he is opposite
he seeks the opposite of me
automaton
brainwashed
canned
and unaware of it
huge people pleasing mistakes i have made
been many places
was taught to always be nice to everyone
bad thing to do. wrong advice.
wasted years
missed great opportunities
at gatherings social scenes some undesirable person starts talking to me and i talk back not wanting to appear snobby rude hateful arrogant proud goody 2 shoes and they wasted my time because the desirable ones saw me associating with crumbs and walked away
if i would have had a brain i would have understood what grandma sarah told me ...keep them at arms length. ignore the undesirables. keep to yourself. dont tell everybody everything. dont mingle lie down with dogs scum trash they will drag you down to their level.
when young i let people take advantage of me fearing i would be injured or killed or called bad names like a prick teaser.
the injuries and humiliation i endured is far worse than it would have been if i would have kept quiet to most and reserved my discussions to a select high quality few people
mind your own business. keep personal things to yourself.
look good. be classy. be aloof.
hard up. have a hard time getting females they really want
weirdos
old men young ones who dont know any better
undesirables unwanted rejects
inferiors freaks
creep creeps creepy
married creepy men bozos
grade 5 or below on a scale of 1 to 10
single goofy strange
liars cheats criminals thieves burglars convicts
nasty dirty filthy
illiterate uneducated
ones who would fuck screw about anything
low quality
fools
selfish mean rude obnoxious
hateful
primitive caveman type
boisterous blunt crude
manual laborers
and fast food restaurants. portioned out food. individual serving sizes in most things
Electroconvulsive therapy. 1960s 1970s Joseph Olney stillwell January 1911 to September