David Newman did it to me when i was 4. beginning of my sex life as far as i remember.
after that happened i remember playing with a neighbor girl one time. i went to her house. i told her to put the end of plastic jump rope handle a small tube in her vagina and i put the other end in mine. her mother walked into the living room. i left never went back. mother must have had a talk with my mother.
later when i was 9 years old in 4th grade at rushton elementary school
living in mission kansas on west 55th street with my mom dad and 3 little brothers
i molested my youngest brother who was 5. i only did it once. didnt need to do it again. mission accomplished. my brother was scared and had no idea what was going on.
i did it to my brother due to the neighbor girl telling me you would start your period if you had sex. penis penetration. i wanted to grow up fast and be a woman.
so i bled after i sat on top of him then carefully sneaked to the bathroom to clean myself up. erroneously believed it was menstruation. childlike thinking due to lies spread from other children.
i didnt start my period until september 7, 1973 age 12
since i bled at 9 i believed i was not a virgin. a tainted spoiled ruined little girl. i would have to tell my future husband this. so i told terry jennings the 17 year old who screwed me when i was 15 breaking my virginity. he promised to marry me and love bombed me for months daily saying i love you over and over. a liar after only one thing. at least he wore a rubber condom. how considerate.
the sex was terrible. i froze in fear while he got on top. blood came out of me. i cleaned it up. he got off. got up and left the house. no sorry you didnt come, sorry i did nothing to help you enjoy it. never cared if i enjoyed it. all out for himself. he was and still is a studebaker man. i saw his facebook page this year 2025. i am 64 he is 66. people dont change.
2nd time he screwed me at my house. zipped up his pants. minutes later said i am breaking up with you. no reason given. terry talked about his ex girlfriend alot. how they screwed and she liked it. he made fun of her pronunciation of a word she pronounced it cycle allisus for psychoanalysis.
of course her educational level and speaking were not important. all he cared about and wanted from her was sex not her brain her feelings the person she was. if i remember correctly i think she was latino spanish or mexican.
next boyfriend i had sex with was a very nice guy. bert k. he was 16. he gave his big heart to me. i broke it.
i liked him alot but didnt feel strong love. i broke up with him and gave him no reason. he likely made other women very happy later in life. he was married last time i saw his facebook account. she is a lucky lady. bert drove a yellow mercury cougar i think it was. his parents mom and dad super nice sweet people like him. mom laundered his clothes smelled so good..downy fabric softener. he worked at pizza hut belton missouri. brought me pizza all the time. reeked of that restaurant ...he would pick me up sometimes after he got off work. he picked me up in the morning got us doughnuts before school.
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