watchers control freak conversations with john and others i know

 some are watchers most of the time

whine whiners complainers minimizers 

control freaks believing in master slave slavery domination of other people

and at the same time lacking self control and self awareness

and inner peace

lose their temper quick

impatient want it all right now

demanding unhappy confused 

talks nice briefly then turns nasty right away when

i will not give in to demands immediately then says

i am not cooperating, i think i am all powerful, on a power trip,

know it all 

says why won't you do what i say 

he is the one on the power trip in his fantasy world mind thinking he is 

controlling it all

i said you are not going to bully me which of course he denied trying to do

they don't admit what they are saying and doing and their goals

he threatened me last night .. said i better give him these things or he will

revoke dpoa durable power of attorney which he demanded in july that i get done

by a lawyer that costs him 1500 dollars

conversations with john

i said you can do all kinds of things

like meditate

he said i don't meditate

i said i know

he wants to be entertained by watching

listening other people and things via tv television internet radio

must have constant outside noises sounds moving pictures magazines reading articles

he is never or rarely happy being still

in awareness of himself the self

thinks he has to be stimulated/over 

stimulated at all times with all these outer things going on

is he scared, afraid of looking within and being peaceful and joyful from the inside out

i told him i'd be happy looking or staring at a bug on the wall

he laughed

because that would never be enough to satisfy him

at end of 2 hours conversation on my cell phone when he called from nursing facility

in independence missouri last night

i said john go ahead and say and do whatever you want 

it is up to you i have no control over you 

he thought his threats anger yelling were going to get him what he wants and it is not

his behavior is atrocious and abominable and the more he pushes 

the less he gets 

he said 
i am not stupid !!  (same thing i hear from husband !!)

john is unable to stand up 

has to have at least 2 nurses get him up into wheelchair from his bed

in nursing care home facility skilled care long term 

he is demanding obsessed with money and material things

he's obsessed with s&m bdsm believes in this master/slave stuff regarding

life and sex

in reality he is the slave 

the total slave and unaware of this fact 

ironically i realize these same conversations go on daily with my husband mike

and former husband ed of 10 years ... these guys share striking similarities and

identical actions and things said ... it is very interesting for me to finally
know and discover these facts of life

oh god my mother in law told me i must have the patience of a saint when i was

just 22 years old because i endured put up with the same asinine bullying 

behavior from eddy she called him before i finally broke down cried told her what he

did the way he talks to me 

years ago i came with a 'bass turd' to describe john layson whom i endured working with

for 9 years in a flea market from 2000 to 2008