What happens in your home happens in the world

What happens in your home happens in the world. If all homes were happy the world would be happy.

Sarah Wilson-Stillwell
3-13-2017

"Patterning your life around other's opinions is nothing more than slavery." -- Lawana Blackwell

"Patterning your life around other's opinions is nothing more than slavery."
-- Lawana Blackwell

To my mother-in-law goddess patricia ann williams haynie mertz williams

To my mother-in-law goddess patricia ann williams haynie mertz williams

i am 55 you are 73
7-7-61 / 10-4-43
at age 21 i looked up to you
an idol, you were to me

i tried to do what you do, to keep up with you
i failed
i finally realized the biggest mistake i made
is trying to be like someone else

i am not you
you are not me and never will be
and i would bet that you never wanted to be like me
you never looked up to or idolized me like i did you

my mom's mom (my maternal grandmother)
always told me to just be yourself
when i asked her what i should be
i didn't know what that was
so throughout my entire life i tried to be as good as
someone else but i never was

i often made the mistake of comparing myself to others
competing when i was a child and a teenager, a young adult
and an adult,  but i always failed
there were always people better at any thing i did
no matter how hard i tried

i wanted to have your strength, your energy and vitality
i wanted to have your beauty, grace, eloquence, flamboyance and friends
but i don't

i thank you for being your bright, shining self
i thank you for inspiring me in my search for understanding and spirituality
by telling me about books such as The Key To Yourself by Venice J. Bloodwort
when i was 21 years of age

i thank you for giving me a car when i was 21, buying a baby crib and baby clothes for my son, the many
Christmas gifts for me, my sons, your son and many other people

i thank you for the many beautiful and enjoyable holiday celebrations of lunch and dinner
you provided

you are an inspiration for life


sarah wilson montgomery mertz stillwell

november 4, 2016

At 9 months old a rat chewed,bit and gnawed at the top of my left hand.

At 9 months old a rat chewed,bit and gnawed at the top of my left hand.

Age 3 we lived in a house that had grapevines growing in the backyard. I climbed up
the vines and ate a whole bunch of these that I thought were grapes and got
very ill. I remember puking, vomiting and laying on the couch as my mother
watched me recover.

"The worst loneliness is not to be comfortable with yourself." -- Mark Twain

"The worst loneliness is not to be comfortable with yourself."
-- Mark Twain

"The hardest challenge is to be yourself in a world where everyone is trying to make you be somebody else." E. E. Cummings

"The hardest challenge is to be yourself in a world where everyone is trying to make you be somebody else."

E. E. Cummings 

http://www.famous-quotes-and-quotations.com/e_e_cummings.html

W for weirdo. I am a weirdo because I am not lgbt or any other letters they have added to the acronym.

W for weirdo. I am a weirdo because I am not lgbt or any other letters they have
added to the acronym.
White/caucasian, monogomous, heterosexual, feminine woman.
No tattoos, pierced eyebrows, belly button or private parts.
Gosh, I am strange. A foreigner to this planet.