And can't do it
I wore myself out and hated to have to sleep
I need quite a bit of sleep and can't work long hours or days. I get sick and tired easily.
I did weird things like try to live on coffee and stay awake. It doesn't work. Worked at jobs heavy lifting automobile work painting houses hanging sheetrock carrying it and 4x8 sheets of plywood, carrying heavy firewood, doing ridiculous things for strong men not fit for me. Took long trips out of town with my ex husband working at festival all long days, doing electrical work out of town, mechanical work with him.
I tell my younger self I was a fool for even thinking I can and should do all that stuff.
I could not keep up with the guys men in any hard labor job. Lawn care is another I did.
I spent most of my life in the wrong jobs not designed for me.
My fragile body is why I can't hold down a wide variety of jobs or careers
I believed in the if there's a will there's a way and you can do anything you want if you try hard enough. Total crap thinking.
Scattered. Ill placed. The men just made fun of me and some sexually harassed me. They are trying to work and I was a distraction...a little female in the area all they could think about was sex.
This is why they don't want me around when they are working.
Penis brain takes over. It's nature. Any semi attractive female in the vicinity is a distraction. Especially if they see some leg butt boobs tit or mouth looking young shiny glossy lips pink or red even purple.
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