Friday, December 7, 2018

Alone most of the time. Two 2 hours with husband today. Twenty two 22 hours alone.

Alone most of the time. Two 2 hours with husband today. Twenty two 22 hours alone.
What is this thing called steady that people expect us to be?
Who or what is "steady" as in motionless, unchanging, predictable, stagnant?

Why do I feel different every day?
One day I wake up feeling good and expecting positive things to happen.
The next day is gloomsday anticipating death.
Another day is neutrality like a zombie wondering if I am really still alive
or am I dreaming.

12-7-2018

dwell definition

\ˈdwel  \
dwelled\ˈdweld ˈdwelt \ or dwelt\ˈdwelt  \dwelling

Definition of dwell 

1to remain for a timedwell in the hallway
2ato live as a residentthe town in which he dwelled for eight yearsthe dwelling place of the gods
bEXISTLIEwhere the heart of the matter dwells
3ato keep the attention directed used with on or upontried not to dwell on my fears
bto speak or write insistently used with on or uponreporters dwelling on the recent scandal

Other Words from dwell

dweller \ˈdwe-​lər  \ noun

His father dad had ECT shock therapy treatments for schizophrenia

 Electroconvulsive therapy. 1960s 1970s  Joseph Olney stillwell  January 1911 to September