Wednesday, August 12, 2026

His father dad had ECT shock therapy treatments for schizophrenia

Electroconvulsive therapy.

1960s 1970s

Joseph Olney stillwell

January 1911 to September

Tuesday, August 11, 2026

Pattern: He thinks about stuff at the last minute it needs to be done. Pays bills thru mail last day to send.

thinks about momentary things

immediate food. instant sex. taking trash out last minute. not wanting to take out trash bag unless it's full.

pays bills thru mail last day it can be sent thinking the companies make interest off the money sent

birthday cards or any holiday stuff usually purchased day of event

You think all you gotta do is make cookies? !!! he said years ago

nasty sob inferring that I should be doing mans work and that my cooking means nothing at all

He keeps things in in car/truck and acts like this in public

I SEE THESE ITEMS IN VEHICLES MOST OF THE TIME:

gloves, several different kinds can be in there. he keeps large supply of boxes of gloves in garage

flashlight

bungi cords

lots of napkins paper towels

pullover ski mask with face hole

various variety several pairs of sunglasses he says he found while out walking which he never wears in front of me

gps unit "tomtom" to find directions which does not save the information so it can be used and not trackable. this is in both car and his pickup truck. he's had for many years

lots of snack items in bags and usually has opened ones he clips shut. always flavored and intensely spicy and or sugary like honey roasted peanuts jalapeno flavor hot, taqis, chips, candy

bottled water sometimes left in direct sunlight for days or weeks

emergency flares

dental picks used over and over

nail clippers

pens pencils notepad / notebook

extra pair of shoes/hiking boots for walking in park cave springs so if it is muddy out he can use them clean them at park with stick or knife then switch to cleaner boots

PUBLIC FACE IS :

nice, low key voice talking, logical, rational appearing, helpful, kind, interested

active, walking, moving fast. quick shopper.

Sunday, August 9, 2026

He mirrors other people quickly. Monkey see. Monkey do.

Friday, August 7, 2026

PURPOSE. Replication. Recording. Procreation. Teaching.

Thursday, August 6, 2026

His handwriting. Hard firm pressure. Spiky.

intense pressure reveals anger, spikes sharp points also show this

a circle at the top part beginning of the number 2 *what does this mean?

Stuff I didn't need or even want for my birthday. Coupons, restaurants.

dsw shoes coupon for 5 dollars. went there and found a pair of flipflops but didn't even need them

victoria's secret. didn't use bday gift. what a sham.

bath and body works. did use coupon for free item. got candles. nice but no big deal. kitchen lemon scent.

restaurants: did use dennys free slam in independence mo. went by myself. enjoyed my wonderful solo meal. it was very good and i talked to the cook and complimented him. found out the hash browns come deyhydrated. they add some water before cooking on hot grill. they are the best. he did not know where denny's gets their coffee so i have to find out on my own from corp office.

did not go to firehouse subs which i have been doing solo for several years. did not red lobster. most of them will give you a free dessert which i don't want anyway. last year and year before i got the free dessert at red lobster in overland park ks and independence mo. opks is closed down for good this year. it was a very nice place to eat. lots of good solo memories there.

didn't use the 30% off at michaels arts and crafts.

didn't use ulta beauty free piddly gift and percent off. overpriced cosmetics and perfumes there anyway.

did not use claire's coupon whatever it was.

It is not wonder why my grandmother couldn't stand them. Those guys I married and most I dated. She was smarter than me. Older and wiser.

Turning to ice.

cold. aloof. do not care. shut off feelings.

like i did with hub 1 and husband 2

1980 and 1991

I don't care if I never see him again. Realized a few days ago.

Tuesday, August 4, 2026

Conspiracy theories online: why social media makes them go viral

Monday, August 3, 2026

Anosognosia

alzehimers association

Anosognosia

Anosognosia is a condition in which a person is unaware of their cognitive decline, most often seen in Alzheimer’s disease or other causes of dementia. This lack of awareness is often confused with denial and poses unique challenges for care.

Anosognosia definition and meaning

Anosognosia is a symptom of a neurological condition that prevents a person from recognizing their own impairment. Common in people living with Alzheimer’s or another dementia, anosognosia is often mistaken for denial. But unlike denial, which is psychological, anosognosia results from changes in the brain that affect self-awareness.
Family members comfort person living with anosognosia

Family members comfort person living with anosognosia

People with anosognosia may truly believe nothing is wrong, even when symptoms are obvious to others. This can make it harder for them to seek medical care or follow a treatment plan. Understanding this condition helps caregivers, families and health care professionals navigate conversations about safety, treatment and support.

Causes of anosognosia

Anosognosia results from damage to parts of the brain that are responsible for self-awareness like the frontal or parietal lobes. In Alzheimer's disease and other types of degenerative diseases, these brain regions can deteriorate, leading to a loss of the ability to recognize one’s own cognitive decline.

Symptoms of anosognosia

Recognizing the symptoms of anosognosia in individuals living with dementia or Alzheimer’s can be difficult. Unlike other symptoms of dementia, such as memory loss or confusion, anosognosia specifically affects a person’s ability to understand that they have these impairments. This can cause frustration for both the person living with dementia and their caregiver.

Common symptoms of anosognosia include:

Denial of memory problems. A person with anosognosia may insist that they have no problem with their memory, even in the face of contrary evidence.
Resisting assistance. Because people suffering from anosognosia don’t recognize their own challenges, they may resist help. They may refuse to stop driving or may decline assistance with activities that they are struggling with.
Not recognizing severity. Even when confronted with clear evidence of their cognitive decline, those with anosognosia may downplay or rationalize the severity, believing they are capable of handling tasks they are no longer able to safely perform.
While anosognosia is most common in later stages of dementia, it can also appear earlier in conditions like mild cognitive impairment (MCI), frontotemporal dementia (FTD) or in some cases of traumatic brain injury (TBI).

Diagnosing anosognosia

Diagnosing anosognosia involves evaluations by health care professionals experienced in dementia and neurological conditions. Since people with anosognosia don’t recognize their cognitive disabilities, the typical self-reporting methods are not very reliable. Instead, diagnosis usually requires the following:

Clinical assessments, which are tests to evaluate brain function.
Observations from caregivers. Family members or caregivers may have relevant input regarding the person's awareness of their symptoms.
Brain imaging. MRI or CT scans can detect brain changes associated with dementia and assess areas linked to self-awareness deficits.
In some cases, anosognosia may influence treatment decisions, especially when considering disease-modifying therapies (DMTs) for Alzheimer’s disease. Diminished self-awareness can affect how reliably a person reports side effects or follows medical guidance.
Early and accurate diagnosis is crucial for developing effective care plans and ensuring the safety and well-being of both the individual and their caregivers.

Learn more: Diagnosing Alzheimer’s Disease, Visiting Your Doctor, Why Get Checked?

When to seek professional help

When seeing signs of anosognosia in a loved one, it is important to get help from a health care professional who specializes in dementia care. A proper diagnosis can help in understanding the extent of the condition and developing a care plan tailored to both safety and quality of life. Early intervention and professional help can provide valuable support to caregivers in dealing with challenges that come with anosognosia.

Managing anosognosia

There are strategies that can help manage the anosognosia and enhance quality of life for both individuals and their families and caregivers by focusing on safety and communication.

Treatment options for anosognosia

Medication management: There is no specific medication to treat anosognosia directly. However, treating the underlying disease with medications can slow down the disease process or help to manage symptoms.
Caregiving and environmental strategies: For Alzheimer's-related anosognosia, restoring insight is often not possible, so non-medication approaches focus on improving quality of life and safety. Structuring routines, minimizing overstimulation, and making safety modifications, like installing grab bars or using GPS trackers, can reduce stress and help prevent harm.

Management strategies for caregivers

Simplifying communication: Using simple, clear language when discussing the person's condition can reduce frustration. Avoiding confrontational language and focusing on support rather than pointing out deficits can help maintain a positive environment.
Redirecting and using distraction techniques: Instead of directly confronting the person about their lack of awareness, caregivers can use redirection and distraction techniques to avoid potential conflict. This approach helps manage daily activities without causing distress.
Creating a safe environment: Since a person may not fully recognize their cognitive challenges, it’s important to focus on safety. Gentle home safety measures like reassessing driving abilities, fall-proofing the home, securing firearms (PDF) and using medication reminders can help reduce risks and support well-being.
Building a support network: Caregivers may want to join support groups or seek guidance from health care professionals experienced in dementia care. A strong support network can provide emotional relief, practical tips and resources to better manage the challenges of caring for someone with anosognosia. Learn more about building a care team.
Exercising empathy and patience: It’s important to keep in mind that anosognosia is not a choice; it is a symptom of a neurological condition. Approach conversations with empathy and avoid arguing or trying to convince the person that they are wrong. Instead, focus on their feelings and offer support that respects their perspective.
Creating a structured routine: Establishing a consistent daily routine can reduce confusion and anxiety for individuals with anosognosia and dementia. Routines help create a sense of normalcy and reduce situations where lack of awareness may cause problems.
Using positive reinforcement: Encourage and praise the person for tasks they complete successfully. Positive reinforcement can help build trust and cooperation, making daily caregiving tasks smoother.

Having the conversation about safety and independence

It can be difficult to talk with a loved one who has anosognosia about safety concerns like driving, medication management or accepting help at home. Because the person may not recognize their cognitive changes, these conversations require empathy, preparation and a focus on preserving dignity. Here are a few ways to approach these conversations with compassion and clarity:

Try to plan ahead and introduce the topic before it becomes urgent.
Acknowledge that changes may feel like a loss of independence and use supportive language that centers on care and partnership.
Involve a trusted health care provider or revisit the conversation over time to help build understanding.

By adopting these strategies and utilizing available support resources, caregivers can more effectively manage the challenges of anosognosia and provide compassionate, safe care for their loved ones. Explore more caregiving resources for Alzheimer’s and related dementias to find support, guidance and practical strategies to help you navigate the challenges of caregiving.

Additional resources and support for those affected by anosognosia

When someone living with anosognosia is unable to recognize their own decline, it can be emotionally challenging for families. But no one is alone in this journey. Crucial lifelines exist to support both individuals and their families through this challenging time.

Alzheimer's Association Helpline: The Alzheimer's Association 24/7 Helpline (800.272.3900), provides confidential support, crisis assistance, local resources and information in over 200 languages, day or night.
Alzheimer’s Association and local chapters: The Alzheimer’s Association offers extensive resources, including articles, guides, webinars, and workshops specifically designed for families dealing with dementia-related conditions like anosognosia. Local chapters can provide access to support groups, educational programs, and personalized advice from dementia care experts.
Online communities and forums: Engaging with support communities, such as the Alzheimer's Association ALZConnected, allows families to connect with others facing similar challenges. These online and local communities offer a safe space to share experiences, ask questions and receive peer support.
Professional counseling: Caregivers can benefit from talking to professionals such as counselors or psychologists who specialize in dementia care. Counseling can help manage stress, develop coping strategies and provide personalized guidance.
Educational resources: Accessing resources that explain dementia and caregiving strategies can help caregivers feel more informed and confident. Websites, books and webinars from trusted organizations provide evidence-based information and tips.