Thursday, October 31, 2024

he needs to cry .. instead of yell and scream.. at me

 think i figured out one thing he ought to do

cry his eyes out the way i do, the way i have shed tears over the years

crying for the pain of others, my own pain i deal with physically and mentally every day

i cry easily, he cant seem to cry and admit weakness and fear

he did cry once a few years ago when i had enough of this isolation shit in this house and i scratched my left arm bad. i couldnt take it anymore. this fucking bullshit 

he needs to break down completely and get rid of the anxiety, the fear of all the things he has no control over like death

he needs to want to kill himself,  feel like committing suicide, killing himself the way i have done and have attempted several times in my life

he needs to recognize his ass hole abuse, the way he has treated me and beg forgiveness and never go back and say or do the shit he has done to me and never mistreat anyone ever again

he needs to be completely shut out by everyone the way he shuts me out

he needs to have his dreams and abilities and talents destroyed the same way he has done to me

he needs to have someone bash his head everyday telling him he is worthless, the same as he has done to me

needs to have his good looks destroyed, physical abilities eliminated, to be locked up in a small room and chained physically or mentally so he cannot move









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