Saturday, December 14, 2024

I used to experience extreme intense happiness joy feelings...

 I remember this phenonmenon happening when I was around 10 or 11 years old.

the feeling was overwhelming as if I were going to explode from happiness. the grateful joy of all was so intense

anymore it rarely happens. 

instead a horrible depression hits with suicide thoughts on my mind 

alot is due to past experiences of abuse that pop up and conglomerate into a snowball 

and living with a doomsday micromanager person who destroys any moment of joy if he sees a smile on my face



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