old, fat, overweight, average, ugly, undesirable women are loved

old, fat, overweight, average, ugly, undesirable women are loved
i have seen them holding hands with a man while walking in the park or anywhere in public are truly loved
i have seen public displays of physical affection between a woman
and a man that do not look like barbie and ken, models of "perfection"
"imperfect" women are loved
models are used and abused
a person like me that some or many told me i was beautiful
is not loved, not hugged, not appreciated
my hand is not held in public, i am not hugged in public and
rarely maybe 2 or 3 times a year at home hugged

Desiderata

desiderata

Max Ehrmann


Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the univoferse,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.
Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.





desiderata, another thing i love that he hates
used to have a poster of this beautiful poem i got for
christmas from a friend vern peterson in 1989

I worked hard is the myth to success thought hard is the truth to succeeding

I worked hard is the myth to success
thought hard is the truth to succeeding

sarah stillwell 3-30-2016

current crappy things

current crappy things

spouse/partner
attitude

health
hair
skin
body

diet
food

vehicle

house
location

bedspreads
blankets
carpet
comforters
curtains
decor decorations
dishes
furniture
linens
pots and pans
rugs
sheets
silverware
towels

clothes
shoes

accessories
computer
cell phone
telephones

activities
associates
hobbies
no job
no career
no employment
no friends

yes i am working on changing these things from crappy to good
it all starts in the home
i can't change another person but i can change my mind
the word repent means to do just that
i can remove myself from associations, places and things
that are crappy to me, things i don't like and move on to
people, places and things that i like, that are in sync with me

So you don't have to listen to me anymore.

So you don't have to listen to me anymore.

dear narcissist thank you for teaching me about

dear narcissist

thank you for teaching me about

anger, mad, madness
pride
hate, hatred
jealousy
envy
no real love
fake, phoniness
material things matter most
money is the most important thing
ruthlessness
possessiveness
selfishness
rude, rudeness, impolite
greed
gluttony
sceptism
fool, fools, foolishness
stinginess
indecisiveness indecision, undecided

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