a hole is all i have been treated as: like celie in the color purple movie and many other movies/stories

 maid

cinderella

alice in wonderland

sex object hole

not one male has ever had interest in me as i am

who and what i am

myself

my mind

what i want

what i need

simply around for a replacement 

hole

convenient 

to take the place of some one else some other

woman they want and fantasize about