We are all connected.

 We are all connected.

911 call. not an emergency. Questions to determine if John is of sound mind. 4-27-2021

911 call. not an emergency. Questions to determine if John is of sound mind. 4-27-2021

What day of the week is it?

Who is the president of the united states?

If you have 6 quarters how much money do you have?

John Layson answered all questions correctly and promptly.
He refused my and Kirk Hupp's request to have an ambulance
and have paramedics look at his left foot.

In the state of Missouri you have the right to make the 
decision for your own health care if you are of sound mind.

Him cleaning up things in the living room, his own stuff and mess
made up of heavy hard to move objects: entertainment center, refrigerator,
inversion table.

Him: Just go away and leave me alone.
I don't see you cleaning up anything.
You do the laundry and dishes and that's about all.
You're not helpless.
I am tired of your excuses.

Me I can't move heavy things. It's hard to clean.

9-16-16

Acres of diamonds: My fortune is inside me and in my own backyard and circle of friends.

 Acres of diamonds: My fortune is inside me and in my own backyard and circle of friends.

Children should not suffer from the stupidity of the adults

Slacking and slothfulness begins in the brain with thoughts

 Slacking and slothfulness begins in the brain with thoughts

sloth in the brain means something other than being lazy physically
it means being mentally lazy and just not thinking about
much of anything, instead just automatically reacting to whatever
and doing it because it's advertised or because you see another
person doing it

it is almost a complete lack of the ability to analyze, to ask why
and observe, really pay attention

knowing physical limits does NOT equate with laziness
not knowing physical limits is stupidity and usually comes
from listening to other people who don't know what they are
talking about and trying to make you think you have to do
something and you should compare yourself with others 
and say "if they can do it so can I" (which is bull shit)

I like signs sign making quotes poems fables anecdotes

I like signs sign making quotes poems fables anecdotes

quotes

plaques

sayings

pictures

mini cards credit card size with poems

truisms

truths

moral/morals to the story

meaning

substance

poems, sayings, quotes, quotations, 

calligraphy

handwriting analysis

food diet health nutrition

life watching observation

anecdotes, true stories about life

Impatience costs a fortune and may cost you your life

Impatience costs a fortune and may cost you your life

Fast food

Prepared processed and fast food

speeding, going too fast

pushiness, rudeness, hatefulness, rude attitude

hurrying anything up

forcing anyone or anything

not wanting to wait, can't wait, unable to tolerate 

"idle time" while waiting in line, in traffic, or for water to boil

believing you have to fill up every space and every second

of every minute by doing something "useful"

doing drugs to speed up the body and not resting when it is tired

and needs to sleep, recuperate and recharge its batteries

ignoring nature, instinct and intuition

arguing, fighting for useless things or causes

I can tell alot about a person by what they hurry to do

I can tell alot about a person by what they hurry to do

what are you in a hurry for? what to you

rush to do?

what do you laugh at?

what is funny?

what is humorous?

ME: hurry up to

pay bills early, on time

work first, take care of others needs first then myself

clean up, organize, prepare, get ready

think ahead

think intuit feel

think, think, think

think before i speak, always say nice things

to help people feel good about themselves

My friend John said, "You're a saint"

When I work by myself i am not a threat to anyone.

When I work by myself i am not a threat to anyone.

No woman to be jealous, no man to chase the cat

no one cares about trivia i know

no one cares about trivia i know

no one is impressed with my intelligence, never have been. only my looks, period

My cleaning, organizing and patience are being called upon again.

 My friend, John Layson, called me this evening around 8:30 pm.
He was born November 13, 1946. He lives in Raytown, Missouri
in a large 3 bedroom ranch house with a full basement.

He is a hoarder.

He bruised his foot, can't get up out of the chair. 

My husband and I went to the rescue. Fed his cat first, fed him 
next. Gave him water. Going tomorrow to fix broken pipes in
the basement.

We have a huge job ahead of us.
One thing at a time. One day at a time.

Suzy Susie Susan is my other name along with Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, Princess & the Pea

Suzy Straight was a nickname I got when I was 12 years old.

Shelby Todd gave me the name in 7th grade at Walnut Building
Junior High School in Belton, Missouri because I didn't smoke
anything/cigarettes or dope, didn't do drugs and was clean, neat,
organized, mannerly, pretty. polite, always attended school (never
skipping it) and all the good things. I was brought up in good
households with great parents and grandparents who taught
me many of the right things to do.

Susie was also a name my uncle in law Norman Rutherford gave me 
starting back in 1987

be around those who want you to smile and be happy

my life is a real movie better than anything on television

allow and flow and there is no such thing as fighting

inside out : your body will reflect what you consume into the body

obstructing creation causes misery

allowing creative process promotes creation and happiness and joy

allow one to do things. they will figure it out on their own

the view at the top is clear

stand back and look you will have better vision being in the middle of something distorts your view

my spirit is mine. you are a free spirit. you choose what you pay attention to

trust yourself. you were born with gut instincts. follow them

if you didn't think it you wouldn't say it. if you say it you thought it and you mean it

 

if you didn't think it you wouldn't say it. if you say it you thought it and you mean it

trust yourself. you were born with gut instincts. follow them

my spirit is mine. you are a free spirit. you choose what you pay attention to

stand back and look you will have better vision 
being in the middle of something distorts your view

allow one to do things. they will figure it out on their own

allowing creative process promotes creation and happiness, joy

obstructing creation causes misery

inside out

Destroying the guts of humans and animals. Is this on the agenda? Has it been a goal for decades?

Destroying the guts of humans and animals. Is this on the agenda? Has it been a goal for decades?

What is code red?

 What is code red?

Infants are born with intuition. How do adults forget it?

 Infants are born with intuition. How do adults forget it?

Too much. Not enough. Just right.

Ethical definition

ethical

morally good or correct. 

ethical

avoiding activities

or organizations that do harm to people or environment

do the right thing even when nobody is looking

Ethics or money?

My parents, mother and father, told me the truth. Mom and dad did not lie.

My parents, mother and father, told me the truth. Mom and dad did not lie.

How fortunate I am to have had parents like this.

Babies are born with common sense. Children have common sense.

Babies are born with common sense. Children have common sense.

 

If a child doesn't like it neither do I. 

Gold medal: My friend Tom said I have earned this.

 Gold medal: My friend Tom said I have earned this.

Kind and nice people, where are you?

Kind and nice people, where are you?

True, honest, ethical, child like, innocent,
joyful, happy, sweet. Grown up, adult,
responsible. Take responsiblity for the self.
Apologize when they hurt someone by accident
and vow to never do it again. 

Introspective. 

Real, genuine, unique.

Wise. 

The people who are nice all of the time.
Considerate, gentle, patient, humble, thoughtful.

Use caution with the words that spew out of their mouth.

Speak truth quietly and clearly. Understand truth without
having to have a gazillion examples and explanations
told repeatedly.

Those who treat everyone with kindness, not just
when they want something out of someone. 

Some people are
only nice when they think they are getting something l
ike money, attention, sex, physical or material things
out of a person right away then they turn right around
and act horrible after they get what they want.

People focus on the pimple.

People focus on the pimple.

Have "perfect", flawless skin except for one zit on
your face?
Have a skin rash anywhere?

Blemish, pimple, flaw, spot, mark, dent, crack, crooked,
out of line.

Disorder. Mess.

Wrinkle.

Mismatched.

Color not coordinated.

Mixed patterns.

Clothes that don't fit properly: too big, saggy, baggy,
too small

Dirty hair

Funky hairdo, hair style

People focus on the pimple.

Simplicity is beauty. Simple is beautiful.

 Simplicity is beauty. Simple is beautiful. 

Curtain hanging incident

april 12, 2021
4-12-21

hateful mean hostile frustrated arrogant shaking
why should i have to come in here and do this

it looks like crap!

Clear away trash first to make room for space. Empty space is appreciated.

Clear away trash first to make room for space. Empty space is appreciated.

I believe in making space first by cleaning and dumping
things not needed.  Things will naturally come that
are meant to be later on. I never worry about it.

Others believe in getting another replacement item first
before they think about cleaning or clearing the area.
They believe the same way about replacing people.
When you are not appreciated and taken for granted you are treated like garbage.

He only clears out areas when he already has a replacement item
in mind. He moves things around to make space for another thing
then moves the crap back to where it was.
He has treated me like total trash in the past so this tells me
that there was another person (or people, maybe more than one)
he had in mind to 
replace me. He has not told me this. He insists during the last year
I have been
the only one he has been with both "since we've been together" and
"since we've been married".  My instincts tell me he was lying,
lies, says whatever he thinks I want to hear.
He likely believes that he is unable to get someone else,
realizes how old he is (we are) and has experienced my
absence for days and more than a week at a time lately
therefore concludes that I am suddently a valuable person
to him whereas before for many years I was not valued much or
appreciated.  Threats have been made often when the anger
begins in him like "Go live with so and so", "I am still in good
shape for my age. I could find somebody else"

What I do

 What I do

Drink lots of water

drink plain tea and coffee. may add some honey and spices to
tea such as cinnamon, clove

don't drink energy drinks at all

don't drink very often: sugary drinks like soda, kool aid

no drugs, no prescription pills

take vitamins and herbs on occassion

sleep when tired

make sure i go to bathroom (have bowel movement) before i leave home

eat variety of foods: lots of vegetables including onions, carrots, celery daily,
cucumbers, pickles, lettuce, tomatoes, cabbage, 
meat/protein: beef, pork, poultry, fish

eat popcorn with real butter as a snack

eat in moderation

exercise sensibly

stretch/stretchercise

walk

dance

brush teeth with baking soda, sometimes use peroxide

don't use mouthwash

rarely use antiperspirant or deodorant. when i do, it is a very small amount

my sweat has hardly any smell, a light smell. must be due
to diet, what i am eating

i cut my own hair. trim is a better word since i don't really
"style" it. no fancy hair cut or do. 

i do my own nails, fingernail and toenail. usually have no polish, just plain

i do my own manicure and pedicure. foot file with emery boards and clippers

avoid stress, stressed out people

avoid nasty situations

enjoy company of animals like dogs, cats, birds (viewing and listening
to them sing)

love to see beauty of nature; plants, trees, bushes, all of it
enjoy the view of the sky however it happens to look at the moment

Baking soda=toothpaste. Simple. Who would guess?

 Baking soda=toothpaste. Simple. Who would guess? 

The dentist isn't there to take care of your teeth every day. You are.

 The dentist isn't there to take care of your teeth every day. You are.

How to Accelerate, speed up ageing aging process

How to Accelerate, speed up ageing aging process

symptoms: early death, headaches, nausea, heart attack, stroke,
emphysema, asthma, early grey/gray/greying/graying of hair,
short tempered, easily angered, nasty personality, blood clots,
skin diseases, mental and physical ailments and disorders,
insanity, craziness, mental illness, coma, irrational behavior,
impatience, anger, jealousy/envy, greed/greediness, overweight,
obese/obesity, anxiety, vengefulness

Work in the wrong field

Do work not suited for you

Allow other people to tell you what to think and do

Have no or few interests/hobbies that you like

Believe you can "do anything as long as you have the will and

push yourself to do it"

Believe 'if so and so can do it, then so can I"

Push yourself beyond your limits repeatedly

Drive your body into the ground

Burn the midnight oil often

Believe in the fallacy that you are "lazy"

because you can't do or 

don't want to do what someone else does

because you get tired and need to rest

Do drugs to keep you awake longer so you don't allow the body to rest 

when it is tired

Take prescription drugs often

Work too long, work too many hours

Stress yourself out physically and mentally

Be a fear monger 

Feed off of your insecurities

Push your agenda and beliefs upon others

Be filled with hate/hatred, meanness

Do not rest,sleep enough or allow

   the body, mind and soul time enough to recup

Do not have free time

Do not meditate

Have no peace or silence/silent moments

Feel pressured most of the time

Always think you have to be doing something

You believe you have to be doing something productive at all times

(this equates to money, thinking money is dominant over all else)

Believe silence is useless and equivalent to death and nonproductivity

Eat the wrong foods

Eat lots of processed manmade items such as

   refined sugar, flour, oils like corn cotton seed

   canola processed manmade vegetable oils

Over cook most of your food

Instead of chewing food, put most of it in a blender

and drink the "juice" without allowing it to sit in the mouth

and produce enzymes important for digestion

Consume lots of sweets and carbohydrate foods

such as/ like pastries, candy, candies, donuts, pies,

cakes, cookies, pasta, noodles, breads, soda pop,

fruit juices, sweet drinks whether they are sweetened

with sugar, corn syrup, high fructose corn syrup or

artificial sweeteners such as acesulfame potassium,

sucralose, splenda, 

Eat very little or no vegetables, fruits, wholesome

protein food like meat, fish, poultry, chicken,

turkey, pork, nuts or other animal or vegetable foods

Eat the same things every day

Have very little variety in the diet

Eat out of habit instead of desire and cravings

Never allow your stomach to empty

Never let yourself get really hungry

Eat animals that are fed the wrong diet

Stay inside a house or building most of the time

Do not go out and breathe fresh air

Do not exercise very often

Do not stretch the muscles

Stay too hot or too cold for too long

Exercise too much and too often

Do the wrong exercises

Do things that make the body hurt, be in pain

Eat and drink things that are not (real) food

Drink very little water

Try to keep up with "everybody else"

Try to adopt a lifestyle that is suited for someone else

Have a limited social life

Have very few associates, hardly any friends

Associate with hateful, negative people

Ignore yourself, your instincts, your body and intuitive gut feelings and signals

Listen to ignorant and uninformed people

Listen to and believe in the media ads, advertisements, news, wars,

gossip, political and religious negativity 

Believe you must fight to get anything; everything is a huge fight

Believe nothing is every easy

Believe you have no control over yourself

Believe you don't have a choice; you have no choices

Hair style changes denote inner change

Right as rain

 Right as rain

"You're right as rain", a man used to tell me many years ago.

It's been so long ago I do not remember his name.

He was an old man, perhaps as old as I am now (59)
and I was younger, perhaps in my 20's at the time.

Money can't buy common sense

Goldilocks and The Three Bears: Just right. Temperature, size, amount

unfeigned

 unfeigned

sincere

genuine

true

honest

real

unaffected

unpretended

not pretentious

authentic

pure

innocent

indomitable

adjective

(of courage, pride, etc) difficult or impossible to defeat or subdue

cannot be subdued or overcome

will, courage, unconquerable)

strength is in my softness, understanding

flexiblity

allowing

still waters run deep

Why do some people freak out when they see me cleaning? Are they hoarders? Afraid of losing something?

Why do some people freak out when they see me cleaning? Are they hoarders? Afraid of losing something?

Moving things around, mopping/cleaning the floor,

dusting, washing, tossing things out in the trash...

these actions have caused certain individuals to become

panicky, afraid and upset. 

Mopping or cleaning a floor with water or any type of

liquid has seemed to be one of the most

upsetting things to do around these people.

Some of these people are hoarders.

What, possibley, pray tell, are they thinking?

"OH, I might use that piece of trash one day",

"I might need that", "It could come in handy",
"It holds memories for me", "It's mine. I bought it,
I found it, so and so gave that to me", 
"It makes me feel good"
"I feel better having all this (too much) stuff"
"I love collecting things and having many collections
and groups of gadgets laying all around everywhere 
in sight so I can look at this c r a p anytime I want to..."

All I want to do is clean up, straighten and organize

things and get rid of unusable trash and things that are not necessary.

Color coordinate, balance the scenery and provide

plenty of room to move around and lots of

empty space so I can see and BREATHE better.

Some I know and have known have become hysterical when they

discover the new clean view or watching me clean things up.

It's almost like they are afraid of losing the filth and

dust that goes along with a dirty house/business/any place.

To me it is unliveable and nasty, To them, it is home/homey

and comfortable to wallow in these messes. 

It reminds me of a landfill. A huge trash dumpster or bin

with garbage, stinking and unbearable to look at 

much less smell. 

Anticipation is the most fun of all. Waiting is well worth it. Hunger is necessary for happiness.

 Anticipation is the most fun of all. Waiting is well worth it. Hunger is necessary for happiness.

Babies know it all naturally. Remain child like. Be yourself in the moment.

Babies know it all naturally. Remain child like. Be yourself in the moment.

babies, children, kids do all these things without being

told to do so. they don't need direction or advice.

hungry eat

sad cry

pain cry

avoid pain

seek pleasure

tired sleep

happy laugh and smile

happy cry giggle

love hug kiss cuddle

pee 

poop

sneeze

shiver

sweat

bounce

run

jump 

play

swing

shake

shimmy

dance

balls

balloons

spinners

bright colors

play in the water, the dirt, the sand

curious ask questions like

what is that

why do ...

how does... how long .....

who was...is...

when did/does this/that

where are we going?

Ethics ethical behavior

Ethics ethical behavior

do it because it's the right

thing to do

Do you own stuff or does the stuff own you?

 Do you own stuff or does the stuff own you?

Nobody wants free advice. It costs too much.

Nobody wants free advice. It costs too much. 

They'd rather pay a lot of money for something

they could get for free.

A person cannot change the personality they were born with.

A person cannot change the personality they were born with. 

Drugs and psychotherapy are a bunch of crap. 

My spirit belongs to my body as long as this body is alive. Spirit is unique to each life.

My spirit belongs to my body as long as this body is alive.

Spirit is unique to each life.

It can't be taken away by anyone. It can't be bought or sold.

It can't be replaced.

Kind souls versus tortured souls

 Kind souls
like to see beings happy

like to join people together in groups like parties and
celebrations

love life

love the little things

are innocent and can be considered gullible

never mean to harm anyone or anything

Tortured souls

are out to get you

hate to see happiness in others

are miserable 

try to force others to be miserable

cause conflict whenever they can

destroy others property

stop, block others from attaining things and joy

can appear to be super sweet on the surface so you
it is hard to detect their covert lying mean backstabbing 
behaviors like lying, stealing, cheating, getting rid of your
things and moving your stuff around to make you frustrated

want all of the attention

try to smother others

fake, pretend to love and care but really want total control

Guts don't lie. Instincts and intuition are always right.

I look the Devil right in the face. I am brave.

I look the Devil right in the face. I am brave.

I have said this for many years.

Floodgates of truth happen as I remember things.

Floodgates of truth happen as I remember things.

Truth is awareness.

Truth opens up all doors.

Dreams, intuition, feelings do not lie.

An enemy is where you least suspect it.

An enemy is where you least suspect it.

don't let the devil fool you

You will recognize them by their fruits

...Matthew 7:16

when you meet a person you can tell what kind of fruit exists in their lives. Is

there kindness, gentleness, love, peace,

patience or joy? Or do they have anger,

bitterness, brawling, malice or deceit?

Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly

they are ferocious wolves. Matthew 7:15

Imagine a wolf lurking around wearing

a sheep's costume. His next meal is what he gains by his false appearance.

For even Satan disguises himself as and

angel of light. 2 Corinthians 11:14

These truths remind me of my current and past life situations.
This reminds me, once again, of the very strong, lucid dream I
had back in 1992 when I first move in over here.

It was a dream of me outside in the afternoon
daylight, calm weather
A flatbed trailer on a truck pulls up by me in
a yard
The man gets out of the truck
At first he appears very nice and angelic
Then he becomes a raging bull, full of hate,
bitterness and meanness.

He is very angry, yelling, face red
evil incarnate.. one of the most evil 
creatures I have encountered in my life
and I have seen many
He is raging and then.....
I very calmly
calm him down, somehow with my essence
and the underlying message is :
"Protect the child, protect the children"

this was a prophetic dream of my future to come

I haven't yet experienced the scene with the man driving the truck
with the trailer yet however I have 
lived through the mean, hateful raging bull maniac

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Other people with sheep's faces
exist and have been in my life 
including many women and men

Merlin Quotes

Merlin Quotes

Merlin Quotes

Focus on what I like, what makes me happy

Focus on what I like, what makes me happy
Think of what I like and what is easy for me

Always be happy when someone else is happy
Never think, say or do anything to deliberately
make another sad, unhappy or miserable

Be around happy people and animals

Little Bear

Little Bear

Little bear, you are strong
Your spirit is mighty and long

I miss you, little bear
I am crying for days
because I can't be with you

Soon, when your trial is over
we will share happy times together again

You know the lessons I have taught you so well
They will stay with you always
No one can take them away from you
The way people can take stuff away

Memories and feelings are forever

Just remember, I am always there
even if you can't see me

There is an invisible pipeline between us,
just like you said

Smothercating smothering someone runs them off

Smothercating smothering someone runs them off

let go

leave them alone

allow one to be who they are

allow a person/people to discover things on their own

allow them to make own decisions

be don't tell

be quiet (I talk too much)

Examples and effects of being ostracized

 ostracize

verb (used with object), os·tra·cized, os·tra·ciz·ing.

to exclude, by general consent, from society, friendship, conversation, privileges, etc.:

His friends ostracized him after his father's arrest.

to banish (a person) from his or her native country; expatriate.

(in ancient Greece) to banish (a citizen) temporarily by popular vote.

ostracism

Workplace Ostracism: Tackling the silent office bully

Unlike harassment which requires direct engagement between the bully and the victim (e.g. harming, demeaning, belittling, causing personal humiliation), the primary objective of the ostraciser is to disengage with the victim; to disconnect, isolate and not involve.

Some examples are as follows:

Being ignored or avoided at work

Being excluded from conversations

Suffering the silent treatment

Involuntarily sitting alone in a seminar

Noticing others avoiding eye contact with you at work

Not being invited to work events / coffee breaks

Ignoring or failing to respond to your emails

Paying little attention to / interest in your opinion

Excluding you from important work activities or meetings

Keeping information from you that you should have known

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Can Ostracism Cause Lingering Pain in Your Brain?

However, if a person has been ostracized for a long time, people can’t continue to cope with the pain and often eventually give up. This is the third stage, called resignation.

The third stage is called resignation. In some people who have been ostracized, they become less helpful and more aggressive to others in general. They also may feel an increase in anger and sadness. “Long-term ostracism can result in alienation, depression, helplessness, and feelings of unworthiness.”