Words are material, physical things like objects and cannot be taken back. Once spoken, never forgotten. Never forgiven.

Words are material, physical things like objects and cannot be taken back.
Once spoken, never forgotten.  Never forgiven.

emotions are tied to everything

emotions are tied to everything

he doesn't want me to be relaxed, happy,
confident, secure, loving

he wants me to feel anxious, insecure,
unhappy, sad, angry, frustrated, hopeless,
incomplete, unworthy, worthless, helpless

Desiderata Max Ehrmann

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.
Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.

Humans are the only life forms that prepare food, cook it, freeze it, store it in containers to consume later.

Humans are the only life forms that prepare food, cook it, freeze it, store it in containers
to consume later.

Are you tired? Sleep. Not caffeine, not energy drinks, not sugar, food or activity. Just sleep.

Are you tired? Sleep. Not caffeine, not energy drinks, not sugar, food or activity. Just sleep.

narcissist narc comments talking on the telephone

narcissist narc comments talking on the telephone

what do you want me to say
what do you want me to do
i don't know what you want from me
i don't know what to say
i can't understand
i don't understand
she doesn't like the idea of blankety blank and i
don't want to deal with it
apologizes, says i'm sorry for things that are
not their fault
does not apologize or say i am sorry for deliberate hurtful things they say or do
does exactly what they want to do, invading your or
other's privacy, place, things, items
and may give fake apologies, saying i am sorry

change rules of game all of the time, constantly

confuse you: i love you, i care for you, i hate you, i can't stand you, get out of here, i am going to kick you out, i am going to find someone who works/blankety blank, etcetera, i am tired of you, tired of this
we are going to get a divorce

welcome to the narco world where you remain confused
you are less than , never as good as, solutions are not sought, problems are
not resolved
chaos ensues, arguments abound, discussions never happen,
your worth, value, energy and power are zapped
you are compared with others
you can't make decisions without intervention
your stuff, things, dreams, ideas, ethics, goals, are destroyed, stolen,
devalued, criticized, ridiculed, ignored, hated

the narc / narcissist laughs alot about the pain, suffering, humiliation, losses, grief,
torture of other life forms

Got on inversion table May 16, 2016 first time in 4 or 5 years

Got on inversion table May 16, 2016 first time in 4 or 5 years
because he put it back in the living room.
Had to set the number to 4
Last time had to set number to 7 in order to go back and down
Husband/ spouse is at 10 and always has been since he got
the inversion table
Back hurt tremendously when I got up and still hurts alot
after using inversion table, heat pad, homemedics massager
Standing up holding myself up in front of an entertainment center
wooden structure thing that is supposed to be for a tv, which I don't have
I lie on heat/heating pad everyday at least twice a day
Height has shrunk from 5'6 1/2" to 5'5". Doctor measured height March 11, 2016
Is this really going to straighten out my back?
He has inversion table out in the garage surrounded by junk for the last year.
It was out in cold garage all winter almost inaccessible and it
stinks out in the garage, smelling of chemicals, gasoline, garbage solvents.
He says he will move it again out of the living room and it will end up
in the garage again where I can't use it so it does no good to have
a piece of exercise/ health equipment if you can't even use it.