He has zero respect for me. yet screws me uses me expects me to do things love him be loyal

 nothing I say is respected. he counters it with opposite statements and says 'it's no big deal' on most everything i say

says whatever he wants with no regard to my feelings

not protective of me

not proud of me

does not want to take me anywhere or show me off

blames me if anyone looks at me, says something off color, abuses me, attacks me

blames me for any bad thing that has happened or might happen such as a car wreck that was directly someone else's fault and the guy told him admitting he was at fault

when did the disrespect begin? early as 1991 or 1992 when i first came here. i just didn't see it at the time

he redoes whatever i do, has broken stuff i got "by accident" then said you didnt need it anyway you cant grow planst you dont know what you are doing

mowed over flowers i planted or any other plant then acted like he didnt know it was there

has said ' i don't care what you want' 'i am not here to please you' ' you say and do stupid things' ' you don't know what you are talking about'  ' you think you know everything' 'oh, sarah's right (sarcastically to me after i say something i reminded him i told him about earlier'  ' i don't believe you' 'i know what you are thinking' 'you're a liar' 'you are a stupid dumb ass idiot air head ..you have no common sense..you are not business like, 

who does he respect? trump, political people republicans, new age artists musicians, people in ufo stories, edgar cayce, psychic readings from strangers as if they are actually credible and believable and telling the truth, 

does not respect me period yet claims he cares about me, loves me, is faithful, hasn't been with any other woman since me, has sex with me, gets me material things sometimes, works on my vehicles, pays for car insurance and property taxes and of course reminds me of it often about how much money he has to put out not giving me credit for bills i pay and have paid and groceries and household things i buy and all household duties i currently do and have done in the past. whatever i have done regarding work paying for anything is minimized and disregarded as nothing