he mls

 is hyde

must have constant noise

many things 

multiple projects

constant activity

control of area people animals things weather

visual stimulus often

is jekyll in public

is unsecure. fear based

conjures fallacies and reasons

has many faces personalities

hates his own reflection

intolerant of mistakes of self and others

hides lots of things

tells me things and people he hates wont tell them to their face

predicts negative outcomes often

sees the dark side

doesnt want strangers public to think bad about him the way he thinks bad of others

ultra sensitive to any stimuli

believes in ufos aliens 

seems unaware of effect he has on me not taking responsibility for his words and actions then blaming me for it saying i did something when i didnt

views world as battleground of war

impulsive anxious shaky jumpy nervous

cant stand silence or meditation self reflection

trouble remembering dreams

awakens wakes up quickly

fmo fear of missing out

sympathetic at times zero empathy other times

feeling sorry for something like the weather was bad but not for what he said or did

cant sit still when eating at the table

eats meals and snacks in recliner often

uses single serving alcohol bottles rum whiskey any kind

saves little packets of condiments

makes sure none of my stuff is left in his car truck bedroom any room but mine

likely has sides and life i dont know about

has never forced sex upon me

allows me to sleep as long as i am in a bedroom

i dont think he snoops thru my stuff

doesnt want strange men or males in the house females are okay 

doesnt want me to tour the house

doesnt want me alone with anyone in house

insists he be in house if anyone else is here

misinterprets my face mood words motives actions often

denies i have intelligence am smart am nice people like me that i have talents can go to school 

believes in getting replacement before getting rid of old item

rollercoaster ride of love hate ambivalence towards me

emotional ups and downs

lacks enthusiasm for most things, complains instead of being appreciative

says goddammit alot uses the name of the lord in vain and cusses saying son of a bitch crap shit its all a bunch of crap shut the fuck up fucking dammit damn them 

is insecure

focuses on hair, body, spots on the face putting makeup over any flaw scar pimple imperfection combs hair perfectly, into the physical appearance and activity more than inner growth spirituality 

freaks out over many things: seeing me throw anything away from food to material items i put in the trash give away donate toss outside in the yard

seems to not understand expired things that have expiration date and have a shelf life. believes things stay good for years way beyond their use including vitamins medicine pills spices paint canned goods food 

saves tiny and travel size bottles containers for years, keeps small bottles of shampoo in the shower doesnt want to throw them away toss them out get rid of them

worry worry wart worries incessantly nonstop over everything instead of having faith belief trusting energy god forces. negative viewpoints are instant and immediate in response to most things

doubters, doubts all, is skeptical of just about everything

suspicious 

black sabbath paranoid

schizophrenic family. what my mother warned me about. mom was always talking about schizos.

unable to see he is the problem has mental issues learned from mother and family

bounces from loving compassionate to intense hatred anger