Live with a person like my grandmother Sarah, a narcissist.
She had one way to do all things: Her way. No disagreements allowed.
Controlled who I associated with. Would not allow me to use my own judgement to determine character of others or anything else. Banned certain tv shows, food and drink, activities. Spending the night at most people's houses.
End result. A child then teenager then adult (ME) who lived her own little world controlled by her.
I began writing in a diary at age 9. My release of her domination on paper by recording things that happened and writing my feelings and emotions on paper in ways that were kind of "coded" so if she ever found my diary/journals she wouldn't feel offended, take it personally and destroy my work.
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