Monday, October 28, 2024

His contradictory behaviors, words, actions

 he tells me to shut the fuck up and he doesnt like my "stories" yet he listens and laughs to the stories told by ricky 

he pays attention to the world, strangers and their terrible tragedies and ignores what I need, minimizes what i am, my conditions, feelings, thoughts, words

he says "I don't care what you want!"

when he finds out what i want he does everything to make sure that i don't get it

this explains why he asks me question such as "what would you like?" "what do you want?" "what do you want to do?"

he will not acknowledge any praise or compliments i receive from others, negating what they say and chalking it up to "they are just trying to be nice, polite, they don't really mean it"

he is totally wrapped up in the big screen, the media, the television, internet, what other people are doing and has no idea what is going on at home

he watches people dancing having fun doing stunts political gatherings for trump on the computer yet he avoids looking at me and avoids looking at my face, looking me in the eye

he avoids me face, focuses on my body areas especially my butt or breasts 

he doesnt make plans to take me out anywhere 

he waits until the last minute before he leaving to ask me if i want to go, which subconsciously states he doesnt want me to go with him

the only places we go and it is rare that we go anywhere together,  i have to be plainly and fully dressed preferably ugly and boring looking and are places he is familiar with: walk at the one park he goes to, shopping at places like grocery store, dollar tree, auto parts, fast food restaurants

he only thinks about food when he is hungry

he only thinks about most things right before they occur

he is impulsive, explosive in anger, throws temper tantrums when he sees anything he doesnt like, hears something he hates, sees someone he doesnt like the way they look

He likes to see me in different outfits but wont take me anywhere I can wear them. I am banned from wearing any item that looks like a corset, lingerie, reveals my ass/butt, chest, upper thighs

i must use extreme caution being careful about the way i dress at all times. if i am dressed in any way he views as possibly being cute, sexy, revealing he instantly blows up and yells "you are not wearing that out of this house!!"

he makes sure no one can see in the windows at home. maybe he is a voyeur, a window peeper

he secretly sucks up views porn pornography ..i have discovered him viewing it accidentally when he had his bedroom door shut and i opened the door which i usually dont do like he does to me...and i saw some of the huge collection of vhs tapes he has that he acquired from many sources one being from my ex husbands house when the ex had to move in 2008 and the house was full of junk some other porn i know he got from the old shed at the next door neighbors house when the neighbor left town for awhile saying he was not coming back

he says it is not abnormal for males to look at porn sex movies magazines or in any format yet if i ever had any kind of that around he would blow up and make me get rid of it

he feels he has the right to have whatever he wants anywhere at anytime and has total ownership rights rule priviliges of this entire house, property, land and all vehicles

each room is a pile of stuff things junk, a mess, not dusted, lots of cobwebs, dirt, dust

freeks freaks out when i move anything around especially to clean

gets off at scaring me and people





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