I am not the answer to all your dreams..

 I am not your maid, sex slave, healer, doctor, nurse

I am not your psychologist, counselor, shoulder to cry on

I am not your cook, laundress, house cleaner

Fix your own food, clean up your own messes, jack yourself off or find another way to get off

I am not your tax preparer. I am not your room mate

I am supposed to be your wife

I am not your dream

I can't fix or solve your problems or issues

I am not your doormat fool idiot slave

the one you curse at, call bad names, threaten, humiliate, ridicule, shove, hit, knock down onto the floor whenever you are pissed at someone or something else

I am not the dog you rub its face in its own piss and shit then kick and throw out the door

I am not here to cover your mistakes 

I am not here to make you look good while you shit in my face

I am not your toilet

I am not here to wipe your nose or your ass

I am not your surrogate replacement just good enough woman that you screw when you get horny when you really want to have sex with that dream girl perfect woman girl you will never get

You are not my master. I am not your slave.

I do not owe you anything. You owe me everything and will never be able to pay for the emotional and spiritual damages you have done to me. No amount of money or material things will ever pay for what you said and did.

My health has never meant anything to you. Physical or mental. You dont want any responsibility for anything about me. Yet you took it upon yourself to pay for certain things in order to take control of my life. 

My education never meant anything to you. At first you said do what you like regarding me going back to school then changed your mind after i moved in and did everything in your power to prevent me from obtaining any higher education. Even free classes at longview college for computer skills upset you way back in 1998 1999 ..you yelled and said it cost gas money to go there was worthless i wouldnt learn anything and didnt need it period. that i would never learn or be able to do anything with computers or any other type of advanced school/education.

You do not want my help with anything

You do not need my help or advice on anything

You do not want my company companionship or presence in your life

You want sex and make zero effort to get or do things for my health including things like buying lubricant or lingerie for me. You buy me nothing in those areas and expect me to be wet and look cute and sexy in outfits you never bought for me. 

You want the free ride and all of the goodies from me then tell me constantly for years that I do nothing around here. You tell me that I expect a free ride when it is you that expects me all for free and you dont have to do much for or with me at all. 

I am supposed to jump and run in an instant you want something yet you take your sweet time when i ask for a basic thing and often throw a huge fit if i mention anything that needs done that might cost money or effort even though I am willing to do whatever work I am able to do to fix something or make this place look better.

You are supposed to be a grown mature adult man

instead you act as if i am a renter and you are the boss of all in here and own my mind heart body and soul

you act as if you are the only one who lives in this house and take over each room in it including my only room, the master bedroom which is supposed to be mine. popping in here, opening my door whenever you want as if i have no boundaries and no real space of my own. you grab any object of mine you see as if it is yours. 

I have a broken crooked twisted back and do not look like I did when I was in my 20s or even 40s. Still some men and boys find me attractive. I do not want any of them. I have a ton of healing to do before I even think about involving myself with anyone.

I am being silent. I am going to quit talking. You do not listen, dont want to hear me anyway. All of my efforts to communicate have been in vain. Talking does no good. You are a brick wall. You think you are strong because you have muscles. 

One day it will be cest le vie for good and there will be no warning. I disappear from all. My presence will be naught zero none. You will be ecstatic and very happy when you have the entire place to yourself. You never wanted a wife anyway. Just a person who is a room mate to pay bills and do dirty work run errands be a care taker to watch the house when you are gone.