COMPASSION ENDS

 His back hurts and top left chest.

He asked me not to talk

After I just cooked great chicken and noodles and BBQ pork. I went outside with him carried a fairly heavy box of wood in the house because his back and chest hurt so much and he finished installing the power steering pump in my van earlier today because the part showed up via FedEx.

I told him he didn't have to do it if he was in such pain. He did it anyway.

I left the livibg room. A few minutes later he gets up sits in his recliner starts reading a book with his knees propped up as if nothing is wrong. 

Told him he tells me to shut up all the time when he blamed his telling me not to talk on his pain. So I said go listen to your political news and everyone else and I will leave  the room.

He was horribly nasty to me this morning in his tone of voice when I answered his question about the ebay seller who sold me the ps pump that whined. 

I should show the same lack of compassion he has shown me since day one.

I have chronic severe back and leg pain and progressive scoliosis. I can't take the cold cant lift heavy items. Can't do things that require bending forwards like raking leaves.

I can't stand still for long or stay in any one position for long. Have to keep moving and stretching my body to try to alleviate pain.

He is a mean sonofabitch to me most of the time. 

Instead of me showing sympathy and empathy which is my nature I need to treat him the same way he treats me. 

A heartless way to be that goes against my grain but it looks like I will begin acting that way with him.