Genius is life.

What did she mean if you play your cards right

Tip of iceberg reveals the whole thing

Head injuries brain damage trauma

 Age 6  fractured skull right side. Hit head on concrete curb after falling off bicycle first day riding a bike . Doctor ordered I stay home in dark room for 30 days a whole month no school. I lived in California, Huntington Beach or Garden Grove. First grade elementary school: 

Age 13 or 14 . Leslie wellington landed on top of my head full force coming down water slide at sunny shores lake kansas city missouri. Hard hit shoved me under water nearly knocked me out unconscious, had bad headache and vision visual disturbance

Age 16. Kicked in head on top left side knocked out unconscious by a man who then raped sodomized me. Woke up with  severe headache next day. 

Age 36. Multiple  boxes of car axle drive shafts fell off shelf onto top of my head while I was stocking shelves at car quest auto parts. Nearly knocked out. Saw tunnel vision hazy black area around tunnel view after injury. Taken to research medical center by parts driver Dave. X-rays and other tests then doctor said to take it easy a few days stay home.

Dave Mowrey lives in house on 8404 Stark Ave Raytown, Missouri 64138 behind John William Layson at 8413 Spring Valley Rd Raytown, MO who I met in 1997, 1998 or 1999 

Joy is not in things; it is in us. -- Richard Wagner

Awareness and good memories

 Patterns are realized

Someone's opinion of you does not have to become your reality. -- Les Brown

LOOK FOR People like this (my own preferences)

 people who are happy to see others happy

they are happy when i am happy

they don't make me leave the party early

allow others to do what they want and need to do without interfering, stopping, blocking, hindering

genuinely care and help/aid other beings in their quest to feel good and healthy

have reasonable "expectations" of other beings/life forms, any type be it plant or animal

love to see things in their natural state

love nature (are not FAKE and are not attracted to false/falsities, glam, glitter, 

people who appreciate

people who admire unique qualities in other beings

people who praise

and give genuine compliments 

those who are NOT controlling of each and every thing and animal and person around them

those who are self confident, NOT egotistical, insecure 

Lawn mowers disturb me

Smile is universal

A minute's success pays the failure of years. -- Robert Browning

Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish. -- John Quincy Adams

simplicity

 backpack

bicycle

shoes: sandals, tennis,boots

undergarments

shorts

pants, jeans

shirts: short sleeve, long sleeve

sweater

jacket

coat, long

belt

ONE soap for skin, hair, clothes to wash

bottle water tea coffee

basic

simple

simplicity

Follow the leader is a favorite game of most people

AGE does not equal wisdom

 no fool like an old fool

babies are wiser than some older people

universal basics human animal world

LOOK AT ME  I will be seen

LISTEN TO ME  I will be heard

attention recognition desired: full attention is best

accepted: desires and wants to be accepted , heard, seen, desired, wanted
for the  self and in a group or by the individual

wants to be recognized: if not recognized and getting attention then will do variety of things to accomplish it: talking, yelling, raising voice, screaming, whining, temper tantrums, fits OR 
smooth sounding singing sweet voice 
show off 
brag

physically, mentally, heard, results of actions 
looks, beauty, attractiveness
work done, results, material things and accumulations, money 
sing, sings, singing, dancing, writing, books, news, stories, 

being ignored rejected ghosted unwanted not heard nor seen is bad unbearable hurts hurtful painful emotionally damaging

 pretty girls, women, females : males boys men are suckers for attractive creatures, are
attracted to want to bed down .. will seek opportunity to have sex and or lay be close to . they want the attention from

attractive strong males competent smart fast intelligent desired by female

tips

 tips

tricks hacks budget money saving wise wisdom

healthy choice

drink water

avoid sugar sugary sweet drinks; soda, fruit juice or flavored

buy it before you need it or want it

get it on sale

look for bargains, clearance, discounts, deals on anything anywhere 

forget brand loyalty regarding most food and drink items

single ingredients BUY

prepare it yourself

anything processed or already prepped is usually more expensive and less healthy as in

detrimental to your health

listen to yourself first

common sense rules : goose, geese, animals have it so do I and you

hurry rushed have to have it do it now can be destructive and costly in many ways besides money

patient patience rules:
watch listen pay attention : the fruit the end result shows the process 

own permanent press clothes. do not buy clothes that wrinkle, stain easily, need to be ironed or taken to the dry cleaners

watch and listen to others. they are repetitive in their words and actions. habits are formed and rule the being, human, animal or plant.

predicting the behavior becomes easier when you watch and see the patterns emerge in the animal

telling someone what to do is useless; they are not going to follow advice

people will do exactly what they feel compelled to do 

creation and destruction: life and death

Appeared to be asleep in class at school in the mornings

 during junior high and high school 

I sat in class

so tired due to being nocturnal and having "insomnia"

my head resting sideways in my hand

quiet 

sitting in the chair

awake but not really 

sleeping with eyes open

teacher called on me some times to answer a question and 

thought i was asleep and didn't know 

and i answered the questions with ease

because i knew them and

learned quite well

paid/paying attention 

easily and

quickly rapidly soaking up the information 

even though they mistakenly believed I had no clue 

Does this mean skip college and university for me?

I can float right through this stuff

Each man I have been with has blocked stood in my way denying me further advanced education and ability to obtain a degree in anything.. coming up with invalid reasons/excuses each time.  

so now one person like me can participate in online schooling and if I wanted to I can do this slowly and surely obtaining any degree I want 

Skip college, the man said about Damon a few years ago

 at dollar tree 89th and wornall

employee said "Skip college"

when he heard my grandson Damon

talking about the pipes in the building

I said yes he is ready to go to work right now

Basics of life: get to the point and skip all this stuff

BASICS 

Life: feel good = look good

Stay simple, child like and joyful, 

Healthy is your wealth and wisdom

health: emotional, mental, physical, spiriitual/spirit/soul

SKIP

Religion, cults, any systems or groups causing divisions 

and separation/ separate thinking of life forms 

Politics/political

groups, bands, sects

Wise person knows they can't do it all by themselves

Most people live and die with their music still unplayed. They never dare to try. -- Mary Kay Ash

Freedom is a fallacy

Lower the go, higher the bounce

Father : Gilbert John Wilson, Sr

 shriner 

32nd degree mason 

church goer

told me about illuminati

kansas city, raytown, missouri

friends with many people cultures ethnic background all over the united states

had map of us in his head

didn't know a stranger

intelligent, wise

Business man, full blow entrepreneur

Had wallet full of money typically. 

Showed me 1000 bills when I was in my teens and 20s

Supportive of my self, ventures, interests, of me for who I am 

never lectured shamed humilated me or others when i made a mistake

understanding

helpful

kind

generous, giving

genology family history buff 

very good memory all the way to day he died at 75

work ethic high, electrical job on his mind day he died january 28, 2003

wallet full of cash money most of the time

service oriented

good hearted

When I asked him (my dad) how my mother saved up 3 thousand dollars back in the

70s 1970, 1971, he said "She didn't spend it"

TOLD me my husband didn't want me to go to school because then I wouldn't need him anymore

Reflecring uopn the day is my bedtime story method . Reality. Personal

You have everything you need ... my lady friend Wendy said

Sweeter I am, the meaner he gets

People speak for themselves.

 I speak for me

I don't "try to make someone look bad: they make their own 

appearance by themselves."

Brutal beasts are often in men

 beastly behavior

rash impatient rude mean

destructive / constructive

cold hearted selfish 

Seems like STUFF causes STRESS

How to dress in the midwest

 base layer: underwear, panties/briefs, bra

swimsuit

thermals

short sleeve shirt

long sleeve shirt

long sleeve sweater

vest

short jacket with hood

medium length coat

long coat with hood

ski mask

scarf

gloves

hat

sandals

tennis shoes

boots

snow boots

Insane people believe everyone else is crazy

I don't need to abuse myself because some crazy jealous person abused me

Desiderata and other poems like this

Desiderata and other poems like this

 Memories go way back 30 years ago when I had this poem on a poster

hung it on the wall in my room and he said

I don't like that

Now I know why. He doesn't understand it nor any other thing

similar to it. 

Nature loving artistic person. Loves caterpillars

I saw a young man crouched down over the sidewalk yesterday

at longview community center

I asked "Did you find some money?"

No

Did you find a bug? .. (I was wondering what he was studying so intently down on the ground..

"Oh, it's a baby caterpillar!" 

Do you ever look at them? he asked.

Oh, yes .. I love to look at them. I put my finger down on the ground by it and it didn't

crawl up.

He put his finger beside the caterpillar and a few seconds later it crawled onto his hand.

He moved towards the grassy area and very gently let it go then he said

"It doesn't want to go in the grass"

"Probably because of the poision people probably put down. It is spring time and the grass

is beginning to grow.  People put chemicals like weed killer bug poison and all that on the 

grass. The caterpillar probably senses it. "

 At this point I finally realized 

this is one trait of the nice, peace loving, natural and nature adoring person

who truly appreaciates life and forms of life.

Nice car, old man. Your wife looks like crap due to your years of abuse

 she will look like a truck ran over her

a train wreck

a mess, a pig, a cow, twisted angry face female bitch with wicked eyebrows

unless  ...

she learns this fact of life and stays clear of him

and his angry shitty hostile attitude and

controlling nature

He is NOT a nature lover or peaceful person

HE gets what he wants. HIS/THE wife is abused neglected ignored discredited

HE gets what he wants

focuses on his money, material things

HIS/THE wife is abused neglected ignored discredited 

pushed aside, used up like a wrung out dish rag

threatened criticized condemned by him

HE takes advantage of her love, her big heart so he can get access to her body

and have SOMEONE some woman around like a picture hanging on a wall, like a

porcelain doll without any mind or feelings

AND what she wants should cost zero dollars

so he can spend most of his money on things he wants for himself

such as: house home car truck motorcycle or any other thing he wants

Eventually he grows old

and is alone and often remains by himself UNLESS

he meets some young  (naive) female usually much younger than himself who knows the score

about life and she doesn't mind having sex with an old decrepit looking man so she

ends up with the money the property and any other physical material thing he had 

HE is a fool

IT the attraction / relationship began with HIM

admiring her looks... they all want a cute, pretty nice looking female and these

materialistic ones will destroy the very essence of her beauty and femininity given

enough time

In public he often appears to be nice friendly makes small talk chat 

with females

HE notices every person in the environement like most of us do

HE makes a mental note of any attractive female any place anywhere he happens to

see her

He is NOT a nature lover or peaceful person

Nice truck, man ! Beat up wife.

 She looks haggard 

worn out

used abused

after years of the mental and

sometimes physical beatings

He is NOT a nature lover or peaceful person

You could (have) had any man you want , he said

 MOM, you can have any man you want

why did you pick losers?

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MORE chemicals to make money. Some businesses and manufacturers do this.

Love means respecting each other. It does not mean you have to put up with abuse from the one you love.

Program in brain is computer like

Shut UP ... quit telling others what to do and noting what you see going on..

 we learn for ourselves

quickest way to piss somone off is to tell them what to do

tell them what they want

what they should feel

I have no idea what someone feels, needs, wants or is thinking or 

what they want to do

How do I (or you) know without seeing or other sensing it first?

 the big q

question

Energy drainers suckers: mean negative people or any being living or dead

Money suckers drainers out the window down the drain toilet

 subscriptions

magazine

most subs

Bathroom is my office. Toilet throne

 he or no one can come up behind me on the throne

i hear him coming then

see him head on

We're only here for a little while

One is not better than the other

Hot fudge sundae or strawberry shortcake? Both are good

 depends on preference

desire

choice at the moment

not one is better than the other

Amazing miracle I am breathing and still alive in this body

 considering the things that have happened or could happen