visit he forces them to watch and listen to the stuff he likes
He turns the radio, tv, etc onto the channels he watches around other people
Questions everything I do
Gets in my way. Blocks me. Makes a good door not a window
Inability to understand the simplest things. Social ineptitude
Suspicious, Paranoid
Mean, vengeful, hateful, rude
Eating trash junk all througout the day everyday
Scattering crap all over the kitchen table, living room table, his bathroom counter, anywhere and everywhere
filthy bathroom, bedroom, garage, living room
Floors: everytime I sweep he bitches about dust..and takes over floor cleaning, vacuuming, all of it. Uses filthy black rag to wipe floor
Wears same clothes over and over and stinks. Shirts, jeans, underwear, socks, thermals worn many times
Uses stinky spray on armpits sometimes like when he went to vote
Wont open car door for me or most doors
Runs ahead of me when walking, not side by side
Stares around at other people when we go anywhere instead of looking at me and talking to me
Inability to have a conversation. It is all one way only. Talks about his interests. Ignores what I say.
Tells me I talk about nonsense, unimportant stuff
Calls me a stupid idiot. Tells me I think I know it all when he is the one that thinks he knows it all
Porn obsession. Movies, mags..who knows what all he has hidden around this place. Some of it I found in the garage in a cardboard box, some tapes he had hidden in his bedroom. Raw, sex tapes of many different scenes, some are one woman with several men, some are women and women together. some have sodomy, lots of anal fucking and oral sex as well as vaginal penetration.
Cake; spends 17 dollars on carrot cake eats one piece at a time just like john layson has tea with milk in it. john had to have coffee with his dessert. Makes cakes buys cookies sweets treats doughnuts frequently. has to have dessert right after a meal (just like john did).. then gets mad if I would spend a lot on a huge chunk of good quality meat.
Ridicules me for spending any money on clothes just like john did once when i was savers thrift i spent 32 dollars he made snide nasty comment about it.
Hates smoking. Yet fills up on unhealthy sugar fats
buys premade premixed convenience food constantly because it is fast easy tastes good
shops at dollar stores, dollar tree, general and buys snacks often instead of buying a large container of quality nuts or an economical bag of high quality chocolate
thinks he can tell if food is good just by smelling it
sticks his fingers in the food, wipes off bbq sauce bottle with his finger then licks his finger. totally unhygienic. says his hands are clean.
fills up refrigerator with trash junk sweets hamburger helper cakes pies some fruit and vegetables, little containers of old crap sauces. puts little pieces of food in a plastic container which gets shoved to the back and i find later on black and moldy
throws a fit when we go to a nice restaurant like a steak house and complains constantly about the price of the food. i have told him for years that you may spend more on that burger and fries at a nice place but you get to eat off of it at least twice maybe 3 times so it costs the same or less than fast food joints like burger king, hardees, wendys, taco bell
uses ebay to buy things often just like john layson did. doesnt want to go thru effort to sell items. buyer only. leaves that selling job to me and expects me to spend my time doing it then if item sells will split money half 50/50 with me then tells me i dont do anything around here
accumulates junk old crap for years hides things in boxes fills up the shed and 2 extra storage areas he built with his junk then tells me i am using up most of the space at this house
mixed patterns and colors of items all over. doesnt bother him at all just like john. john said he like to look at all these different things in the same room which drives me insane.
freaks out when i spray disinfectant, room fresheners of any kind and if he sees any dust flying in the air when i sweep or shake out the blankets
has to have outside noise going most of the time like wearing headphones or earphones which i hate just like john layson
focuses on how much electricity is used according to watts amps of everything i use and ignores some of the things he uses like stereo equipment, television
hates night lights anywhere. unplugs or turns them off if i have one on
likes to think he is the master in charge of everything and has all the money and i am poor, broke and dependent upon him.
rollercoaster emotions like love me one minute hate my guts the next
refuses to spend money on entertainment things including dinner theaters, movies, concerts, bowling, virtually any type of thing like amusement parks which are fun
had free tickets to a beatles thing given to me by a friend of my son and he invited chuck strand. during the show we stood up and the music was playing and he told me not to dance
cant stand it when i move. not to ever show any skin off my body and definitely no dancing or yoga or any flexibility of my body shown to anyone unless it is him then he doesnt want to watch me move if he does he immediately wants sex when i am not even interested
the only time he appreciates seeing me happy smiling is during sex other than that it is constant misery and frustration
obsessed with politics and news just like john. john taught politics was a college teacher of it, majored in it.
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