this is main source of misery. hating self reflection, hating mirrors, hating to be told what he/she said and did, not admitting words or actions, denying what he/she said or did,
instead of focusing only on what he is doing and looking in the mirror he constantly monitors others judging criticizing
always focused on outside, looking watching all neighbors, cranks head to see the people anywhere he is, driving, walking, in a store, any place
cannot will not focus full attention on me and what i am saying when i am talking to him. insteaad is easily distracted answers cell phone right away, if looks at me will find a flaw with something about me immediately such as my hair, my eyes makeup clothing anything to nitpick criticize me and not listen to a word i am saying
this behavior of focusing on others misinterpreting things blaming yelling screaming accusing fighting picking fights attacking is the same as the relatives/family members i have known, most of which are dead; karen, jerry, john, marjorie, norman, dorothy,
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