should should not come out of a mouth

 his you should come out and say hi

to him ricky your son he came over to see you

said may 11 2025

he opened my door told me this did at least 3 times bothering me. i was not ready to come out. not feeling good. began coughing wheezing hard late last night after i got home from tony and williams house. i almost puked up my dinner. dont feel good. slight fever. tired just leave me alone. 

he wouldnt do it. pestering me until i came out of my room into filthy garage where they were sitting out there talking 3 hours it ended up being 

playing that shit music i hate. new age opera sounding this time no words no one singing. i went out talked about 10 minutes sd i have to leave i cant stand that music and dirty garage i dont feel good 

i said you call me if you want to talk to and see me you dont call him 

same old shit . he doesnt listen i have told him and many others same thing many times.  none hear or take heed. its as if i never said a thing . they all run over here whenever they want often unannounced. its really to see mike not me. it is all about mike even on mothers day. any day. none of those people give one shit about anything i say or about me. 

in this morning another one kirk is coming over having mike run him to bonner springs kansas looking at some old 1988 junk car truck for kirk.

anyway i said

from  now on i say should

you are always saying to me " you should do this, not do this, say this think this, watch this , listen to this  ,dress like this look at listen to this. "

 i would love to live by myself. dont answer the door. if i am not feeling good busy or asleep then i do not have to answer to any door or phone or anything.

therefore i have privacy.i can sleep or work or finish anything i started . zero interruptions. at no time do i respond with rudeness  because i did not have to answer door to bull shit