I think we are born without a conscience. Without remorse.
I was programmed like many to feel wrong for lots of things . I was taught to feel guilty bad responsible. Like "don't lie cheat, steal, destroy, covet, lust , be proud, get angry, break things, take more than what I need, hoard, leave a mess, be tired and lazy slothful, arrogant, cocky, bully and tease and mock others" yet I have done all those things and so has everyone else
The natural animal state is to be all these "bad" things. Corruption is in all and everywhere.
Committing murder is the only thing I haven't done yet I wanted to. The idea of jail and incarceration stopped me.
Shame blame feeling responsible for things I am not the cause of is stupid.
What good is it to feel bad ? What good is empathy or sympathy? Why should I feel bad for someone who did not stand up for themselves?
I should never feel bad or apologize for anything i thought said or did.
If i recognize I made a mistake, an error just correct myself don't do it again and go on about my life.
People dont forget anything I or you did wrong. They do not forgive.
They hold it against me all my life.
Forgiving someone once is ok and fine but when they deliberately keep hurting me or anyone else that is when forgiveness ends.
Fool me once shame on you.
Fool me twice shame on me.
That is the message from him. Whatever bad happened to me was my own fault. He takes no responsibility and never protects me in any situation. If I were ever attacked. ever raped and killed he would blame me
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