DL = down low meaning he is secretly gay appearing to be straight
notes and memories of his behavior words and actions
pantyhose obsession has to feel it when sees it. any hosiery with holes in it or designs is sexy turn on for him
any soft material look must touch it
hair obsession, his and mine, constantly focuses on and says my hair usually looks flat therefore dirty when i have just washed it. my hair is fine and naturally lays flat unless it is cut really short
wears my womens makeup foundation on his face must cover any marks scars red spots pimples
teeth obsession buys tons of toothbrushes toothpaste mouthwash
homophobic talks against gay men acts like he doesn't understand it yet
loves idea of homosexual women having sex with each other
single male friends he has...don't know of any married ones only my 2nd son is married
gossips about others
knows all about neighbors
legs are smoothe, he might be shaving them
hates women, most abusive to female mate/spouse/wife/partner. A misogynist.
acts over masculine in public
avoids physical contact with anyone men or women in front of me
gets upset if i hug or touch anyone male or female
smell of ass crap shit main focus during sex (why?..maybe he smelled ass too much from doggy style rear ending other people)
doggy style is one of favorites but cannot do it very long
me on top is how usually ends
same old sex positions patterns every time
afraid of ejaculating in my mouth
highly attentive focused careful not to make a mess leave semem come sperm on anything . focuses intently on cleaning up aftewards.
within a few minutes after sex leaves abruptly. zero none love cuddling affection before during or after sex
sex is only a release to have an orgasm and he says it is "good exercise", a comment I have never heard any other man say
a camera in my bedroom he apparently forgot i had in there last august of 2025 showed 2 different outstanding things: a picture of a face i have never seen, a young white male probably a teenager with short cropped hair on top of his head probably blond or light brown hair and a video of him coming into my room that night when i was gone. he went into my bathroom holding only a flashlight and came out holding an object in his left hand which looked exactly like 3 fake penises held together..all the shapes had the head of a dick on all three he held tightly in his hand. this is an object i have never seen before.
he goes ballistic mad temper if any part of my butt or too much top of boobs is shown
throws fit if i exercise on floor even when wearing leggings and spread my legs in any fashion
avoids refuses public displays of affection pda. no holding hands, no kissing, no hugging. totally avoidant.
walks 10 20 or 30 feet ahead of me when we go anywhere and avoids shopping with me in any store
he tells me i can't tell if a guy is gay by anything..the way the look, dress, talk, act. in some cases this is true especially if the guy acts totally macho
obsessed with listening to watching news or stories that prove a point prove a thing he believes is true such as et extraterrestrials ufo flying saucers, reincarnation, psychics edgar cayce
goes to a favorite park the one he likes the most and hangs out in the parking lot before and after walking. it has lots of hidden dirt trails in the woods. perfect place like a hideout for anyone to do all kinds of things that can be hidden done in secret away from prying eyes. who knows how many possible encounters and people he met in the woods over the last 20 or 30 years.
he does not like walking trail parks that are cement wide open where all people are visible/easily seen and spotted . he says the cement /concrete hurts his feet.
adhd attention deficit disorder. all over the place. hard to track around the house and yard. I have no idea what the heck he does when he leaves the house. when we are together he tends to say something about a person when we are close to where they live and has sometimes just popped in a person unannounced so i am thinking when he is by himself he probably does this alot. .. as soon he thinks of something he does it.
this unplanned spontaneous behavior makes me think he visits places and people on the spur of the moment and does not tell me later where he was or who he was with. he has told me about some incidents where he suddenlty decided to go visit a relative. example; a few months ago he said he was leaving the dump site off raytown road after dropping off brush and decided to go visit his uncle in lees summit because he figured he wasn't that far from his place. i don't think he called the man to see if he was home first. he just popped in and surprised him, thinking..oh he is old and doesn't go much of anywhere so he will be home. He also allows this "pop in" behavior frequently from people we know that do this to him/us . I am sick of these people just "deciding to come over" and they are only 5 minutes or 15 minute drive away from the house. And the ones who just come over which is totally unexpected and unknown to me but HE already knew the day before or several days before they were coming over and he FAILED to tell me about it. This crap upsets my home life making it difficult for me to EAT on a regular schedule and do anything without fear that these oddballs are going to just DROP IN UNEXPECTEDLY ON ME.
so now I have ideas that he probably meets strangers then suddenly decides to go to their house or go out to eat with them. he did admit he went to a mexican restaurant with the old man at the park one day several years ago. he did not tell me about it the day it happened. he referred to it many years later after recalling the incident. he also said the old lady at the park named grace lives right by the PARK he favors and he has been to her house.
I wish I had access to the google maps on his phone and could trace all these places over the years.
suppositories he uses when can't go/constipated. has done for many years. i offer easier things like eating right, drinking lots of water, taking senna pill night before but he doesn't want to do this. he likes to see immediate results for things and sticking a suppository up one's rectum is probably faster. he also refuses to try taking an enema which would give fairly quick results. i have a nice bag for this i bought a few years ago.
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