Saturday, December 31, 2022
Friday, December 30, 2022
Thursday, December 29, 2022
https://www.google.com/search?q=female+hierarchy&client=ms-android-tracfone-us-rvc3&sxsrf=ALiCzsa_Hg8FNtmrIPa-ua29kRIlgO7pUw%3A1672372162072&ei=wl-uY6n2A_HMytMP--WDuA8&oq=female+hierarchy+handmaid%27s+tale&gs_lcp=ChNtb2JpbGUtZ3dzLXdpei1zZXJwEBJKBAhBGABQAFgAYABoAHAAeACAAQCIAQCSAQCYAQCgAQY&gs_ivs=1&sclient=mobile-gws-wiz-serp#tts=0
Wednesday, December 28, 2022
Monday, December 26, 2022
5 surefire signs you grew up with an emotionally immature parent
https://tinybuddha.com/blog/5-surefire-signs-you-grew-up-with-an-emotionally-immature-parent/
Success is how high you bounce after you hit bottom." -- George Patton
Your Daily Quotation:
"Success is how high you bounce after you hit bottom."
-- George Patton
Sunday, December 25, 2022
You gain strength, experience and confidence by every experience where you really stop to look fear in the face:. You must do the thing you cannot do." -- Eleanor Roosevelt
Your Daily Quotation:
"You gain strength, experience and confidence by every experience where you really stop to look fear in the face:. You must do the thing you cannot do."
-- Eleanor Roosevelt
Saturday, December 24, 2022
Queen Bee and Banty Rooster
my mom used to talk about some women she knew who were acting like the Queen Bee
her mom, my grandma would talk about some men she knew who acted like little banty roosters
What is a banty rooster? - Thank Chickens
https://thankchickens.com/what-is-a-banty-rooster
The definition of a banty rooster is a smaller, more aggressive rooster. An example of a banty rooster is one used in fights. How can you tell a rooster from a hen or a banty? Check the size of the comb and wattles. Roosters have larger combs and wattles than females. Compare the sizes. Male bantam chickens are larger than females.
Friday, December 23, 2022
Brain damage incidents. Permanent, lifelong
Fractured skull : hit right side of head fell off bicycle landed on concrete curb age 6
16 years old. Kicked in head by adult human male. I was sitting on floor, he wss standing up. Drop kicked front temple knocked me unconscious.
Thursday, December 22, 2022
The more we give of anything the more we shall get back." -- Grace Speare
Your Daily Quotation:
"The more we give of anything the more we shall get back."
-- Grace Speare
I do not think there is any other quality so essential to success of any kind as the quality of perseverance. It overcomes almost everything, even nature." -- John D. Rockefeller
Your Daily Quotation:
"I do not think there is any other quality so essential to success of any kind as the quality of perseverance. It overcomes almost everything, even nature."
-- John D. Rockefeller
Wednesday, December 21, 2022
I'd rather stay warm living in the right temperature
Instead of fighting to keep warm or cool living in radical climate
I can't keep moving in order to stay warm below 70 degrees Fahrenheit
Clothes are ridiculous
Keeping up with myself is a miracle in and of itself
I fail to keep up with
the joneses
the news
entertainment industry
politics
the world
Came across mothers day cards from long ago when my son was a child and loved me then
Tuesday, December 20, 2022
Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me." -- Carol Burnett
Your Daily Quotation:
"Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me."
-- Carol Burnett
I don't need validation from anyone how i feel what i need or want
dont seek outside confirmation of myself
Sunday, December 18, 2022
Saturday, December 17, 2022
I watch first before jumping in. Slow, cautious.
and have been made fun of, humiliated and criticized for being so slow,
slow.........................
Friday, December 16, 2022
I need you to ........
That's about all I hear from people
I need you to : fill in the blank and that's it. Don't say anything at all and don't do anything you want or need to do ONLY SAY AND DO WHAT I WANT YOU TO DO.
Thursday, December 15, 2022
Allowing others to push me around has been the biggest cause of trouble: Bad things
causes stress
debt
frustration
pain
agony
doubt
ill will
Your mental picture of yourself is the key to your healthy development. You are the writer, director, and star of either an Oscar-winning epic or a Grade B movie. Who you see in your imagination will always rule your world." -- Denis Waitley
Your Daily Quotation:
"Your mental picture of yourself is the key to your healthy development. You are the writer, director, and star of either an Oscar-winning epic or a Grade B movie. Who you see in your imagination will always rule your world."
-- Denis Waitley
A person can't be told what to do. Forcefulness pushes them away. Advice, good or not is not listened to.
leave people alone to do their own thing
Wednesday, December 14, 2022
Tuesday, December 13, 2022
Real life anecdotes. True stories. Actual events.
These are the things I talk about.
I rarely read fairy tale fiction fake stories to my kids, children or grandson
I tell them how it is. Real things. Real life and people that exist now or ones that I knew.
Sunday, December 11, 2022
I can't compete with his mother. I wasn't trying to
Any life form can mate or screw . Not many can have healthy relationships and life
Friday, December 9, 2022
Thursday, December 8, 2022
If you do not tell the truth about yourself, you can't tell it about other people." -- Virginia Woolf
Wednesday, December 7, 2022
Cleaning, getting rid of trash is like pulling teeth with hoarding mentality
residual income passive income required due to unsteady irregular energy levels
Hate clocks. look at them all of the time. Why? My own "clock" varies constantly.
Tuesday, December 6, 2022
Friday, December 2, 2022
Thursday, December 1, 2022
Wednesday, November 30, 2022
Proverbs 13:3
Proverbs 13:3, NIV: Those who guard their lips preserve their lives, but those who speak rashly will come to ruin. Proverbs 13:3, ESV: Whoever guards his mouth preserves his life; he who opens wide his lips comes to ruin. Proverbs 13:3, KJV: He that keepeth his mouth keepeth his life: but he that openeth wide his lips shall have destruction.
Proverbs 13:3, NIV: Those who guard their lips preserve their lives, but those who speak rashly will come to ruin.
Proverbs 13:3, ESV: Whoever guards his mouth preserves his life; he who opens wide his lips comes to ruin.
Proverbs 13:3, KJV: He that keepeth his mouth keepeth his life: but he that openeth wide his lips shall have destruction.
Proverbs 13:3, NASB: One who guards his mouth protects his life; One who opens wide his lips comes to ruin.
Proverbs 13:3, NLT: Those who control their tongue will have a long life; opening your mouth can ruin everything.
Proverbs 13:3, CSB: The one who guards his mouth protects his life; the one who opens his lips invites his own ruin.
What does Proverbs 13:3 mean? [⇑ See verse text ⇑]
Few things are more difficult, yet more important, than learning how to control one's words. Doing so can keep a person out of trouble and may even save his life. This is a repeated lesson of the book of Proverbs (Proverbs 10:8, 14; 12:18).
Those who threaten or revile other people open themselves to revenge and backlash. In modern English, a common description for those who talk too much is that they have "loose lips." That echoes the imagery given here by Solomon. The person who speaks without thinking, or without control, may make rash promises that he does not keep. He may insult others or lie or tell secrets or offer unsound advice. He may gossip or criticize others unjustly. His careless, harsh language will rebound to harm him.
Another English phrase related to these sentiments is a person who must "eat his words." This applies when someone's statements have come back to accuse him or condemn him. Knowing this is possible is yet another reason to be sure that any words we speak are "edible," so to speak (Proverbs 12:2). It is wise to pray as David did: "Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O LORD, my rock and my redeemer" (Psalm 19:14).
https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Proverbs%2013:3&version=NIV
Tuesday, November 29, 2022
Do phonies like fake food. The shiny gold flashy and mass media influences .??
Do they not like real natural people and simple ordinary things
Are they sucked into the void : Vacuum world of empty advertisements
Did they lose childhood innocence
Confused about needs versus wants
Monday, November 28, 2022
Saturday, November 26, 2022
10 bipolar symptoms no one wants to talk about
https://veryhealthy.life/10-bipolar-symptoms-no-one-wants-to-talk-about/7/
Wednesday, November 23, 2022
Tuesday, November 22, 2022
Celebrity says or does it : Credibility, imitated, followed, respected, admired ......
common ordinary unknown person says or does the same things
it is unheard ignored
the nobody unknown non celeb person is disrespected, shunned, hated, avoided, not listened to
labeled as crazy stupid foolish
Treasure the love you receive above all. It will survive long after your gold and good health have vanished." -- Og Mandino
Your Daily Quotation:
"Treasure the love you receive above all. It will survive long after your gold and good health have vanished."
-- Og Mandino
Monday, November 21, 2022
Friendly Enemy
Norman talked about this often.
Now I am becoming more aware of this and who is or might be
Or could be
Saturday, November 19, 2022
bright colors mom wore, mother my
bright colors mom wore
purple
orange red
sewing things clothes pillowcases
art work
drawing, artist she drew faces extremely well
crafts
painting
had beautiful hand writing
gentle nature
beautiful person
queen
patient
kind
slow
loved kids great with children
loved to learn
read magazines books all the time
puzzles crossword
wore makeup everyday
fixed her hair every day
religious
church went to every sunday
prayed for people
work jobs labor manual factory maintenance child care thrift store maid cleaning
music 50's 60s 70 80 90 2000 to 2003 death december 14, 2003
model modeling
sexy
dancing
iced tea nestea instant with sugar
pepsi cola
cake chocolate ice cream
dayquil sinus congestion
nice pleasant easy going
avoids negative people but has to live around them in the worst neighborhood in kansas city northeast where to dirt poor poverty people stay
astrology
horoscope daily
taurus sun sign rising sign cancer she never knew this i didn't have a chart for her while she was alive
poetry
Friday, November 18, 2022
Read every book, watch every movie, listen to every song: A goal dream I had as a child
Is it childish or is it hope
Is it real or unrealistic? Doesn't matter does it
My grandson said "Grandma I'm gonns suck up all the stars in the sky with a vacuum !!!"
when he was 3 years old. We were walking in the neighborhood at night.
Is it hope, a dream, a desire,wish, .... is it possible?
Who cares !!!
Dream it.
Have something .... to strive for regardless of how "foolish, impossible" it seems or
what anyone else thinks about it.
it is excitement, enthusiasm
Thursday, November 17, 2022
Wednesday, November 16, 2022
I cant eat, lose my appetite around angry upset people or situations
Extremely tuned into sensitive
Intuitive
Instinctual
Guts
Youre not going to beat the artist out of me
Or dreamer
Dancer
Simple practicality
Plain ness and honesty
Writer
Peace maker
Lover
Integrity
Exercise body appropriately. Exercise mind. And spirit soul
Grandpa and ma frequently said exercise physical body.
Tuesday, November 15, 2022
Broom bucket water rag elbow grease
Destiny
Broom
bucket
water
spray bottle sprayer
mop
cloth rag sponge
vacuum
duster
soap
cleaning maintenance
cinderella
care giver
home health aide
Lady is the word I use to describe females / women woman girl
even though some have said to me she's no lady
and i say
we are ladies when we are treated that way
Monday, November 14, 2022
Some people are only nice to those they deem rich elite or powerful. They are ruled by mammon, money
some are only nice to some they think have money
not realizing
no one is born with it
we are all born with our body only
and that is all you every have for life
ONE Body, That is it
Daily expenditures add up fast: One dollar a day = 30 dollars a month average
30.4166 average per month
12 months in year
365 / 12
Sunday, November 13, 2022
5 SIGNS YOU'VE ENDURED NARCISSISTIC ABUSE
5 SIGNS YOU'VE ENDURED NARCISSISTIC ABUSE
1. Difficulty in making simple decisions
2. Feelings of helplessness
3. Social withdrawal
4. Anxiety specific to the relationship
5. Chronic sense of second guessing & paralysis
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lt56nGmGG-0
SCARED TO DEATH OF MAKING ANY 'WRONG" MOVE OR HAVING ANY FACIAL EXPRESSION, EXPRESING ANYTHING, VOICING ANY WORD OR SOUND, OF EATING, DRINKING, BREATHING, MOVING, DOING, RELAXING, ANY TYPE OF ANY THING PERIOD THAT SETS OFF THE A BOMB ATOM HYDROGEN BOMB AGGRAVATED ANNOYED NARC NARCISSIST WHO BLOWS UP AT ANY TYPE OF THING DUE TO FACT THEY ARE ALREADY AGITATED ABOUT LIFE TO BEGIN WITH
SCARED OF LOOKING AT ANY ITEM OR LOOKING PHYSICALLY ANY WAY
CLEAN IT UP !!! JOHN YELLED AT ME MAY 2021
RIGHT BEFORE HE WAS TAKEN AWAY ON MAY 11, 2021
911 CALL TO PARAMEDICS
ON HIS DEATH BED
HOARDER STAGE 5
Your refrigerator is so clean ! comment from Karen S many years ago
I SAID I KNOW I WORK ON IT KEEP IT THAT WAY
WE LIKE CLEAN FRIDGE
sister in law who died
born februrary 23 1960
paranoid schizophrenic female woman ended up on meds medications one of which was zyprexa which made her gain about 100 pounds
JEALOUSY JEALOUS OF ANY ONE ANYWHERE
Saturday, November 12, 2022
In the middle of difficulty, lies opportunity." -- Albert Einstein
Your Daily Quotation:
"In the middle of difficulty, lies opportunity."
-- Albert Einstein
The formula for peace of mind is simple: Don't worry about anything -- pray about everything." -- Author Unknown
Your Daily Quotation:
"The formula for peace of mind is simple: Don't worry about anything -- pray about everything."
-- Author Unknown
Some people i know say "You dont have to show me", I get it, i dont want to hear you
I dont want to see you
They focus their attention on anyone else in the environment and shut me out
..........
Others never say those things to me. My friends never treat me like i dont matter
Friday, November 11, 2022
Whatever you give a woman she will make it greater ......................
“Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby.. If you give her a house, she'll give “Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby.. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit!"
ERICK S GRAY QUOTES
Owning nice things does not make one nice
I learned this by observation witnessing behavior from those who had/have nice or expensive items many years ago...over 40 years ago
Thursday, November 10, 2022
Our power is in our ability to decide." -- Buckminster Fuller
Your Daily Quotation:
"Our power is in our ability to decide."
-- Buckminster Fuller
Wednesday, November 9, 2022
Tuesday, November 8, 2022
Had enough of being shit on .. treated like an idiot fool as if im worthless and dont matter
Of being loving
Respectful considerate to those who have no love or respect for me
And no respecf for my grandson who really loves me
I already cried my eyes out for him
His mistreatment
I cant stop it or change what happened
Monday, November 7, 2022
Motto: My philosophy, ideas : We all win at life, your belief is your truth and reality
everyone wins, all are winners
we all eat
we have plenty of food and anything we need or want
we are all happy
there is enough to go around for all people animals and life
no one goes without
game, i dont play games when it comes to truth, no shit bull exists
Sunday, November 6, 2022
Little did I know that all the work I've done is futile: APPEARANCE RULES IT ALL
the way I look determines everything
Awareness intuition in tune not luck or chance
Awareness intuition in tune not luck or chance
Not chance
Here current circumstances
Same pattern throughout life
My guess is she he
Has same m.o. from git go
Beginning of life
Predictably
Pretty simple
Moves around places does same things
Personality consistent
Saturday, November 5, 2022
The first test of a truly great man is his humility." -- Ruskin (person, man or woman)
Your Daily Quotation:
"The first test of a truly great man is his humility."
-- Ruskin
Friday, November 4, 2022
Welcome to weirdo world where i am natural genuine
real hair all over my body
NOT PINK or PURPLE OR GREEN but its natural colors
real body not fake no plastic silicone implants metal or any other foreign objects in my body
I don't know what your destiny will be, but one thing I do know: The only ones among you who will be really happy are those who have sought and found how to serve." -- Albert Schweitzer
Your Daily Quotation:
"I don't know what your destiny will be, but one thing I do know: The only ones among you who will be really happy are those who have sought and found how to serve."
-- Albert Schweitzer
Thursday, November 3, 2022
Unexpected signs smarter than the average person
https://www.inc.com/marcel-schwantes/unexpected-signs-smarter-average-person.html
Imbalance
Way too much time doing duties mundane shit
Not nearly enough time feeling good having fun things
Mammon money material worshippers
wants to impress
put on good impression
nice face (which is fake)
status is of utmost importance
cares what strangers think
concerned about the neighbors and what they see think and do
does not care what i think or people or person that lives with them such as spouse child
feelings do not matter regarding spouse, those who live in the same house
do not have to respect those close in the home yet
demand respect and total compliance from the people in the home
grabs things out of my hand when i am trying to figure out how to do something
violates personal boundaries consistently yet won't tolerate same
throws shit on feelings wants desires like preferences of those in the home
restricts others and demands total freedom of the self
perfect looking hair OR cuts it all off so they don't have to groom it
CASh preferred payment method, NO tracking, no accountability, NO TRACE, not trackable,
suspicious distrusts mistrusts others due to knowing the self is not trustworthy
expects everyone else esp household to be agreeable totally compliant with them yet will be intolerant inflexible and demanding of others
blows a gasket over anything i do
yells at me for "cooking too much food" or I don't cook, only cook a couple times a week
and has 90 percent or so of house filled up with his stuff
as if i am not to spend any money, not eat, not have things i want do things i like have anything because "it's expensive, costs too much money"
has zero interest in my mental physical or emotional health
says doctors are out to rip people off
all the ads are out to get your money
blocks me out doesn't want to see or hear me and puts on headphones to hear outside media world and stares at screens or any other thing when possible
DEVIL appears to be an innocent sheep lamb first impression to public strangers
can look so nice
clean innocent sweet
impeccable appearnace might even be dressed in white (the color doesn't matter)
TURNS like a SNAKE
into a vehement vicious devil wolf instantly
Some think you should do anything for money. If they pay you. LACK of ethics, standards.
Would they do anything for money? In exchange for any type of item...
Wednesday, November 2, 2022
I am a nail hitter: truth
hit the nail on the head with the hammer (of my brain and mouth realizations)
which makes some people very angry pissed ticked madder than hornets
they don't wanna hear it
Avoidance behavior
We do lots of things to avoid taking action to solve issues ongoing or otherwise
wrap your mind up into any type of thing so you don't have to take care of current or future issues
watch tv
listen to some thing some where that has nothing to do with immediate daily life activities that are effiicient therefore productive
watch vids on the internet
watch, look and watch things some more so you can criticiize the fukkk hell out of those stupid idiots that dont know how to do anything therefore making yourself believe you are superior smarter than others while you sit there in a big mess of confusion not solving your own basic needs
make excuses
pretend like you don't know about a thing
pretend like you cant do anything about such and such
fake it to the maximum
complain you dont have enough money
you dont know the right people
you cant do anything to change a damn thing about much.. believe you dont have a choice
believe you are stuck
maintain rut rutful thinking
You always pass failure on the way to success." -- Mickey Rooney
Your Daily Quotation:
"You always pass failure on the way to success."
-- Mickey Rooney
Hoarder disorder MHB
takes 5 different meds pills prescription drugs for disorder that causes anxiety frustration from noises made from other living beings humans animals machinery
NOISE ANXIETY https://www.betterhelp.com/advice/anxiety/triggers-for-noise-anxiety/
drugs don't stop the symptoms
hoarder disorder mhb
section 8 housing
in violation
https://www.propertydo.com/section-8-landlords.htmlEvicting Section 8 Tenants for Violation of Lease
You can also evict Section 8 for repeated or serious lease violations. Tenants conducting illegal activities on or near the property are also grounds for Section 8 evictions. Primary examples of such breaches include:
The tenant refusing to pay for property damages caused by abuse or negligence by the tenant, listed occupants or the tenant's guest.
The tenant causes disturbance or harassment to neighbors or co-tenants on multiple occasions.
The tenant subletting or assigning the lease without the landlord's consent.
The tenant housing squatters (unlisted occupants) on the property.
The tenant keeping pets on the property without the landlord's consent (except in the case of service animals for the disabled).
The tenant committing illegal drug or criminal activity on or near the property.
The steps on how to evict Section 8 tenants for lease violations are largely similar to the ones that we have already mentioned above.
The only difference here is that you'll send to send the tenant a comply or vacate notice instead of a pay or quit notice. This notice will give the tenant a last chance to rectify any violations (typically within a 3 day deadline)
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believes fried chicken stays good edible for weeks and is safe to eat because it is cooked all the bad stuff has been cooked out of it https://www.makefoodsafe.com/does-cooked-chicken-need-to-be-refrigerated/
eats rotten spoiled food
wants to keep hang onto almost everything
too many things going at once
one 5 minute job can take 5 hours to complete
keeps many other people busy doing things he she cant or wont do
nitpick fault finding in others
saying they mistreat her stuff mishandle don't do job and/or don't do it right according to her specifications,
finds something wrong with all of the care givers
said that I you are being negative when stated consider having a sale to get rid of things...the house is jam packed it's hard to get around in most rooms of the home. it's a tight squeeze for me and i am skinny you are fat
she is very full of information, intelligent, been around to many cities and countries
she is obese fat overweight diabetes can barely get out of the bed
unable to do much daily house work chores duties except to eat, carefully maneuver around the house,
use the phone (can talk very well)
said can barely reach to wipe her rear end butt ass so a bidet is close to being a
necessity.
one of my wake up call people i know and witness see hear experience
Some people want problems not solutions
solving the problem would end the conflict and leave them with nothing to do
Serving the spirit of self and others tops accumulating material things and money
SERVICE TO the spirit of god essence OTHERS TOPS ACCUMULATING MATERIAL THINGS
Tuesday, November 1, 2022
Some say you are beautiful as you are and i respond with
Some say you are beautiful as you are and i respond with
thanks for your compliment opinion
my mother was beautiful
i am
remaining humble humility
beauty is in the eye of the beholder
my grandfather taught me when i was a child so i don't have a big head ego
I skim over stuff real quick and decide I DON"T NEED THAT most often
and i have been told by many people
you don't need that ... makeup, that thing, item material thing whatever it may be
minimalism,
less is more
People are Spending money on things junk crap we don't need: Marketing ads all over the place
Marketing ads advertising focused on telling me you us what we "need"
our vanity ego pride AIMED at
trying to make me you feel insignificant , less than, with shortcomings because they are selling this or that and tell us we have to have it to be accepted like normal just like everyone else
Monday, October 31, 2022
The p and the d
They , the males
want the p
he would die for it, the chance to get back HOME in there
they run after it, starved for the possibility of getting in there
and staying as long as possible
The d is optional for the F
She decides which M gets the P
IF HE gets any P
then he's a lucky MF
she could cut it off at any moment
leaving him sitting by himself
grabbing his D
wishing he was in th P
not getting any
due to his AHOLE self Undesirable NASTY self
I AM
..what I am
regardless of what I have, who I know, where I go, what I do
material things and money that I temporarily own
I identify myself with me; this is the I am
Sunday, October 30, 2022
Does a man male boy have only one queen in his life?
Would the queen bee be...........
mother, wife friend gf girlfriend/fiance
mate partner
NOTICED this phenonmenon amongst many men I know and have known
IF wife / girl is treated as THE queen, then mother is NOT , Mom is SHIT
IF mother is QUEEN then wife if SHIT
He treats wife like queen and mother like crap
He treats mother like queen and wife like crap
Stay out of people's a person personal choice and business. Quit telling others what to think, say do or feel
Because each one is unique.
the individual has personal preferences and choices
It's not the morphine its the size of the cage Rat park experiment
https://sub.garrytan.com/its-not-the-morphine-its-the-size-of-the-cage-rat-park-experiment-upturns-conventional-wisdom-about-addiction
A traumatized womans face. Hideous result of constant war battles.
October 28, 2022
Age 61 born in July 1961
Saturday, October 29, 2022
Walmart ..one day I'll go there to get a new back bone spine. Body parts will be sold there.
I've been saying that for many years.
Maybe I you or we can buy people there too
Iike a new set of parents, s few kids, a spouse or two
Ugly old woman. Unwanted by most. Loved by one person my grandson for now.
He's 8 years old. Won't be long he'll learn to hate me as they teach him to do.
People that love me are? Children, nice spiritual people. Animals love me.
children
Kids
animals
pets
dogs
cats
deer
real
natural
any race religion ethnic background
natural, real
Things that matter: Priorities
Material things and money
OR
Nonmaterial Spirit Source energy
Mammon or God ?
Friday, October 28, 2022
What you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it." -- Goethe
Your Daily Quotation:
"What you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it."
-- Goethe
Wednesday, October 26, 2022
Tuesday, October 25, 2022
Logic and reason do not exist with schizophrenic person
quit trying to reason with these people
they only see one side: their own
Monday, October 24, 2022
Sunday, October 23, 2022
Friday, October 21, 2022
Thursday, October 20, 2022
I praise loudly; I blame softly." -- Queen Catherine II
Your Daily Quotation:
"I praise loudly; I blame softly."
-- Queen Catherine II
How to be classy: 20 tips that make all the difference
https://www.lovepanky.com/my-life/better-life/butterflies-in-your-stomach
How to be classy: 20 tips that make all the difference
How to be classy: 20 tips that make all the difference
Usually, our behavior is modeled after our parents’. So, if you only saw lying, backstabbing, cheating, or any other kind of bad behavior in your childhood, don’t worry. It’s never too late to transform yourself into a highly classy individual.
Just remember these tips, and try to emulate them in your own life. Start small, and come back to them often. You can’t change all at once. But every time you make a conscious effort to remember these traits, they’ll become a part of who you are and the way you project yourself to the world.
So here’s how to be classy, in the subtlest and most powerful ways!
1. Don’t create drama
Unfortunately, some people thrive on drama. They will lie, pick fights, and say or do anything to get people riled up. But that’s not classy. If you want to know how to be classy, don’t go creating drama. Just don’t. [Read: Attention seeking behavior and why some people go looking for drama]
2. Stay away from drama
Okay, so many you’re not a drama creator, but if you even participate in drama, then that’s not classy. Perhaps your friend passes on a story about another mutual friend, and then you both decide to hold a grudge. That’s not classy. Don’t hang around people who create drama, and certainly participate or pass it on.
3. Dress tastefully
The media tells women that we need to dress “sexy” or “slutty” to gain a man’s attention. Well, that’s just bull. Sometimes, less is more. Don’t show up to a job interview or a first date looking like a call girl. Dress like you respect yourself and that you feel like you have nothing to prove with your body. [Read: How to be sexy, look sexy and feel sexy without ever trying too hard]
4. Be polite
Ahhhh, what ever happened to saying “please” and “thank you?” What happened to opening and holding doors for random strangers?
These basic etiquette are slowly becoming a thing of the past *or so it seems*. Don’t be selfish – think about others and have behaviors toward them that is polite. [Read: 15 tips to be nice and loved by all in just a couple of minutes]
5. Be respectful
Just because you are a liberal and your friend is a conservative, that doesn’t give you the right to trash them and their beliefs. Everyone deserves respect, so always remember that.
Treat the CEO of your company just the same way you do the janitors – or a homeless person. If you want to know how to be classy, this is definitely one you can’t forget.
6. Don’t be jealous
I know… jealousy is a natural human emotion. However, that doesn’t mean you have to talk about it or act upon it. Classy people keep it to themselves or share it with a very close friend. They don’t go raging on about their jealousy. That’s just not cool. Or classy. [Read: The subtle signs of a jealous friend you may not always recognize]
7. Be happy
You might not think happiness is part of learning how to be classy. But happy people have no need to prove themselves to others. And because of that, they don’t have to resort to doing anything that might embarrass themselves just to get attention. [Read: 13 happy things you need for a perfectly happy life]
8. Have passions
If you want to know how to be classy, have some passions! If you don’t have any, then just try things out. Everyone will find a passion eventually. Classy people have a sense of purpose, and they follow their passions.
9. Watch your body language
Many times, people aren’t even aware of the messages they send to others via their body language. But classy people are more conscious of it. They restrain themselves from rolling their eyes or getting too touchy-feely on the first date if it’s inappropriate. [Read: The classy girl’s guide to be more attractive to men]
10. Don’t jump on the bandwagon
There will always be fads and trend that are cool and fun to try. But just because all of your friends are doing something, wearing something, or saying something doesn’t mean you have to as well. Be your own person and think about your actions before you jump on the bandwagon.
11. Don’t post too many thirst traps
Everyone’s on social media, and posting selfies and keeping everyone updated on our personal lives has become a kind of norm these days. [Read: The most obvious thirst trap signs that scream “I want attention”]
But are you taking it to the next level by posting several thirst traps all the time? Sorry to offend anyone who does this, but research shows that one of the reasons they do it is to seek attention. If you want to know how to be classy, then stop making it all about yourself. [Read: What is a thirst trap and what it says about your self-esteem]
12. Have empathy
Speaking about making it all about yourself, classy people also have empathy for others. Even if they don’t agree with what other people say or do, they still express that they understand their point of view. When learning how to be classy, this is one of the vital characteristics you must possess.
13. Have self-confidence
Many people think that being self-confident is cocky or arrogant. But it’s not. The people who come across as cocky or self-loving are the ones who really don’t feel good about themselves.
Classy people just have a vibe they give out to the world that shouts, “I’m a great person, I love myself, but I have no need to announce it to the whole world.” [Read: How to build self-confidence – 16 ways to realize you’re worth it]
14. Don’t ever lose your cool
Emotions are hard to control, and some find it even more difficult than others. But even when you are angry at someone, you will want to remain calm so you don’t say or so something you’ll regret.
Take a break and walk away if you can’t do it in the moment. Don’t let your emotions rule your life and ruin your relationships.
15. Be authentic
Everyone can spot a fake person from a mile away. And being fake isn’t classy. If you’re always trying to be someone you’re not, ask yourself why you are doing that? Just be authentic. Be yourself. Be honest. All of those things are vital if you want to know how to be classy. [Read: How to recognize fake people and stay away from them]
16. Be true to yourself
What I mean by this is that you should stay true to your values and beliefs. Don’t do anything you don’t want to do.
Don’t be a people-pleaser or a doormat. Know your personal boundaries, and don’t be afraid to kindly and gently tell people when they have crossed over them. [Read: People pleaser – 20 common signs most people just don’t see]
17. Surround yourself with positive people
Positivity breeds positivity. And classiness breeds classiness. So, if you’re hanging out with a crowd of people who don’t love themselves, create drama, participate in drama, and always lose their cool, chances are that you will end up being like that.
So, you need to find people who are classy, so you can all be classy together. [Read: 25 types of bad friends you need to unfriend right away]
18. Think before you speak
Your mom probably told you this a hundred times growing up, but it’s true. Once you say something, you can’t take it back. We all get upset, but that doesn’t mean we have to blurt out every negative thing that comes to our mind.
19. Don’t gossip
Gossip is potentially hurtful. Whether the gossip is true or false, you are still talking about other people, and they may not appreciate it. So, don’t listen to gossip, and for heaven’s sake, don’t pass it on even if you do hear it. [Read: 14 surefire ways to keep it classy at a party]
20. Take personal responsibility
If you want to know how to be classy, this one is the foundation of it all. Don’t blame other people. Instead, look within yourself and own up to your actions and words. It’s not easy for a lot of people to do, but it sure is classy.
How to be a classy person who exudes confidence and charm
Use these tips to transform yourself, one day at a time. Don’t ever mistake being classy for attire, it’s a quick trick that’s only one page of the book. And you’ll find yourself even more annoyed because you’re not getting the attention and respect you demand from others.
Instead, try to become a classy person from within. Do that, and no matter where you are or how you dress, you’ll always be the cynosure of everyone’s eye, and receive the respect and admiration that’ll come your way naturally.
Taking the high road is always preferable when you want to transform yourself into a classy person. So, if you want to know how to be classy, just follow these tips, and you’ll be on the right track.
Wednesday, October 19, 2022
Frequently taking my food away from home or going into my bedroom to eat in peace for years
stomach in knots at almost every mealtime at home due to his anger mean fits tantrums outbursts yelling criticism threats cheapness bitching about how much food i eat and i go to food pantries get free food since january 2012 and did get food stamps until the fall of 2021 for a little over a year
gastritis and duodenitis diagnosis from dr ahmen back in 2016 which is ulcers i had for many years causing horrible pain in my right side and middle of my gut
What I have experienced is The sex isn't worth it.
45 years of having sex since I was 15 in 3 marriages where the sex is great but the other treatment is all about control domination power theft humiliation
Godless men indeed who care mostly about themselves
Just had a Vision of his past after he displays anger at me frustrated pissed ticked off about foundation repairs needed at house
costs too much 26,000 estimate from foundation company
house is semi bad neighborhood
not worth it to spend that much on it never get your money back if when it sells
don't have the money
can't do it all by himself
doesn't want to hire anyone else
thinks he can do it but takes a long time and is very hard work
his father and mother fretting worrying
neither one of them doesn't /don't know what to do when a situation arises
something is missing
something is broken
needs fixed repaired replaced
so frustration leads to blaming the closest person and/or people around
to take their anger out on
because they can't figure out what to do
because they are broke poor dumb and ignorant
proud and paranoid
can't let anyone in the house for fear of stealing thieves
Needs now
Home house safe all the time
New vehicle
Calm peaceful life
Solitude
Autonomy
Back surgery
Justice system doesn't work
Therapy from anyone doesn't work. The other person won't seek help doesn't think he has problems, blames me for anger and vengefulnus and bad attitude
I'll be the last person you ever hurt I said 10-19-2022 Wednesday
I'll be the last person you ever hurt I said
After he faux choked me then grabbed me and shoved my back into the stand up deep freezer in the kitchen at our house Tonight.
My eyeglasses fell off my head as he pushed shoved shook me. I caught them and my glasses were twisted in my right hand
No marks were left on my body
Same old tired worn out rat wheel pattern endlessly spinning and getting nowhere
When I got back home tonight after all of that physical confrontration from him I said one thing is you're probably not sleeping well (trying to justify, pacify, soothe, making excuses for him to justify the bad behavior. It doesn't work...ever)
He says If you werent so MEAN to me ...
When the fact is he is very mean to me
nasty tone of voice, nasty mean words, hateful attitude, negative outlook on almsot everyone and everything in life
told him earlier he was blameshifting and projecting his own behavior upon me and that
his mother was a troublemaker, made it very difficult for anyone to live with her and that is exactly what he does so he said that I am the difficult one and I am the troublemaker
I'll be the last person you ever hurt I said and outside the house in the driveway I said that again and he said OH who's gonna hurt me, clayton, your son or ricky?? I said No I don't know who it will be but it's not them. Of course they won't do a damned thing to him because he has befriended both of my sons and neither will defend me in any way. They stick up for him and act like I am doing something wrong.
in fact anyone that he has met has convinced them of his niceness, his great level headed opinions and work on anything so he gets by with saying or doing virtually anything to me and there is nothing I can do about it.
Never be afraid to tread the path alone. Know which is your path and follow it wherever it may lead you; do not feel you have to follow in someone else's footsteps." -- Eileen Caddy
Your Daily Quotation:
"Never be afraid to tread the path alone. Know which is your path and follow it wherever it may lead you; do not feel you have to follow in someone else's footsteps."
-- Eileen Caddy
Tuesday, October 18, 2022
Face of beat up person
. My looks bad. Old puffy eyes. Not very good. Peace rest might fix it. And love
Monday, October 17, 2022
Make your life a mission - not an intermission." -- Arnold Glasgow
Your Daily Quotation:
"Make your life a mission - not an intermission."
-- Arnold Glasgow
Sunday, October 16, 2022
Saturday, October 15, 2022
Efficient efficiency
Efficient efficiency
Organizing
1. Dump the trash
2. Have necessary things
3. Attention to what you're doing
4. FOCUS: No distractions
5. Stick with it (what you are doing at the moment)
until you're finished before going to next project /dute//acitivity/chore
6. Concise exact precise
7. SYSTEM
8. STREAMLINE
9. SIMPLICITY
10. LIMITS
11.
Live your beliefs and you can turn the world around." -- Henry David Thoreau
Your Daily Quotation:
"Live your beliefs and you can turn the world around."
-- Henry David Thoreau
Friday, October 14, 2022
Thursday, October 13, 2022
Effective people are not problem-minded; they're opportunity-minded. They feed opportunities and starve problems." -- Stephen Covey
Your Daily Quotation:
"Effective people are not problem-minded; they're opportunity-minded. They feed opportunities and starve problems."
-- Stephen Covey
Best thing I can do is work on myself. Keep me healthy wealthy wise happy free lots of friends and family
keep my looking good
smiling
sweet
kind
helpful
loving
Wednesday, October 12, 2022
Tuesday, October 11, 2022
People pleasing fool : myself
Walking on eggshells
Worried about not being good enough
Bullied badgered
Backwards behavior my whole life : Me pleasing him top priority instead of him prioritizing pleasing me
True of each of my relationships and jobs careers
The history of the world is the history of a few people who had faith in themselves." -- Swami Vivekananda
Your Daily Quotation:
"The history of the world is the history of a few people who had faith in themselves."
-- Swami Vivekananda
Things you can't give to someone another person or yourself
can't give someone
courage
independence
faith
will
desire
patience
fortitude
ethics
beauty
strength
Monday, October 10, 2022
Pump em up with pills shots and drugs: The motto of the world today
Don't allow the body to heal itself
Food and beverage I will avoid not eat or drink that have these words: PKU Phenylketurnuria phenylanine
angry
skinny
fat
cow
bull
lite
energy
monster
steel
healthy (read ingredient list; will consider)
miracle
fat fake
easy
fat free
sugar free
sweet freedom
power
muscle
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ingredients avoided
artificial flavor, color, fake fat, sweetener, texture
thickener fake false phony
sucralose
acesulfame potassium
equal
splenda
aspartame
phenylketonuria diet
pku
https://www.verywellhealth.com/what-is-the-pku-diet-2507160
Sunday, October 9, 2022
Saturday, October 8, 2022
Allison's advice. Narcissist narcopath experience.
Allison's advice. Narcissist narcopath experience.
Don't confront him/her
Watch your eyes
Control your reactions
Poker face
If he really loved you he wouldn't hurt you and your feelings
Thursday, October 6, 2022
Snowball of HELL thinking
thing of something bad negative horrible and focus on that
then similar nasty thoughts happen
collecting all together becoming bigger and bigger
like a huge snowball from hell
Wednesday, October 5, 2022
Monday, October 3, 2022
It does not matter how slowly you go, so long as you do not stop." -- Confucius
Your Daily Quotation:
"It does not matter how slowly you go, so long as you do not stop."
-- Confucius
Formal education has little to do with being smart
It's about memorizing stuff
and reciting what is "learned"
Sunday, October 2, 2022
Miracle am still alive and halfway healthy
Truly
Could be dead like my next door neighbor Wendy
Or in serious ly bad health like Debbie
Who used to live in the s ame house as Wendy
Or any other person
Fancy cleaners versus basic cleaning products
It's all about the money. Your choice. Spend lots of money of items for specific cleaning chores or use simple and cheap things to get the job done
incorrigible Today's word and lesson for my grandson and me
in·cor·ri·gi·ble (ĭn-kôr′ĭ-jə-bəl, -kŏr′-)
adj.
1. Incapable of being corrected or reformed: an incorrigible criminal.
2. Firmly rooted; ineradicable: incorrigible faults.
3. Difficult or impossible to control or manage: an incorrigible, spoiled child.
n.
One that cannot be corrected or reformed.
https://www.thefreedictionary.com/incorrigible
What I can do daily determines my life
What I can do for at least 4 hours everyday physically, mentally and emotionally as a job, a career
physical mental emotional activities
sustained on a daily basis
What I am capable of handling continually in the long run
not many things I can only do for a short period
It's not education status diplomas certificates
not intelligence or awareness
It is about sustainability. Being able to sustain and handle stuff every single day and still maintain health and sanity.
Friday, September 30, 2022
Some take pride in working hard to pay for expensive and unnecessary things
Buying products that have names to make one thing very little work is involved
The only place where your dream becomes impossible is in your own thinking." -- Robert Schuller
Your Daily Quotation:
"The only place where your dream becomes impossible is in your own thinking."
-- Robert Schuller
Thursday, September 29, 2022
Nocturnal me hasn't done well living with with early birds
Or working with them
I have no idea where I got being a night owl
Both my parents and grandparents were daytime people
Clean up, accounting main things in my life
brooms mops dishes
vacuum
sweep
organizing
my stuff and other people's stuff
hoarders those who don't want to clean anything up
they don't want to do that menial mundane type of work ...maybe they feel like they are above all of that
those who don't want to keep track of receipts and money spent
You Talk Too Much .. Joe Jones 1960
You talk too much, you worry me to death,
You talk too much, you even worry my pet.
You just talk, talk too much.
You talk about people that you don't know,
You talk about people wherever you go.
You just talk, talk too much.
You talk about people that you've never seen,
You talk about people, you can make me scream.
You just talk, you talk too much.
You Talk Too Much .. Joe Jones 1960
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sm2_6exVJuE
Child knows what they want and who they are. Brainwashing and indoctrination begins asap
indoctrination brainwashing of children, teens, adults
teaching conformity
sameness all should excel in all things and look and dress the same, eat same foods and same amounts
not allowing much for uniqueness and differences
focusing on the outside and not reflecting
outside focus (what is someone else doing)
comparing self to to another and gauging "success" upon competing
Wednesday, September 28, 2022
Philosophy antonyms and synonyms
https://www.antonym.com/antonyms/philosophy
1. philosophy
noun. (fəˈlɑːsəfi) A belief (or system of beliefs) accepted as authoritative by some group or school.
Antonyms
internationalism nationalism monism imitation unbelief multiculturalism formalism pluralism
Synonyms
doctrine freethinking humanitarianism phenomenology ism absolutism
Etymology
philosophy (English)
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philosophia (Latin)
φιλοσοφία (Ancient Greek (to 1453))
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noun. (fəˈlɑːsəfi) The rational investigation of questions about existence and knowledge and ethics.
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Synonyms
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3. philosophy
noun. (fəˈlɑːsəfi) Any personal belief about how to live or how to deal with a situation.
Antonyms
unbelief disloyalty
Synonyms
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Etymology
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The most important thing in communication is to hear what isn't being said." -- Peter F. Drucker
Your Daily Quotation:
"The most important thing in communication is to hear what isn't being said."
-- Peter F. Drucker
Philos philosophy
philosophy definition from antonym dot com
2. philosophy
noun. (fəˈlɑːsəfi) The rational investigation of questions about existence and knowledge and ethics.
Antonyms
inactiveness actual sin falsehood inactivity Athanasianism Arianism common
Synonyms
transcendental philosophy dialectic legal philosophy logic law
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Philos wants what is needed
appropriate adequate amounts "just right"
is not greedy
philos knows there is abundance
accepts others for what they are what it is
Understands .. seeks understanding
Solitude and reflection is practiced willingly
Politics is avoided . Philos is aware of such and chooses other activities
Teaching, arts, crafts, music, dancing, gymnastics, swimming, writing, author, authoring, books, movies, plays
Writes, talks, speaks, socializes with most beings whether it is human or other kinds of animals, beings, plants, "inanimate" such as rocks, stones, metal, cement any type of element
Solo activities alone and enjoyed tremendously
Observes the whole as well as the individual
See connections the connected of all it senses with the 5 physical senses and understands
the unseen unheard not smelled the invisible is real, the reality of which comprises the majority
of energy ..rays, and radio waves sound waves xrays gamma ultraviolet
The reality is the source energy/ energies
Radiation
IS
patient, understands, seeks to know and relate, kind, helpful, generous (wisely so)
wise,
TIME wise: past, present, future,
Reflects past
Aware of the now
Visions of future
DREAMS
ETHICAL
MEDITATES
FLEXIBLE
Round spiral swirling fluid cannot will not be shoved into a box .. any type of containment, restriction,
Does not PUSH, shove, force,
PROTECTIVE of other life forms
Appreciates, has gratitude
wants what they have, what they chose
Satisfied
Little things are the source, important, priority, ... is very content with small stuff and knows it makes the BIG things
NATURE is enjoyed, revels in the Natural
simple simplicity
pure fresh
unique original
Aware of self, focuses on what self is doing, feeling, thinking, needing, wanting
TIME understands things take time. Patient, waits without anxiety, frustration
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Utilities
ATF
EPA
FCC
FDA
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Police
IRS
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Military
Automobile production
Automobile related Licensing Sales
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Patent office
Zoo
Tuesday, September 27, 2022
Artist - Release ( Label) Cat # Status
4-Fun - You Can't Play Me (12", Promo) (EastWest Records America) DMD 1720
Al B. Sure! - Missunderstanding (12", Maxi) (Warner Bros. Records, Warner Bros. Records, Uptown Records) 0-21744, 9 21744-0
Alex Brown - (Come On) Shout (12") (Mercury) 880 694-1
Alphaville - Romeos (12", Single, Promo) (Atlantic) DMD 1318
(5) Alta Dustin - Lookin' For Love (12", Maxi, Promo) (Atlantic) DMD 1636
Angie St. Phillips* - Light Up My Heart (12") (TSR Records) TSR842
Apollo Smile - Let's Rock (12", Maxi, Promo) (A&M Records) SP-17828
B-Fats - I Found Love (12") (Orpheus Records) V-72675
Baby S - Street Fractions (2xLP, Album, Promo) (Ruthless Records) E2S 56785
(10) Basic Black - What Ever It Takes (12", Single, Promo) (Sound Of New York) L33-1091
Beats International - Echo Chamber (12", Promo) (Go! Beat, Elektra) ED 5532
Blaze - So Special (12", Promo) (Motown) L33-1043
Bobbi Humphrey - Let's Get Started (12", Promo) (Warner Bros. Records) PRO-A-4354
Bobby Rydell - Will You Be My Baby (7", Single) (Cameo) C-252
(15) Bow Wow Wow - Baby, Oh No / Cowboy (12") (RCA Victor) PD-13306
The Boys - A Little Romance (12", Promo) (Motown) L33-17896
The Boys - Thanx 4 The Funk (12", Promo) (Motown) L33-1147
The Boys - Thanx 4 The Funk (12", Promo) (Motown) L33-1147
Cherrelle - You Look Good To Me (12" Extended Dance Mix) (12", Pit) (Tabu Records) 4Z9 05279
(20) Chic - Rebels Are We (12", Promo) (Atlantic) DMD 241
Chris Jagger - Chris Jagger (LP, Album, Pre) (Asylum Records) SD 5069
Cinema (5) - New Girl Now (12", Promo) (A&M Records) SP-12283
The Controllers - Break Out The Love (12", Single) (MCA Records) MCA-23682
Curtains - That's What It Is (12", Promo) (Radar Records (14))
(25) Dead Or Alive - I'd Do Anything (Megamix) (12", Promo) (Epic) 49-04979
Deborah Harry - Sweet And Low (12", Maxi) (Sire, Red Eye, Reprise Records) 0-21446
Dimensional Sound - Disco Gold #4 (LP) (United (9), United (9)) US-7816, US 7816
Dreamboy - Contact (12", Maxi) (Qwest Records, Qwest Records) 0-20303, 9 20303-0 A
Eddy Grant - Going For Broke (LP, Album) (Portrait, Portrait) FR 39261, 39261
(30) Elliott Murphy - Texas / Out For The Killing (12", Maxi) (Closer Records) CL 1256
Eric Gable - Remember The First Time (12") (Orpheus Records) V-72681
Eve Gallagher - Love Is A Master Of Disguise (12", Promo) (Charisma) DMD 1819
Evelyn Thomas - Reflections (12") (Record Shack Records, Mega Records (5)) RSD-6955
Ex-Girlfriend - You (You're The One For Me) (12", Promo) (Reprise Records) PRO-A-4981
(35) Ex-Sample - And So It Goes (12") (Wide Angle) TTW 87133
Full Force - Unselfish Lover (12") (Columbia) 44-05333
Garland Jeffreys - Hail Hail Rock 'N' Roll (12", Promo) (RCA) RDAB-62175-1
Genevha - Life In The Movies (12") (CBS Associated Records) 4Z9-06961
Girls Can't Help It - Baby Doll (12", Maxi) (Sire, Sire) 0-29773 (Labels), 9-29773-0 A
(40) Glen Goldsmith - You've Got Me Dancin (12", Promo) (RCA) 9107-1-RDAB
The Golden Palominos - The Animal Speaks (12", Single) (Celluloid) CEL 190
Grady Harrell - Fun (12", Promo) (RCA) 9010-1-RDXCD
Inner City - That Man (He's All Mine) (2x12", Promo) (Virgin) DMD 1567
Isis - Rebel Soul / Face The Bass (12", Promo) (4th & Broadway) 440 513-0 DJ
(45) Ernie Isley, Chris Jasper, Marvin Isley* - Look The Other Way (12") (CBS Associated Records, Magic Sound Productions) 4Z9-05109
Jagged Edge Featuring Jermaine Dupri - Stunnas (12", Promo) (Columbia, Sony Urban Music)
Jamie J. Morgan - Walk On The Wild Side (12") (Tabu Records) 4Z9 73164
Jean Beauvoir - Gamblin Man (12", Single, Promo) (Columbia) CAS 1169
Jeanna Cie - Red Light, Green Light (12") (MCA Records) MCA-23878
(50) The Jim Carroll Band - Dry Dreams (LP, Album, Promo) (ATCO Records) SD 38-145
Crazy Joe* & The Variable Speed Band - Wild Thing (12", Promo) (Chance Records (7)) CH 1301
John Cafferty And The Beaver Brown Band - C-I-T-Y (12", Single, Promo) (Scotti Bros. Records) ZAS 2140
Joyce "Fenderella" Irby - Mr. D.J. (12", Promo) (Motown) L33-17777
JT Money - Hi-lo (12", Promo) (Priority Records) SPRO 81449
(55) Kathy Kosins - I've Got The Night Off (12") (Carrere USA) 4Z9 05996
Keith & Darrell - Work That Body (12", Single, Promo) (Motown) 4516MG
Kenny Loggins - Vox Humana (12", Promo) (Columbia) CAS 2041
Kim Dorell - Micro-Man (12") (OZ Magical Music) OC-101762
Kui Lee - The Extraordinary Kui Lee (LP) (Columbia) CS 9403
(60) Kwick - Shake Till Your Body Break (12", Promo) (EMI America) SPRO 9732
La Toya Jackson - Imagination (12") (CBS Associated Records) 4Z9-05389
Laura Branigan - Satisfaction (12") (Atlantic) 0-86914
Lil' Zane - None Tonight / What's Up (12", Maxi, Promo) (Priority Records) SPRO-81441
Loreta - Trouble With Boys (12") (Reprise Records, Reprise Records) 0-44790, 9 44790-0
(65) Love & Sas - Call My Name (12", Promo) (RCA, RCA) RDAC-62236-1, 07863 62236-1
Lydia Rhodes - DJ Give Me That Funky Bass (12") (MCA Records) MCA-24027
Matthew Todd - Heartbeat (12", Single) (DMM Records) DMO-9300
MC Hammer - (Hammer Hammer) They Put Me In The Mix / Cold Go M.C. Hammer (12", Single) (Capitol Records) V-15460
MC Shan - Ain't It Good To You (12", Promo) (Cold Chillin') PRO-A-4391
(70) Missy Elliott - Teary Eyed / Joy (12", Promo) (Atlantic) PR 301896
Nancey Jackson - Free (Yes I'm Free) (12") (Harmony Records (6)) 88561-1656-1
New Choice - At Last (LP, Album) (Warner Bros. Records) 1-25752
No Face - Hump Music (12", Promo) (Great Jones) GJ-603 DJ
Nu Sounds* - Condition Red (12") (UNI Records) UNI-8016
(75) Omar Chandler - Do You Really Want It (12", Single) (MCA Records, MCA Records) MCA12-53905, MCA12 53905
Party Posse - Keep Dancin' / Strivin' (12") (Jive) 1212-1-JD
Patti Austin - Honey For The Bees (12", Maxi) (Qwest Records) 0-20361
Patti LaBelle - Winner In You (LP, Album, Pin) (MCA Records) MCA-5737
Patty Weaver - Shot In The Dark (12", Promo) (Warner Bros. Records) PRO A 1034
(80) Pebbles - Take Your Time (Extended Remix) (12", Single) (MCA Records) MCA-23882
Perri - I Don't Wanna Lose Your Love (12") (Zebra Records, MCA Records) ZEB 7289, ZEB-23813
Philly's Most Wanted - Cross The Border / Suckas Pt.2 (For Da’ Gansta’s) (12", Promo) (Atlantic) DMD 2570
Phyllis Nelson - Don't Stop The Train (12", Single) (Carrere) 8.091
Poppa Ron Love - I'm A Girl Watcher (12", Promo) (Def Jam Recordings) 44-68783
(85) René And Angela* - Save Your Love (For #1) (12") (Mercury) 880 731-1
Renegade Foxxx - Scream (Get It Right) Remix / Anything U Want (12", Promo) (Still Hustlin Records)
Rich Nice - So What You Gotta Man (12", Promo) (Motown) L33-18326
Scandalous Featuring M.J. White* - Still Irresistible (12", Promo) (Atlantic) DMD 1646
She Rockers - On Stage / Get Up On This (12", Promo) (Jive) 1197-1-JDAB
(90) Short Dawg - Cruzin (12") (Russell Simmons Music Group)
Slaughter House (5) - Yaw Don't Know / That's Goin Be A Problem (12", Promo) (Slaughterhouse Music (2))
Steel Pulse - Reaching Out (12", Single) (MCA Records) MCA-23894
Stephanie Mills - In My Life (12") (Club) JABX 9
T.O.N.E. - Rumors 2002 (12", Promo) (Select Records) 95078-1
(95) Tevin Campbell - Round And Round (12", Maxi) (Paisley Park, Warner Bros. Records) 9 21740-0, 0-21740
Then Jerico - The Motive (12", Single, Promo) (MCA Records, London Records) L33-17577
Tina Turner - Let's Stay Together / I Wrote A Letter (12", Single, Pic) (Capitol Records) V-8579
Today - Why You Get Funky On Me (12", Promo) (Motown) L33-18185
Tomi Jenkins - Telling You How It Is (12", Single) (Elektra) 0-66699
(100) Twelve-88 - Uh Huh (12", Promo) (Select Street Records) 95072-1
V.H.F. - Love In The Night (12", W/Lbl) (Record Shack Records) SOHOT 75
Various - Denim (LP, Album, Comp) (K-Tel) WU 3560
Viola Wills Ashmun* - Space (12") (RVA Records) RVA 1001 RE
(104) Westside (5) - Jungle Love (12", Single) (MCA Records) MCA-23509
THE ABOVE RECORD LOT OF 104
LISTED ON OFFERUP 9-25-2022
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Gladys Knight & The Pips* - Between Her Goodbye And My Hello (7", Single) (Soul) S 35111F
Earl Grant - Sweet Sixteen Bars (7", Single, Pin) (Decca) 25574
Dick Curless - China Nights (Shina No Yoru) / Old Bob Burton (7") (Capitol Records) 3630
Jumpin' Gene Simmons* - Haunted House / Hey, Hey Little Girl (7", Single, Styrene) (Hi Records) 45-2076
(9-27-22 put on ebay) Next Issue - Dear Mr. President (CD, Single, Promo) (Epic) ESK 74397)
Dan Fogelberg - Next Time (7", Promo) (Epic, Full Moon) 8-50165
(9-27-22 put on ebay) Various - Original Movie Themes (10xCD, Comp + Box) (Documents) 231888
You're not going to change the nature of a child, man, woman or any other life form
Fighting results when another attempts to strip the natural state of the being
Sunday, September 25, 2022
MD MORE DRUGS Some do this for a living, at their job/career or on the Streets
Synthetically produced manmade drugs pharmaceuticals
Until you make peace with who you are, you'll never be content with what you have." -- Doris Mortmanin to do
Daily Quotation:
"Until you make peace with who you are, you'll never be content with what you have."
-- Doris Mortmanin to do
Too much stuff, not finishing projects, thoughts or sentences = FRUSTRATION
anger
madness
insanity
misery
hate
frustrated
pissed
upset
anxious
Saturday, September 24, 2022
Nocturnal by nature I am.
now that that right side pain is not so bad I am back to drinking black coffee when I get up then iced tea and lots of water the rest of the day
Thursday, September 22, 2022
Tuesday, September 20, 2022
How can a person do something without thinking about it?
especially a job, work
any activity or thing is THOUGHT about
Monday, September 19, 2022
Saturday, September 17, 2022
Friday, September 16, 2022
Distractions stop creativity creations. Serious consequence of allowing deferment from thoughts and goals.
What this power is I cannot say; all I know is that it exists and it becomes available only when a man is in that state of mind in which he knows exactly what he wants and is fully determined not to quit until he finds it."
-- Alexander Graham Bell
When I allow anyone or thing to interrupt I can't finish what I aim to find
focus is stopped, a deter is made, off track happens, the thing i want to do does not get done
Jwl Layson music man kc
Scimecas 1st meal spaghetti italian food jan 2000
jan 2000 to september 2008
goal to clean the music store up.
worked in a disasterized mess the whole time. anytime i or anyone cleaned up and organized john blew up and messed it up. just like his hoarder house.. crammed from floor to ceiling. shelves stacked upon shelving, extension cords plugged into endless cords and power strips into more strips .. the endless of anything imaginable
working was extremely difficult. concentration and focus almost nil
john ended up staying one most of the days while i worked by myself. he was out buying more and as much as possible every day, packing, jamming the store to the hilt
he had 3 large storage spaces at the flea he paid rent on until 2021. who knows how much money the flea made off john for his storage payments
as soon as i started at the super flea in early 2000 he said i should sign up with ebay and sell his stuff music movies books electronics anything he bought for resale
oct 1999 i got my first computer at best buy and circuit city so i could learn how to use it on the internet. i wanted to know how to use it so i could work at office jobs like accounting bookeeping
after a few years he began using his computer to burn cds and dvds movies and copy tapes anything to sell to customers to make money. he copied artwork also. the results were poor. he insisted i do it, i refused due to infringments and laws which he avoided like the plague and said i was worried about nothing, as usual, minimizing what ever i said about
doing the right things, cleaning items things and the store up. the floors were nasty, the trash cans filthy, dirt, greasy grease nasty stuff sticky floors and merchandise and cds records with scratches cracks other flaws didnt bother him in the least
every saturday and sunday i worked at super flea with john and
it was always a fight, fighting at work every weekend with him. sloppiness, stinky stuff, dirt, grim, disorder, clutter, the back counter so crammed i could barely get around to get behind the counter so after a couple of years i about gave up and laid in a recliner chair the first hour or two then crawled over to the tall office chair and sat there behind my computer screen with the notebook at the counter to hand write down the sales in columns
i am told by him you act like this is a business it is not and husband tells me to shut the f up and just do your job he is paying you 40 dollars a day at first then a big raise to 50 a day because i drove him all over town on saturday evenings after working all day so he could buy more stuff at pawn shops thrift stores and the like
and i ended up picking him up at home and taking him to work then driving him home each sat and sunday after he quit driving, couldnt drive his car anymore which he never answered the question "john, why cant you drive anymore? why did you lose your drivers license?" all these years he never did say, he just said one time "its complicated" any other time he zipped his lips played opposum like he was dead and changed the subject
couldn't clean up and organize he destroyed whatever i did. we had part time briefly a few months total maybe .. some help from a couple of other ladies jacque and bree he tore up their work, also. jacque ended up living with john for a few years until 2020 or 2021 when she went to a nursing home after getting alzheimer's disease . before she got real bad with her mind she told me she hated john's guts, couldn't stand him. she would email me with his shenanigans and talk to me on the phone and a few times in person letting me know what was going on there at the house
went to visit johns a few times could barely walk thru the house, it was no big deal at all to him. i felt like a panic attack hitting me whenever i entered. the cat piss smell was overwhelming and tiptoeing like a snake thru the 3 bd ranch home with a full basement was the only way to get thru it alive
i didnt know what he really was until 2021 after i researched it; he was a hoarder, in stage 4 of hoarding disorder.
prior to this me and my husband and any other person who knew him just thought he was dirty, messy, a collector, a buyer and seller of merchandise
summer 2021 john told me you like to talk you should write you need to write books sarah . he was in the hospital had a heart attack death was imminent .
john lessons. i learned i must have courage and patience of a saint, strength of will like hardly any other person i know who would not put up with john's habits, treatement, crap. most would walk away the very first time he shot his filthy mouth off with shit flying out of it at me. screaming at me for a drop of water on the floor i mopped, raging at me for throwing a piece of water damaged rotten cardboard into the trash can at work at super flea... his yelling at me and rage was so loud and bad that a man customer walked by when john was raging at me. the man looked at me said i will take him out right now for you ...no man should talk to a woman that way!!
working with men and married to men who didnt always do or want to do the right things .. the right things for me and most people anyway. conniving and cheating might be the right thing for them and some others. and somehow i manage to be clean, seemingly untouched and remain an angel as some say that i am.
it's not all bad, though. there are and were many good things experienced learned and had out of the tsunami war zone hurricane earthquake situations i have lived thru; some of the biggest disasters and messes a person could go there i have done, been in. survived.
story of my life.. here
my ex acted and was the same way and current hub is just as bad as all that and somehow i manage to still be alive with a tiny shred of sanity left in my poor little half wit kind hearted doormat soul
i wonder at times if i must be insane. .. yes i must be a fool. a fool's fool to put up with ass hole behaviors such as theirs
{cussing me out, threatening me, tearing the hell out of things, minimizing any ethical word that comes out of my mouth, dominating dictator hitler types, pigs, control freaks, cutting corners, cutting me down, causing tons of unnecessary work and making one hours work turn into 100 hours work, ...}
well the truth is i had hope. i really foolishly thought i could clean it up, that was my mission. i had a goal and in the beginning i tried for 9 years couldnt do it but waited gave up finally in 2021 after i left that hell hole pit in 2008 (13 years later) johns house got cleaned up and out, it's all gone. he lost it all, the entire contents and the house.
i also foolishly thought people, a person could change. and now i know the truth; they wont change one iota, bit, fraction, micron, ounce or any other measure a person can name. a person is what they are. they arent going anywhere you think they will go or want them to go. it is their life, their plan and mission to do precisely what the sam hell they want to do. it's not my business. they dont want to be fixed, told what to do, what they should think, say feel or want to be doing or going.
john and others
pushy, all about the money, material things, drive fast, get it all as fast as possible, fast food probably fast women and fast cars. impatient. demanding, yelling. accumulate stuff dont want to let go of things.
Thursday, September 15, 2022
Wednesday, September 14, 2022
Some are "I knew you could do it" after the fact. "You can't do it" and blocking you every step of the way before the fact.
pretending to have faith prior to but never did have confidence in your ability
this is lying
2 timing
Knowing what you are dealing with makes it easier to deal
Truths
cares only about what he thinks I am and should be, do, think, act
throws up walls, block, objections to things I think, want, am say, do, wear,
becomes irate throws fits
says you can't do that you don't have the money, i'm not paying for it
how are you going to do that?
i don't want you to blankety blank
i dont understand why
My purpose: sex object, roommate, house sitter, caretaker, sidekick without much say in any important thing around here at the house
house, utilities in his name only
Tuesday, September 13, 2022
Monday, September 12, 2022
Anybody everybody nobody and or somebody is screwed up thinking
I hear these words frequently from a person and people who are confused anxiety fearful paranoid crazy nuts unsure uncertain
Chicken shit
Cowards cowardly
Mixed up
Screwy
Screwed
Don't know what to do
Think in terms of should
anonymous people without names or identity includes anybody anyone any man any woman, everybody, everyone, someone, somebody.... nameless faceless meaningless OBJECTS like puppets dolls stepword wives or husbands
This type of thinking is insane.
I was told that I don't exist by another person (a female woman sister in law when I first met her in 1991, Dorothy was her name) who grew up in household using these same words that attempt to include every single person or no person in a group, activity, thought process or any other method of a life form.
I cried when my grandson was 5 because I knew kindergarten was next. I am still crying.
I cried when my grandson was 5 because I knew kindergarten was next. I am still crying.
He knows what he loves and wants. Society is about conformity to achieve a "norm" that is not about the individual.
It's about melting a person down into a huge pot of sameness with all of the others.
Attempting to strip the individual's identify away.
Children are unique. They need to stay that way. Into adulthood.
The people who maintain their SELF are the most recognized, become famous and sometimes rich in wealth. Artists, engineers, all of the fields of endeavor. The ones who blend into the mix and lose their sense of identify by trying to please everyone go down the drain.
Not be whipped into submission to conform into a blase standard of nothingness.
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am i really a failure? am i doing what i am able to do? OR am i unable to fit into other people's boxes, unable to keep up with dem...
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Any person I am talking to immediately diverts their attention to someone else or some animal or some other things in the area. They drop t...