each time I am beginning to do something, "What are you doing?"
then acting like he doesn't understand and/or attempting to take control of what I am going to do, predicting the outcome (often negative with "you can't do that", "you ought to do this", "that will never work", "that sounds good, why don't you do this or that"
WTF why can't I make my own decisions, do exactly what I feel I need to do without him or anyone barraging me with silly relentless questions and comments
First thing this morning. I get the frozen beef out, chop onions celery garlic, get green pepper and carrots out to prepare food. What is it he asked "beef" I said. What are you going to make? I dont know yet. Either asian stir fry chinese or stew.
conversations with many people who attempt to control what I am thinking, wanting, needing to eat, drink, sleep, work, methods have happened my entire life .. and i remember my mom saying her mom, grandma sarah would take over and not let her even bake a cake the way she wanted to do it. grandma would take the utensils out of her hand and say here you should do it like this not like that.... starting a fight every time
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